Love
Everywhere I turn, I see things I don't deserve. I feel
that I want to earn them. I want to repent for my guilt. Every
night I dream the same dream, making me miss my family I miss my
sanity. What is it that I can't get past? I can't do this alone.
I need someone to help me over this mountain. The alternative is
to know what I need and be too lonely and disconnected to get
support.
I stared at her shaking form from afar. I knew she was
lonely, and hurting. I have been there so many times. The only
problem is every time I get too close, I get burned. I wish I
could show her, she is worth more than she thinks. I need to give
her the support I never got. I take my chance and sit beside her.
Her bare feet dangled off the short cliff, the water below
rippled with every tear that dove into it. She didn't look up; I
could tell that she wants to ignore me.
"You don't have to hide." I said.
"It's none of your business what I have to do. I'm only
here because you guys need me."
"Sure, we have you physically, but where is your mind?"
"What do you care?"
"Is that your business?" She looked at me with eyes like
daggers. I grinned at her, knowing that I can push her buttons.
She sure is cute when she is angry.
"If you want to just piss me off, walk away."
"It would anger you if I left?"
"Just leave me alone. I don't want you to care."
"That's what you think. Listen, I know what its like,
being alone and trying to deny it. It's not a wise thing o do.
You end up getting hurt. Just tell me what you are feeling. I
will listen to you."
"I I I don't need to answer to you!" She got up. I grabbed
her hand and pulled her back down. I'm almost there.
"You won't be answering to me, but to yourself. Just let
it go. Stop holding it in.""
She crouched there, thinking. I guess trying to figure out
if she could trust me.
~
He kept hold of my hand. I sat there, enjoying his warmth.
I was being hypnotized. I knew I could trust him. I trusted him
with my life. Through all of the battles, he protected me, kept
me safe. The question is, can I trust myself? I felt the
warmth invade my senses, tears started to fall down my cheeks.
His hand rose to my face, gently wiping away the tears. My body
went limp at his touch; I fell into his arms, crying a river. He
held me, rubbing my heaving back, whispering things to me like,
"Its okay, you will be alright." It felt good to have someone
hold me. It felt even better for it to be him. I sank into his
arms; he brought my face up to his and our lips touched. He
kissed me with so much passion, and I felt something I haven't
felt in along time. I felt love.
Everywhere I turn, I see things I don't deserve. I feel
that I want to earn them. I want to repent for my guilt. Every
night I dream the same dream, making me miss my family I miss my
sanity. What is it that I can't get past? I can't do this alone.
I need someone to help me over this mountain. The alternative is
to know what I need and be too lonely and disconnected to get
support.
I stared at her shaking form from afar. I knew she was
lonely, and hurting. I have been there so many times. The only
problem is every time I get too close, I get burned. I wish I
could show her, she is worth more than she thinks. I need to give
her the support I never got. I take my chance and sit beside her.
Her bare feet dangled off the short cliff, the water below
rippled with every tear that dove into it. She didn't look up; I
could tell that she wants to ignore me.
"You don't have to hide." I said.
"It's none of your business what I have to do. I'm only
here because you guys need me."
"Sure, we have you physically, but where is your mind?"
"What do you care?"
"Is that your business?" She looked at me with eyes like
daggers. I grinned at her, knowing that I can push her buttons.
She sure is cute when she is angry.
"If you want to just piss me off, walk away."
"It would anger you if I left?"
"Just leave me alone. I don't want you to care."
"That's what you think. Listen, I know what its like,
being alone and trying to deny it. It's not a wise thing o do.
You end up getting hurt. Just tell me what you are feeling. I
will listen to you."
"I I I don't need to answer to you!" She got up. I grabbed
her hand and pulled her back down. I'm almost there.
"You won't be answering to me, but to yourself. Just let
it go. Stop holding it in.""
She crouched there, thinking. I guess trying to figure out
if she could trust me.
~
He kept hold of my hand. I sat there, enjoying his warmth.
I was being hypnotized. I knew I could trust him. I trusted him
with my life. Through all of the battles, he protected me, kept
me safe. The question is, can I trust myself? I felt the
warmth invade my senses, tears started to fall down my cheeks.
His hand rose to my face, gently wiping away the tears. My body
went limp at his touch; I fell into his arms, crying a river. He
held me, rubbing my heaving back, whispering things to me like,
"Its okay, you will be alright." It felt good to have someone
hold me. It felt even better for it to be him. I sank into his
arms; he brought my face up to his and our lips touched. He
kissed me with so much passion, and I felt something I haven't
felt in along time. I felt love.