Abby writes a letter to Gibbs'. Song-fic. Post-Hiatus.

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Emotionless- Good Charlotte

I just thought of this while listening to emotionless, it's my first ever NCIS fanfic so I hope you enjoy.

Dear Gibbs,

Hey dad
I'm writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart

I still cry at night. No matter how hard I try not to I can't help myself. You were my father in so many ways and you just left us. Left me.

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl?

We all took it hard. All of us. Tony's been a great boss but he'd give it up in a second to have you back. McGee misses you too. Even Ziva wants' you to come home to us.

When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're all right?
Well we're all right
We're all right

We're coping. It's hard, but we're coping. We solved some tricky cases. I think you'd be proud of us. Especially Tony.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?

There was one case when a little girl was kidnapped and afterwards, when she was home safe, Tony came down to help me process evidence and he just started to cry. We've all cried so hard.

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

Jenny tries to say that she only misses how good you were at your job but she's nearly as bad a liar as me. You broke her heart Gibbs. She's hurting.

It's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

You were my hero. You still are. But, even after all this time I can't quite believe you could do this to us.

The days I spent so
Cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take
To my grave

I barely spoke just after you left. I didn't play music in my lab for weeks. I couldn't sleep for days.

But I'm okay
I'm okay

It's hard. But I'm coming through. I have Tony and Tim and Ziva and Jenny and Ducky. And we're all getting through it together.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok, but were all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive
Yeah I'm still alive

And Sometimes
I forgive
Yeah and this time
I'll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you

And I do. You hurt me so bad. You hurt us all. But I would forgive in in a heartbeat if you'd come home. I miss you Gibbs.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive..

And we all miss you. We all want you back. We all need you Gibbs.

And sometimes
I forgive
And this time
I'll admit
That I miss you, I miss you
Hey dad..

I love you so much Daddy,

Love Abby

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