Title: Make It Without You."
Author: Anamaric17 aka Brittley
Summary: Anamaria's POV after breaking up with Jack Sparrow
Rating/Pairing: PG-13/ Anamaria and Jack
Disclaimer: Disney owns them not me!
A/N: This is based on Alicia Keys song "Try Sleeping With a Broken Heart."
She never regretted anything in her life, not the men she killed, the treasure she looted, missing her family, or losing the dreams of becoming a honest citizen. No what Anamaria, the ever delicate flower of the sea, regretted the most was ever falling in love with Jack Sparrow. Even alone on her own ship and having three years between the last time they spoke, it didn't take much for memory to spring forth. The smallest smile and she was willing to crawl back in his arms and willing to forgive him all his mistakes. The damned captain was her one weakness and she had wasted half her life on him, for a lie.
Even if you were a million miles away I can still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me. feel me
And even at the bottom of the sea I can still feel inside my head
Telling me touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies
She pushed those thoughts away and began to shout orders. There was another ship up ahead, seemingly coming out of nowhere and everyone knew her name. The Pearl was not only legend for her captain, but for her great strength and resilence. Although Anamaria would like nothing more than to keep sailing without a backwards glance, it would look like running. Anamaria did not run, not from the royal navy, and certainly not from Jack Bloody Sparrow although that was easier said than carried out. The man wouldn't worm his way back in her life, and she would show him she was fine without him.
So tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times we had, tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it
As they pulled up alongside The Pearl, Jack smiled to her before waving. She didn't smile back and her wave was less than cheerful. Why should she be happy to see him when he broken her heart more times than she cared to admit? After all, she had to be the one sleeping next to an empty bed with that knowledge not him. In fact, she doubted if she ever meant more to him than a warm body at night.
Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
"Ah luv is it ever good to run into you aye? Where ya heading?' Jack ask as he got permission to board her ship La Rosa Flor. She shrugged not trying to take in the way he looked or the way he would feel if she was in his arms. A shiver went through her from her head to her toes as she thought of the way he called her name while making love, or the sweet dreams he would tell her about as they lay in the aftermath of lovemaking. Jack was a romantic, and nobody ever got as close to her physically as he had. Yet, nobody ever broke her so completely as he had either she reminded herself.
Know me, own me nobody ever shut it down like you
...I thought you told me you'd never leave me
...Take me, make me
"Not sure yet Jack. How about you?" She asked avoiding his eyes or he'd know where her mind just went. He was always good at reading her thoughts especially when she didn't want him to. They agreed that Jack could stay the night on La Rosa Flor before seeing her off as he was ever her protector. That she knew was never a lie, he did worry about her safety and she allowed it because it didn't require too much of her.
Much to her disappointment, sometime during dinner she caught herself watching him and wondering. A large part of her knew when tomorrow came, and he sailed far from her and her ship, that she would miss him. It bought tears to her eyes because despite the distance, and the lies, she knew she would always love that man.
You know that I'll always be in love with you right til the end