A/N I don't own twilight I wished I did though cause that would be so cool. Bella's thoughts. Anyway here is the first chapter, I hope you like this if my first actual story I've wrote. This story is during New Moon.

Chapter One – What's going on?

Bella's Point Of View

I woke up again from yet another nightmare of edw….him leaving me in the forest. I sit up in my bed stretching, I get up and started walking to bathroom to do my morning routing of having a nice relaxing shower to forget about my nightmares. When I finished I tied my blue fluffy towel round me, then brushed my teeth, before going back into my room to get changed. I picked my blue jeans and a simple long sleeved t-shirt, I then brushed my hair out before drying it since it got wet during my shower.

When I'm done I go downstairs to have some breakfast, I can't be bothered to do anything special so I just have some cereal, while I am eating I think about what I'm going to do today. I think I will call Jacob and if it doesn't answer or if billy blows me off again I'm going to visit him to get some answers. I finish my breakfast and put my bowl in the sink ready to wash him up when I get back or for later on.

I quickly crossed the kitchen to where the phone is and dialled Jacobs's house number and waited for someone to pick up. I didn't have to wait long because after a couple of rings Billy answers "Hello"

"Hey billy, it's Bella I was just wondering if I could talk to Jacob"

"Oh hey Bella, he's not in"

What a surprise, he never seems to be in when I call. "Do you know where he is?"

"He's out with his friends" Billy's voice was kind of edgy and careful.

"Really? Anyone I would know? Quil"

"No I umm I don't think he's with Quil today" billy says slowly

"Is he out with Embry then?" Please say no, please say no, please say no, please say no. I shout in my head while I wait for Billy to reply

"Yes, he's out with Embry" Billy sounds happier when answering this question. No Embry's one of them…..

"Oh okay then, can you get him to call me when he gets in?"

"Sure sure, No Problem" then he hangs up. I listen to dial for a bit till I finally bit phone back. His one of them, Jacob is one of them, my personal sun; my best friend is a part of Sam Uley's Gang.

I amused myself with washing up my bowl for earlier, then I cleaned the kitchen but not matter what I couldn't get over the fact that Jacob my Jacob was part of Sam's gang and was ignoring me. Then that's when it came to me I'm going to drive over to la push to where he lives and wait for him, I'll wait all day if I have to but Jacob is going to talk to me. With that I grabbed my car keys and drove off to La Push. Ten minutes later I am passing the sign saying "welcome to la push". Couple more minutes later I saw someone I recognised. Quil. There he was walking along the side of the road, looking as miserable as I felt. I started to slow down till I was right beside him.

"Hey Quil"

He jumped not noticing that I had slowed down or either was round here "oh hey Bella"

"You want a ride somewhere" I offered

"umm yeah sure" he said this so sadly, he shuffled over to passenger side of my truck and climbed in when he was in I started to drive again.

"So where to?"

"My house is behind the shop, just down the street and the first street on you right"…. With that said there was silence for the rest of the way to his house but before he left I asked the question that I had to know the answer to.

"Have you seen Jacob today?"

"Oh umm yeah, I saw him and Embry earlier they walked into the forest I tried to follow but I couldn't I've been walking round the forest shouting their names ….. I only just really got out the forest when you pulled up" while talking his expression seemed to be sadder.

He just opened the door and was getting out when I told him "I'm going to Jacobs and I'm going to get answers"

"Good luck Bella" with that said he shut the door and walked off. I quickly pulled onto the road again and started my way towards Jacobs.

After 20 minutes I was pulling up to Jacobs, I turned off my engine, when I looked up I saw the netting on one of the windows move, but I ignored it and started to get comfortable for a long wait for whenever Jacob turns up.

I had just done a page full of doodles when there was a sharp tap on the window when I looked up I saw Jacob, I quickly put the pad and pen on the seat next to me and opened my door and climbed out. We seemed to stare at each other for ages, I could tell by his eyes after couple of minutes he was upset about something but I'm not sure what about. I didn't get to think of what he could be upsetting him because he finally spoke.

"What you doing here Bella?"

"Jacob"

"I asked what are you doing here Bella"

" I need to talk to you"

"Okay then talk" then I saw something at corner of my eye move and realised we had company. I looked at each one and noticed there were 4 tanned shirtless blokes behind Jacob, I recognised two of them, one of them Embry Call who seemed to have had a growth spurt and had got some muscles and him the problem the one who was taking Jacob away from her. SAM ULEY

"Alone"

She noticed that he looked at Sam, as if looking for permission; this annoyed me more than it should of. After Sam nodded to Jacob he walked off and into Jacob's house with Embry and the other two nameless quilettes (A/N is that how u spell it cause I don't how to spell it) I didn't know. When they were gone I turned to Jacob.

He was just staring at me till he finally said "well..."

"You know what I want to know"

He didn't answer he just starred at something behind me with a bitter expression on his face.

"Can we go for a walk?"

He just nodded and walked off into the forest, I quickly followed him. After a couple of minutes of walking he suddenly stopped and spun to face me

"Let's get this over with" his said in a hard voice … before I could respond he was speaking again "it wasn't that we were thinking, Sam's a good guy he's trying to help, I just didn't understand him but now I do"

"So what he's helping you with what, no having friends, ignoring those who care for you"

"It's not like that, he isn't telling me anything, Bella he is good bloke"

"What he done to you Jacob, you said yourself that you didn't want anything to do with him; he's making you have no friends"

"He isn't to blame for this"

"Then who is?"

"You don't want to hear it"

"The hell I don't" I snapped at him "I want to know what's making you ignore all your friends"

"You asked for it" he snapped back at me "if you want to blame someone blame those filthy bloodsuckers you want to protect so much"

I froze where I was standing, the pain stabbed at my heart, the hole inside me opening up again.

"I told you, you wouldn't want to hear it"

"I don't know what you're on about" He can't be on about them; he can't know they didn't tell anyone else. Just me.

He raised his eyebrow at that. "You really want me to say it Bella, I don't like hurting you"

"I don't know what you're on about" I said strongly even though I did.

"The Cullen's" he said slowly, drawing out the word. I shuddered. "I saw that, I see what it does to you when someone says his name or even mention them"

I shook my head back and forth in denial, not believing what I was hearing at the moment, while thinking. He can't know it impossible, unless he is finally listening to billy superstitious nonsense. He can't know that he, they were vampires. They only told me never even been on the quilettes land, there not allowed. This is all Sam Uley's fault. His done something to Jacob, my Jacob.

"Why you blaming them, they haven't done anything, we both know is what Sam who did this to you, whatever he did"

Jacob glares at me while saying furiously "This hasn't got anything to do with Sam, he hasn't done anything. He is helping me, besides something were already set into motion and he was there to help"

"What was set into motion?"

"Nothing, its nothing" he says breathing deeply

"I don't believe you" I say honestly "I can tell by the look in your eyes, it something"

"Just leave it Bella" while saying that he starts to walk way, he only gets a few paces in front when I tell him "I saw Quil today, you know your best friend you've been ignoring"

He whirled round to face, his face looked pained "Quil"

"Yeah Quil, your friend he's terrified and upset"

He just stares past me with desperate eyes, so I goaded him some more "He scared his next"

"He won't be next" leaning against a tree for support. I heard him muttering something to himself but all I caught was the ending "…why this happening? Why?"

Before he punches the tree he was leaning on, it broke, the trunk gave way. Jacob just stared it shocked before saying.

"I got to get back", he turns to leave again

"Back to Sam"

"Yeah that's one way to think about it" he says this not turning and starting to walk off I follow him back towards his house.

"Wait… Jacob wait" I say catching up to him, by the time I did we were in front of his house. He turns to me.

"I'm sorry Bella, I can't be your friend anymore it's too dangerous"

"What….. You don't want to be friend anymore?"

"I'm sorry Bella, it's not you it's me" he says sadly "If we stay friends you could get hurt, I'm not the same person anymore, I'm dangerous, I'm sorry"

Well there's a new one it's not you it's me. "You're not dangerous, your my friend Jake…. That's what you are"

He started baking away. Tears started to fill my eyes "Jake…. Don't please"

"I'm sorry, we can't be friends anymore" with that said he turned and ran back inside the house.

I just stood there staring at the house not believing what just happened, I seemed to be standing there for ages, and tears falling down by cheeks that I didn't know had started. I was brought out my thought when it started raining but I still didn't move. I finally moved when billy told me that he had called Charlie saying that I was on the way home. I was halfway home I heard a howl filled with pain fill the silence of the rain and I glanced into the forest but saw nothing. When I got home Charlie opened the front door for me and said "Billy told me, you and Jacob had an argument".

I didn't answer, I was numb. I just walked upstairs and changed into comfy dry clothes. I then collapsed onto my bed, and cried myself to sleep, I could vaguely hear Charlie on the phone downstairs to someone but I wasn't paying that much attention. All I could of think about was that he's left me, he broke his promise, just like he did. With those thoughts going round my head I feel asleep. Wondering what would happen tomorrow.

TBC….

A/N I hoped you liked it. Please review, and tell me what you thought. I will try to upload the next chapter soon.