A Cold Dark Steel Heart
Pairing: Gajeel Redfox and Levy McGarden
Prompt: Nemesism -Frustration, anger, or aggression, directed inward, toward oneself and one's way of living.
Setting: Sometime after Fantasia but before Tenrou Island
Word count: (before description and title) 311
A/N: This One shot is an entry for the Speechless challenge ftfanfics on tumblr. My tumblr account is ibelieveinfaeries but honestly I post full stories on this website.
I looked at her once again. Her hazel eyes staring up at me with annoyance and surface loathing. Yes, she should loathe me. I am nothing more then a monster. The way I had strung her out against the trunk of that tree. The way I had tortured her body. She should feel the same animosity, and hate that I directed at myself.
The shrimp should never forgive me. All the times she looks at me with anything but annoyance I begin to hate myself even more because my sins seem to be infinite. I can't let myself forgive the deeds I have done. I don't deserve to feel any kind of light inside my cold metal heart. I cringed my teeth together seething outwardly at the pipsqueak in front of me. She shrunk back defensively. Yes, fear me, hate me, and never forgive my deviant acts.
I told myself repetitively that I would never call her by her name. To call her by her name would open up doors to something different. Something bright and warm that had no place in the cold depths of my heart.
No, she should keep throwing all that hate into her words when I call her shrimp, pipsqueak, twerp, and short stack. The insults help me hold onto my own self incrimination. There was a metaphorical iron bar cage locked tightly around my dark steel heart. But I feared someday her hazel eyes, her forgiving soul, and her loving heart would someday melt away those exact bars into a puddle of molten liquid that would retain an internal temperature hot enough to keep it from ever regaining it's solid form. Thus, someday I feared she may free my dark steel heart from it's cage. No, she must continue to hate me. I growled at her once again before I said something else equally annoying.