The on call room door opens, she could feel his eyes boaring into her back, 'jac' he whispers softley. He had no right to come barging back into her life like nothing had happened, like he hadn't just abandoned her. Tears fell thick and fast down her hollow cheeks as she thought of the christmas they had spent together, as she heard him telling her he had to leave, he didn't have to leave he made that choice, his own choice to leave her behind. She didn't want to listen to what he tried to say. Over and over he had told her he was sorry, that he had made a mistake and that he wanted her back to be his age in. That he wanted her to let him love her. Well she had let him love her before and what had he done with that! Oh but how she loved it when he loved her. When she could feel his body and his eyes when she was safe with him, and happy and secure. Maybe he could redeem himself, she wanted him to love her so much, maybe there would be a way. Maybe he would persist, prove to her that he would never leave her again. Hopefully.
She turned to face him. Her defence mechanism of spitefull words and lies ready and waiting like a cat about to pounce on its pray. She waited for him to say something, to give her something to retaliate to. He shut his eyes. Waiting for the cold icy remarks to roll off his body. He knew her too well, he knew she was lying to protect herself. She new it too. She said nothing. He waited a moment his eyes closed his shoulders dejected waiting for the words to inflict their pain. But she didn't utter a sound, just silently choked back her tears hoping that in the gloom of the on call room he hadn't noticed. He had. He took a slow step towards her. she didn't move, she couldn't. Paralized by fear, that she would push him away again ruin this chance with him. It was like her subconscience refused to allow her to play these games with him anymore. She was screaming at him to take her away to love her again as he had before. she stared deeply into his eyes. cosmic blue warm telling of the untold ritches of a life with him with love and laughter. But they were clouded with confusion of what she wanted him to do, now this very second. He took another unsure step towards her. she was still paralized, she could feel his warmth eminating from his chest, he was just inches from her now. He had raised his hands but he was unsure about what to do. He could sense this was the moment, the moment he could tell her he loved her and not have his head bitten of. But she could be volitile and he wouldn't get another chance like this. He lifted his hand to her face wiping away her tears one by one. She gasped for air as his hand touched her face, her heart was racing and she could feel the hot rush travling up to her cheek bones. He couldn't hold it back anymore his other hand wrapped itself around her waist and pulled her into a passionate kiss. His hand moved to the back of her head and he pulled at her soft hair. His lips pulled hers open and his tounge nuged inside her mouth. His tounge was moist and powerful directing her, pushing her into oblivius excstacy as his hands rushed over her body. He let her go and gasped for air, his hands wandering down to her hips pulling them closer to him 'I've missed you so much' he whispered as she rested her head on his shoulder. 'I've missed you too' she said barely audible over the hammering of his heart. He bent down towards her again and kissed her gently this time, tenderly he pulled her into his embrace again.