On the Way to the End

By ParisOutlaw

Ok not my first fanfic but the first one I have done with the Inuyasha cast.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except for the story line and if any one wants to sue me over anything well.... I am in college so basically I am broke all the time so all you will end up getting is a used computer, a parakeet and reaches in pocket grabs money, counts ...36...37,38.... and 46 cents.

* Kagome and Inuyasha's thoughts on their feelings of things that have happened ......... more like one particular happening.

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Prelude: Thoughts of the Past



~*~Kagome~*~

Kagome sat under a tree and, making sure no one unwanted was around, tipped out the sacred contents of the small vile she kept safely around her neck. The containers holdings poured forth one by one as she tipped them out on to a piece of cloth next to her and watched carefully as every tiny glittering shard of the Shikon Jewel was emptied out. As she began to count them out she thought about all that had come with collecting them and was slightly amazed they had all lived to see so many gathered. It had been 5 years since she had first found Inuyasha trapped to a tree and 5 years since she had met the people who had become not only her best friends but her second family. She squinted now concentrating harder on counting out the smallest shards some resembling clumps of sand more than anything else.

'So many...' she thought to her self. When the quest had first begun she had no way of guessing that the jewel had broken into so many pieces, they had collected more the 200 and there was no way of knowing the number still out there. 'or the number of shards Naraku has.' she finished thinking. So much had changed over the years , she had changed so much. Quickly putting away the shards back she stood up and walked over to a near by river and looked at her self. She didn't see that much of a change but yet in a few tiny ways she could. The hurt in her eyes had not always been there but it was a permanent feature she had gotten used to by now. It had appeared that day; that day Inuyasha had left her for Kikyo , not even Kikyo but the possibility of her.

Akago had captured her then and used her. He had wanted her shard seeing eyes and had taken control of her body by finding the dark spot in her heart , her jealousy of Kikyo. She had broken free right before Inuyasha had come to save her but not before confessing her love for him. Inuyasha hadn't heard it he came in moments later and she had blacked out. Maybe he would have been there to hear it; the love that she kept in her soul, had he not left earlier that day. But he had left her... so much time and even though he had never left her side again the fear and distrust that he had branded on her heart was still there. One day he would have to choose again and as much as she would like to think that she would be the one , it seemed more like a silly hopeful wish than anything else.

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~*~Inuyasha~*~

Inuyasha looked on over Kagome as she counted out the fragments of the Shikon no Tama. They had collected so many pieces and as excited as he should be he could not help but feel some sadness every time they became one piece closer to their goal. Kagome had changed dramatically over the past years and he remembered to himself the way she looked the first time he saw her when she saved him from being sealed to the tree. She was just a kid in that ridiculous school girl uniform. Huh , she hadn't worn that in almost 2 years. After she had graduated she had been free to spend more and more time in the Warring States Era with him and it had eventually taken it's toll on the green and white outfit he had come to know so well. She had been forced to throw it away finally but little did any one know he had clipped a piece from the collar and had it secretly hidden in the locket she had given to him *(A/N)*. Shaking his head Inuyasha mentally kicked himself for allowing his mind to think about Kagome for so long , but lately he couldn't help himself, but he had to stop he couldn't allow himself to think about what might be.

She had brought so much to his life that he had never imagined he could have. He had always been alone before but now the thought of it seemed impossible to fathom. Miroku, Sango, Kaede, and yes even the very annoying Shippo had grown on him. Yes it was annoying the way they kept getting them selves in messes and the way he had to get them out every time, really they could be so needy some times. But hadn't they gotten him out of a few scrapes? More then a few and most of those few had been because of Kikyo. He closed his eyes as he thought of Kikyo. Once she had been alive and loving ,sweet and caring, she was concerned with the lives of others and doing what she knew was right ...... Kagome wasn't the only one who had changed.

Kikyo had died long ago , not that long ago , when after constructing his new body with out his human heart Naraku had shoved Kikyo in to a mountain of toxins*(A/N)*. Inuyasha had not seen it but Sesshoumaru had. Inuyasha had for a long time tried to convince himself that his brother had been lied about her fate , but after all these years of searching with no trace of her found .... Did it matter though if she was found would he really run to her if she was? He had promised Kagome he wouldn't after leaving her when he had been tricked into thinking Kikyo had lived. It had been a lie and because he had been so ready to sprint off Kagome had been gotten been captured severely hurt by Akago (Naraku's spawn), in body as well as in her heart. He could see it in the eyes , but what had gone on between them was still a mystery to him.

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*Author's Notes*:

Locket was given to Inuyasha in the second movie 'Castle Beyond the Looking Glass' by Kagome and has a picture of each of them in it.

In episode 124 'Farewell, My Beloved Kikyo' she is "killed" (does any one in this show ever REALLY die?) as describe. Have finally seem episode and had to make changes in story to fit. Any other changes that arise from here on out will be ignored but this one seemed to big of a happening to ignore