This is a new fanfiction starting before Michelle moved to Coronation Street. Please share and leave a review. Aby x
I can't believe this is happening, I didn't know what I was going to do. He can't be gone, he can't be. I sat there shaking, tears streaming down my face. How was I going to go on without him? I was sat at the hospital with my mum and dad on either side of me, my mum had hold of my hands trying to comfort me while my dad had his arm around me. I was just staring at the floor hoping it was all just a dream. I saw two people walking over to me but it was all just a blur from the tears building up in my eyes.
'I'm so sorry Michelle' I worked out who it was so I stood up and threw my arms around him. Liam was always there for me, protecting me. It sounded like he was apologising for something, but I didn't care at the minute. I stood there helpless in his arms as he tried to make me feel better. I slumped back into the chair and more tears feel down my face.
'Michelle Connor' I heard my name. I looked up at the figure stood in front of the family and nodded. She handed me a bag with a watch, wallet and phone in. I was still shaking. I watched as the figure walked away leaving me alone with my family. My mum wiped away my tears so I could see a bit clearer.
'Mum…' I said still shaking
'Yeah Chelle' My mum said still holding my hands
'Ho…How am I going to tell Ryan' I said stuttering
'We can do it together darling' My dad said, I leant into his body as he hugged me
We waited for everyone to be ready and we made our way home. I was silent the whole way home, not wanting to talk just thinking about the past. All the memories we had shared. Liam had sat next to me in the car, and I rested my head on his shoulder as my mind kept flashing through the memories. The happy times we had spent together. My other man sat on the other side of me staring out the window. We finally pulled up at home, and I got out the car. I walked up the path to the door, I could hear my son inside the house laughing with his auntie Carla. I loved his little laugh, I didn't want to stop it. I put my hand on the door handle to go into the front room when I froze, I was about to do the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I felt my mum put her arms around me and we walked in, and Carla left us alone.
My eyes were still blotchy and red from when I had been crying at the hospital and in the car. I sat down on the sofa and my mum put Ryan on my knee before sitting beside me. I looked at my son in the eye then burst into tears once again.
'Mum, what's wrong?' Ryan asked me, I couldn't talk. I didn't know how I was going to tell him.
'Ryan...there's something I have to tell you' I said wiping away there tears
'Where's dad?' Ryan asked, he loved his dad. He was his little shadow.
'Ry…'I tried to tell him but I just burst into tears again
'Ryan, your dad was in an accident last night' My mum told him
'Is he okay?' Ryan asked looking at his grandma then at me
'No, he's not. He died' She told him, as the words left her mouth I cried again. I looked at my son, still sat on my knee.
'Mummy' Ryan said
'I'm so sorry' I said crying and pulling him into a hug. I could hear him start to cry.
'Will I…ever see him again?' Ryan asked, with tears falling down his face too
'No baby, but he will always be looking over you babe. He's going to be in the sky sat on his cloud watching you, he will always love you Ryan' I said trying to help him
'I miss him mum' Ryan said
'So, do I Ryan, so do I' I said placing a kiss on his head 'Let's get you up to bed'
'Can I sleep with you mum?'
'Of course, darling' I stood up and picked up Ryan and took him upstairs. I went into my room and saw the picture of me and Dean when I was pregnant with Ryan and I put it beside my bed. Ryan went into his room to get changed and came into my room with a teddy dinosaur. That teddy was the teddy Dean bought when Ryan was born. He climbed up onto the bed and lay down beside me.
Ryan eventually fell asleep clutching hold of the teddy while I lay there awake, still thinking about Dean. Still hoping it was all just a dream and that I would wake up soon. I lay there all night staring at the picture, looking at how happy we were, while spinning my ring around my finger. Before I knew it, it was morning so I looked over at Ryan who was still asleep so I got up and went downstairs.
I went into the front room and saw my mum and dad sat at the table. I sat down on the couch and rested my chin on my knees. I just stared at the floor, not knowing what to do next. Liam came into the room and sat beside me.
'How you feeling?' He asked me
'Numb' I answered still staring at the floor 'Confused'
'It'll get better Michelle' My dad said
'Where's Ryan?' My mum asked
'Err, he's in my bed' I said
'How am I going to get through this?' I said starting to tear up
'Aww Chelle. We are all by your side, we are all going to help you through this' Liam said
'Ryan adored Dean'
'He did Michelle, Dean loved you both so much' My mum reassured me
'Michelle, we need to talk about his funeral' My dad said walking over followed by my mum
'I know' I took the cup of tea from my mum 'I just want to get it over with'
'Shall I call the vicar to come over and we can talk through it?' My mum asked me, so I just nodded
I didn't want to get dressed, there wasn't much point. I wasn't going to leave the house and I didn't want to see anyone. An hour later the vicar had got here and he were discussing the funeral. We planned for the funeral to be in 3 days. I spent the next three days sat on the sofa just watching the world go by. I was dreading the funeral, I didn't know how I was going to get through it.
It was the morning of the funeral, I woke up and went into Ryan's room where he was still asleep. I watched him sleep for a minute before going in and waking him up. I was advised by the vicar to let Ryan come to the funeral so he could grieve. I had a shower and put a black dress on with a pair of black heels while my mum got Ryan ready in a little suit. Once I was ready I came down and went into the front room with Liam, Paul, Carla, Ryan and my parents. The vicar knocked on the door, we all went out got into the car and made our way to the church.
Paul, Liam, my dad and cousin Tom carried the coffin into the church to the front. I followed then hand in hand with Ryan and my mum.
'In life, our brother Dean cherished the gospel of Christ, make Christ now greet you with these words of eternal life. In baptism, our brother Dean received the sign on the lord may he now share in Christ victory out life and death. I'd like to welcome you all to this sad occasion, we are gathered here to say goodbye to a dearly loved member of our community. We will be praying for the soul of our bother Dean celebrating his life and offering prayers to people he leaves behind; wife Michelle, son Ryan, brothers in law Liam and Paul and all the others he loved' The priest said. I couldn't contain my tears so they began to fall from my eyes.
I sat holding my sons hand as he was crying too.
'Dean's brother in law Liam would like to say a few words' Liam stood up and walked to the front, I was thankful that Liam wanted to say something, he was always so close to Dean
'Dean. I first met you at primary school when you threw that ball at my head. Ever since then we have been best friends, then when you had that party and you invited my sister I knew it would end happily. That was the day you first met and kissed my sister and it was the start of true love. We are all going to miss you so much mate, just make sure that you are always looking over that little son of yours. I love you Dean' Liam said and started to cry. He came and sat back down
'Now Deans wife Michelle, would like to say something' I heard my name and knew I had to walk up to the front. I stood behind the podium and looked at everybody, all their eyes locked on me. I looked down at Ryan who was buried into my mother's arms.
'When I heard the words that you had gone, my heart broke. You are the only man I've ever loved, and I will love you forever. You're the reason I have the most beautiful son in the world, and we are going to do whatever we can to make you proud. I am so blessed to have known you Dean, you have made me happier than wat I could have ever imagined. I hope you are always looking over Ryan, making sure that he is okay' I said before running back to my seat, I placed a kiss on the side of Ryan's head and tried to dry my tears.
I sat there for the rest of the funeral, not really taking in anything that the priest was saying. I just wanted this day to be over with. Once we finally got home, I sat in the front room with my family.
'It was a lovely ceremony' Paul said
'Yeah, it was. The priest did a lovely job' My mum said 'and Liam, your speech was lovely'
'Thanks mum, I just wanted to do him proud'
'So Chelle, what are you going to do now?' My dad asked me
'I don't know, but I can't stay round here'
'What?' Carla asked
'I can't stay around here. It's too hard, too many memories'
'Where are, you going to go?' My dad asked
'I've been looking and Weatherfield looks nice'
'Weatherfield? Where's that?' Liam asked
'Manchester, England'
'England!' My mum cried 'I know you've been through a lot darling but you don't need to move that far away'
'I want to mum, I want a new start' I told her before hearing Ryan crying upstairs so I went up
'Barry please tell me you're going to stop her' Helen said
'If she wants to move then she can do. She's an adult Helen, I understand what she wants'
'Barry! You're going to let her move away?'
'Mum I'll move with her. Keep an eye on her' Paul said 'We can expand the business there too'
'Looks like I'm going too then' Carla moaned
'I'm coming too then' Liam said
I had calmed Ryan down and I was stood on the other side of the door listening to my family talk about me.
'I want to look after her though, she's my daughter' My mum said
'It will be good for her Hel' My dad said
'We will look after her mum' Liam said
'Come on Helen, look at it from her point of view. She has just lost her husband, her sons father. They met here, got married here, had their baby here. She won't be able to go down the street without someone saying something or seeing a spot where they shared a memory. She needs to go babe, it will be good for her' My dad said
'Thank you, dad' I said walking in
'You heard that?' My dad asked me
'Yeah, dads right mum. Me and Ryan need a new start' I said walking over to my mum
'I'm going to miss you darling' She said taking hold of my hands
'But I don't need looking after' I said looking at my brothers
'Fine Chelle' Paul said
'When are you going?' My dad asked me
'I've booked me a ticket for tomorrow, to find a place and a job. Then I'll come back for Ryan'
'Tomorrow?' My mum said
'Yeah, I need to get away from here' I said before walking out the room and going upstairs to start packing my stuff. I was going to take half my things with me tomorrow, go over find me and Ryan a flat then find myself a job. Then I'll come back get the rest of my things and come back with Ryan. I didn't leave my room for the rest of the day while I packed my things.