As soon as her blood was on my tongue, it was a point of no return for sure. The flames in the background, the screaming, the voices, it was all gone. All that was here for me was blood, Bella's blood. My loves blood.
There was a hint of the venom mixed in, and I could taste the burn that followed along with it,but the blood overpowered it for me. My body has been craving it for so long, trying to fend off this hunger, and now it is finally relaxing.
It's a weird feeling, a feeling I've only felt when Bella has been in my arms. Bella, she is so beautiful and kind. The living definition of an angel. Her blood is as divine as her herself.
My hands clutch at her arm that I am holding to my mouth. I try to focus on just getting the venom out of her system, but I'm afraid I'm past that point now. Now it's just blood. Sweet, delectable blood.
"Edward stop, the venoms out, your killing her" Carlisle's voice floods my mind. But its unclear, it sounds weird.
Whats going on?
My eyesight begins to blur and my lips pull away from Bella's wrist. Everything sounds, weird, why can I not hear right. I should hear the cars from outside but I can't, I can still hear my family's thoughts. And the last thought was from Carlisle ,before everything went black.
Edward!
The sound of a beeping noise was the first thing I could hear when I came back from the darkness.I felt...dizzy?
I opened my eyes, then winced away from the sharp fluorescent lights above the hospital bed, I'm in.I'm in a hospital bed, but how? I look down at my arms. My arms that no longer seem pale and cold, I can't even see everything as clear as before. Everything seems less magnified, less detailed.
The curtains don't have millions of tiny holes in them, instead they look completely bold and filled in. There's no buzzing noise from the light, and it actually hurts to look up at them directly. There is a needle sticking into my arm, through a vein.
What the hell is going on?
"Ah, son you're awake." A pale figure appears in front of me ,making me scream and slide up the bed. The beeping noise escalates making me panic even further. I look wide eyed at the man standing in front of familiar, but he looks strange.
"Car-" I stop speaking from shock of hearing my own voice. Even Carlisle seems surprised by my strange tone. I feel a tingling sensation in the back of my throat and cough. I actually cough and take in a sharp inhale afterwards. It feels good to breath, and it feels like I need to.
"Edward, I know you must be, Confused-"
"I can't hear your thoughts," I mumble, confused.
He sighs. "Edward,I know you're confused ,but something happened when you drank Bella's blood-"
Bella...
Everything floods my mind, from James, to the fight, to the fire and then to the bite. The bite that lead to this. The beeping accelerates again and I can feel something hitting my chest making my face warm.
"Oh my," Carlisle mumbles so low I nearly miss it.
"Bella! Where is Bella!" I demand in panic. I sit up fast, making the room spin and the needle in my arm tugs, making me wince in pain.
"What the hell! What is going on Carlisle?" I ask him.
"Your human Edward," He tells me.
"What! I'm not human. I can't be Carlise that's impossible," I begin to say, but the more I say it the more realistic it . I inhale through my nose smelling nothing ,but disinfectant. I understand now why every human hates the smell of hospitals when they enter one.
"It is...well it wasn't. When you drank Bella's blood, you started to change. First you just fainted ,but you have been out for three days now. And over those three days, you have gained a heart beat, blood, you breath and you even look a trace of vampire left in you"
Three days, I've been out for three days. Being human feels like the least of my worries. The only thought on my mind is Bella.
"Bella. What happened to Bella," I demand sitting up straighter in the bed. I'm wearing a hospital nightgown with only my boxers underneath as coverage.
"She lost a lot of blood, but she's 's had some blood transfusions and has a broken leg. Her mother's with her at the moment, shes awake if you want me to take you to go see her?" Carlisle offered.
I didn't need to second think this at all, Bella was here alive. I need to see her.I needed to make sure I didn't kill her. I couldn't live with myself if I killed the woman I love, who I cherish.
"Take me to her," I tell Carlisle, and he nods. I go to get out of bed and before I can even comprehend it Carlisle has taken out my needle and placed a plaster over it.
"I know how Bella feels now. The speed kind of makes you lightheaded," I comment making Carlisles laugh.
"Come on son, lets take you to see Bella," He says.
I pull the sheets off my body and the cold air hits my bare legs. I look down seeing them, tanned with short dark hair covering them. I stand up, and nearly fall back over again. If it wasn't for Carlisle holding my arm and straightening me out. His cold touch makes me shiver.
"This is so weird," I muse aloud.
"Tell me about it." He says right back, and he holds my arm helping me out of the room and towards the elevator.
"Does she know what happened to me?" I question as we wait for the doors to part. I can't even tell when it will arrive, I just feel useless.
"No, but I think she will have a little bit of a shock when she does see you,"
"Probably because I'm not perfectly handsome anymore." I say, then hang my head low. It always was a feeling that Bella only truly wanted me at first was because of my 'looks' that my vampire genes gave me.
"Oh no, son. Even as a human you are handsome, just see for yourself." Carlisle gestures to the closed doors, that open to reveal a small metal box with a large mirror showing my reflection right back at me.
I take a deep breath before walking around the door and looking at Bella. My eyes seem to focus on the large, plastered, brace on her leg. Then I see her arm poking out of the bed with a bandage secured around her wrist.
Then I look up at her face, her beautiful face, full of surprise. The beeping noise in the room increases, and only now do I know it's her heart monitor. I may not be able to hear it anymore, but at least the machine tells me I still affect her. Only now I can understand how she feels.
My own heart pumps in my chest, as I look at her. I was always attracted to her, but now I feel it, I really feel it. My stomach feels weird, like it's heavy, but of course its not. I'm the same size I was as a vampire, maybe a little less muscle, but still the same size.
"Edward?" Bellas shaky voice, questions as she tries to sit up straighter. I immediately rush over to her side, trying not to fall over in the process.
"Don't move, I don't want you hurting yourself even more," I demand her, though I find myself smiling as I talk. She looks at me with wonder on her face, as I lean over her by her bedside.
"You look-"
"Different?"
"Human." She says,and slowly her bandage arm reaches up and holds my cheek.
"Your warm." She states. Her touch used to be like fire, but now it's just warmth, natural against my skin. I feel a warmth flood my cheeks and hope to god I haven't got Bella's human trait of blushing.
"Calrise said, that I started to change after I drank your blood," I tell her and her brown eyes hold my own with such confusion, but also awe and love.
"Change? Your human now. But that's impossible, you said so yourself," She ranted and I took a seat next to her making the bed creak in the process. That wouldn't have happened if I were still a vampire.
"I thought so as well, there are no legends or stories that tell of a vampire transforming into a human after drinking blood."
"Do you think... it's permanent?" She asks me, as her hand continues to stroke my cheek slowly in a caress. A caress that makes my heart pump furiously against my chest. Such a strange feeling after having it dead for so long.
"I don't know." I sigh. "Do you, not like me like this?"I couldn't stop myself from looking down at the bedsheets, then her face. If Bella doesn't love me as a human how will I least I can actually end my life now if I want.
"What! Edward dont be ridiculous. I love you, vampire or could be a troll and I would still love you." She tells me putting her hand in mine.
"Seriously?" I question.
"Deadly serious," She confirms. The love I feel for her blooms in my body, and I smile at her, pulling her gently into my arms. Wait, I don't need to be gentle with her anymore.
Instead I hold her closer and breath in her still intoxicating smell, but it's not a smell that wants me to devour her. It's a smell that makes me want to lay with her all day and just have her lilac smell to myself.
"I love you, so much" I tell her, kissing her neck and smiling at the irony afterwards.
"You still love me? Even if you don't want my blood?" She questions the worlds most ridiculous question, in my eyes. She is a beautiful as I remember, even more so.
"Because I craved your blood, that wasn't the reason I fell in love with was the reason that brought me closer to you, so I could see the beautiful, caring woman in front of me now.I will always love you Bella, and now I'm human I can love you worrying about killing you."