I am pained to have caused you such suffering. Apologizing and begging for forgiveness is of no use now, but I still want you to know that I'm sorry. I took away your future, hopes, and dreams. Better said, I took your life the day you fell. Thinking back I was selfish, I thought of us as rivals. I thought that if you were gone I would excel in my studies. I've learned that I was wrong. You were here, beside me, to cheer me on. Surely I had not thought of the consequences and what I would change that summer day.
I am pleased that you had not ended up like Leper who, in disposition, changed completely. You acted as if the accident had never occurred. You even refused the thought of me afflicting you such misery. At the time I was convinced that you were determined on the fact that you slipped. Now I feel certain about the idea of you trying to brainwash yourself. I regret it all. I'm ashamed of myself for being envious of you at this moment. Though you are dead you are at peace, are you not? A peace apart from mine, A Separate Peace..