Here we go. A nice little one shot I wrote today(: Pertains a bit to my own life... but this is in Helga's perspective, along with the song "Dreams" By Fleetwood Mac, I do not own either.
Anyways, enjoy.
Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
We never forget the one who was our first love. Certain smells, images, melodies, they're all the same. They trigger the nostalgia of days gone by. Life loses spark after the end. As it did with mine..
Well who am I to keep you down? It's only right you should.
5 months after the breakup, 3 months after the last time we had spoken. Here I am sitting around reminiscing on an old chapter. He keeps me from moving on. I did move on in some regards, but not entirely.
Play the way you feel it, but listen carefully to sound of your loneliness.
It's the way his eyes gleam brightly in every photo, or how his laughter follows me in my dreams. Dreams don't hurt until they touch the reality of your heart. There's no way I can forget, no way to resonate.
Like a heartbeat... Drives you mad
Sometimes I wonder if it had honestly happened. The photos remind me that it did, that I'm not insane for clinging to him still.
In the stillness of remembering what you had
It makes me bitter the more I think of it though, a taste of heaven ripped from my grasp. Perhaps I held on too tightly on what was not meant to be.
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost
The excuses to leave me behind were there. He got what he had wanted. I was led into the lies of forever, even more foolish I had believed him.
Thunder only happens when it's raining
The hate I pretend is to keep those away. No more questions please, no more reminders. Just save my soul. Before he destroys the little I have left.
Players only love you when they're playing
I truly loved him with all my heart, I still do. But nobody needs to realize it.
Say... Women... they will come and they will go
Was I the one for you? Was I as perfect as you had thought I seemed? Or was I just another game to play?
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know, you'll know
It doesn't matter these days. It's all so long gone from your mind. My name makes you taste the sour hate that has appeared inside you.
Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
The other night I had a dream. Lost and confused I was looking for you. Sought after the betrayal of my current affair. Only to lose you both. He and I had never been in love though.
I keep my visions to myself
But I'd never tell him, he wouldn't understand. Just what you had meant to me, what still mean to me. You had more impact than anyone I have ever met.
It's only me
And I wanted you to realize that. Although it may be far too late for us to reconcile.
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...Have you any dreams you'd like to sell? Dreams of loneliness...
I'd rather spend my days alone. Nothing is the same. I lost the spark, the will to breathe. I want to die, not in the sense of physically. But in the sense of who I am.
Like a heartbeat... drives you mad...
Give me a moment to feel what I haven't felt in months. Rare occasions like this I love to cherish all I can. All for the will to remember us.
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
But as the rain falls outside and life stays faded I will always hope for that second chance to make it up to you one day. This isn't goodbye, this is see you later. When I've matured and have moved on maybe then.. But for now you're the bittersweet melody. Always in my heart.
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost