Bella awoke to her alarm clock. It was just another day. Another day in the long line of days she so tragically lived. Would she ever see Edward again? Would she ever feel him near her? Bella got out of bed, feeling the darkness in her heart and the bottomless pit in her stomach. Her emotions were bottled up – her feelings frozen and rotting her insides. She lumbered to the bathroom, but it was as though everytime she looked in the mirror, Edward was looking back at her. In the silence of the morning, Bella picked up her razorblade and dug it into her arm. She watched the release of blood, and the feelings left her. She had emptied for the day. Now time to get ready for school.
School was always the same for Bella. People talked but she didn't listen. Why should she? Edward was gone, after all. "Bella wats wrong, you look horrible.!" Her friend said in a concerned voice. "Edward left me. My left is an empty void. So empty. Empty with a big emptiness in my heart." Bella sighed and headed towards the bathroom, looking at her big fat ugly face in the mirror. "Nobody will ever love you!!" She cried to herself, sobbing. "The only person that's ever loved me is goonnneee!" She sobbed in pain. Oh, how she wanted to go home.
She didn't pay attention in class. She remembered how she lost him. At night, he haunted her dreams. The cutting didn't work all the time. The self loathing seemed to get worse. The only thing that ever mattered in her life was Edward. Her friends didn't know what to do – but they didn't understand. Didn't understand her pain, that feeling deep inside her – she had lost the love of her life. Lost him. Forever. As she sat in her English class, she closed her eyes. Bella let herself think of his beautiful features, so slightly touched with sadness, it always made her heart break. She remembered the last time she had seen his face. Her mind started traveling backwards, through the sands of times…back to where it all began…back to when it all started…back to him…