"Ahhg!" I'm so bore. Yes me Jade West is bored, laying on my bed staring at the ceiling on a Saturday night. "Why?" Might you ask, because of one Victoria Vega, and the worst part of it – well maybe not the worst- I don't even think she knows it's her fault.

Normally I'd have dates lined up all weekend with hot sexy girls, fuck I could even be getting layed right now but no I'm laying here blinking at the posters on my walls. If it wasn't obvious already I'm not some closet case. I've made it rather obvious that I like girls since I was like 12. I still remember my first crush I kissed her under the slide when we were 5.

Any way back to Vega and why this is all her fault. I used to rule this school for a few main reasons; 1) FEAR: I'm a badass everyone here knows it and how its best to stay out of my way. 2) Hotness: I'm fucking sexy and dam near everyone girl or boy even though they knew they could not have me. 3) Intellect: I maybe the schools badass but that doesn't mean I'm stupid, I know I'm gonna be this year's valedictorian. I've been top of our class the last 3 years I've been here and know way that's gonna change now. 4) Talent: I'm the best singer, actor, play writer, and director this school has ever seen.

Ever since that Vega has shown up last year, with her sweet sunshine attitude that makes everyone fall in love with her, and she's been steeling rolls from me. Thank god I know she's a shitty writer or I might be worried she'd try and steel that too.

I don't know why people think she's so attractive I mean once you get passed the perfect teeth when she smiles, and stupid perfect cheek bones, the flawless tan skin, her gentle curves, the slightly toned flat stomach, that perfectly round ass I'd just kill to… AH! Fuck that's not my point! Point is she's been challenging my position in this school ever since she got here without even meaning to. At the same time she just keeps telling me she wants to be my friend, while I just kept doing everything in my power to make her life miserable. No matter what I throw at her she always seems to surprise me, which also infuriates me. I've never met someone I could not figure out – other than Cat but she's an exception- or get the upper had with and control as I see fit.

So another question u might be asking yourself is "But why would you get sidetracked by her body if you hate her so much?" and you know what that's a good fucking question, I've been trying to figure it out for about a month now, cause I never got distracted by her before that.

I remember it perfectly mostly cause I've gone over it in my head about a million time to try and see if I could figure something out. Ok so I was standing next to my locker talking with this fine piece of ass, Sammy. While Sammy was rambling on about something I can't care to remember, now I don't know what it was but something urged me to look past her to where Vega was talking with the rest of our gang, she was the only one facing me though. Right as our eyes met I was just about to give her a scowl in that moment her smile changed a little like it was just for me, she dipped her head down slightly, brushed some stray hair out of her face, then this was what got me she bit her lip a little. As quick as the moment came it was gone, and she kept talking to them like it never happened. At this point Sammy noticed I was no longer paying attention and was waving her hand in my face. So I glared at her and said "What?!" let's just say she didn't like that very much. "Whatever Jade!" was the last I heard from her as she stormed off.

Ever since then I've been zoned out on Vega. I swear in maybe the 5 seconds that it lasted time slowed down. I noticed my heart was racing and my stomach was going crazy and I was just so confused. No girl had ever made me –God kill me now for even thinking this- swoon and especially never in the short five seconds it took her. Yeah there are girls I like and I'll chase after them and what not but I've never actually crushed on someone before and I'm freaking out cause with every day that passes by I'm realizing more and more that that's what this is.

I've been trying to see since then if she acted any different or maybe if our eyes would meet again like they did before. They did several times since then, witch was enough to at least tell me it was not just all in my head.

Another thing that sucks about this is I can't even talk to other girls now I tried now when going to ask a girl out of flirt with her I just get bored or they can tell I'm not even really trying. So long story short about that I have yet to get layed in about a month now and its driving me insane. I think myself a slightly more sexual person and when I haven't gotten some in this amount of time i get a little grumpy so to speak, I just don't do sexually frustrated. It's about one am so I decide to update my slap profile with, discombobulated :/ then it is time to try and finally pass out.