There is a horrible crushing feeling in my chest. I can't think beyond this strange buzzing in my head. I can feel my body moving, and I am breathing hard as I fight this strange force that has taken hold of me. My head is pounding, and I can taste the acrid gasses building up in my throat before I fire. "Why?!"
I can't think, I can't move my own body! What is happening! I feel the panic in my belly building.
Suddenly whatever is holding me is gone, I shake myself and turn to find my rider.
There is sorrow in the air, so thick I can taste it. I creep slowly up to the Alpha of my house, my riders father. He smells of my plasma bolt, desperation, and DEATH! What has happened?
My rider is yelling at me and pushing me away! Why?! I don't understand what has happened. Hiccup has never rejected me before! Hiccup continues to yell and I slink back in despair.
There is more yelling, but I pay it no mind. My Hiccup has rejected me, and I sink into despair.
I welcome the buzzing instead of fighting it this time, I nearly sigh in relief as the buzzing takes away the pain.