Behind These Hazel Eyes

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters or the song. The song belongs to Kelly Clarkson and the characters belong to Tamora Pierce.

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me

I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

I was going to marry Cleon. We were finally tying the knot. Neal was the Best Man and Yuki was the Maid of Honor. After all we had been through. After all the fuss his mother made about us. She's not at the wedding though. She practically disowned him. But his father's here. He's glad that Cleon's marrying someone with ties to the King, and the future King. This doesn't feel right.

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

I found out a secret about Cleon last week. He's seeing another woman. I don't know if he loves her. But he obliviously doesn't love me. I don't know what to do. Should I just put on my Yamani Lump Face and deal with it? Or should I pitch a fit and scream my way out of it? None of those seems like something I would do.

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

My dress is gorgeous. Lalasa made it just for me. She made all the bridal dresses. She even got Alanna into the Bride's Maid's dress. She went through so much to make this wedding special for me. I can't let her down.

I told you everything, opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright, for once in my life

Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

Neal is ecstatic. I'm like his little sister and Cleon's his close friend. I can't ruin it for him by cause a rift between their friendship. Neal means too much to me. He's like the 4th brother I never had.

Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Mama and Papa came all the way from Mindelan to see this wedding. They were needed in the Yamani Islands too. But they came to see their youngest daughter married.

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I'm putting on my wedding dress trying to figure this all out. Should I leave him or suck it up. Most girls don't even have the choice of who they marry. At least the man I'm marrying is my friend. Or at least he was…

Swallow me, then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you, it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside anymore

Anymore

I'm about to walk down the isle. I can hear the music. I turn to face the front door to the church, my only escape. No, I won't take the coward's way out. I will be brave, I turn back and head towards the alter.

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

There he is, standing there. Wait, he's looking at something. But not me like everyone else, he…he's looking at that girl. The one I saw him with last week. I make my way towards the alter. I stand by Cleon and look him strait in the eye…

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

"It's over. I can see those looks you give her. I saw you with her last week. If you want to get married today, marry her." I threw the bouquet at the girl and stalk out of the church; leaving a church full of very confused and angry people behind me. But now, it's not my problem. It's his. Slowly a tear falls down, with no one around to see it.