A/N (Update): There are a lot of changes! Don't worry, the changes are not messing up with the story, still in the right track there! -Lol-
- Special Thanks to Zaraenis BETA this story -
A/N: This is my very first FanFic!
Yes! I finally made account here and release my own FanFic~ XD
All thanks to My Dearest Imaginations, JMac (Jesse McCartney) Songs, and also K-ON! Cutest YURI Couple! (MiTsu)
Can I tell a few stories first? Okay, Thanks! Hahaha!
First, I was reading MiTsu FanFic, while I'm listening to one of JMac song titled "Just So You Know". Then I realize that this song is damn so suit for MiTsu! I'll put some lyrics into it, and I'm damn sure this will suit really well! Haha~ (What a Confident!).
And one last!
This is my first time, so, I really need your R&R and please be good and nice to me~ ^^
WARNING: BETA Fixed (by Zaraenis)
Summaries: Love has its own ways to talk, to come and to go. But what if those 'Love' you felt to your own best and childhood friend with the same gender as you? Will you let it flow? Will you tell her?
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own K-ON! Characters or etc.
Ritsu's POV
I shouldn't love you, but I want to.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move,
I can't looked away.
It was a day, like any other. The Hokago Tea Time was practicing as usual, nothing out of the ordinary at all. However, one thing was out of the ordinary. I had realized something. Something that I realized I shouldn't be thinking, or feeling.
You see, I have a very close friend. Her name's Mio. Mio Akiyama. I realized that I was in love with her. Yet at the same time, I knew that it was a forbidden relationship. We've always been best friends ever since we were in kindergarten. I must be the worst friend ever, to fall in love with my own best friend. I would confess to her, but I was afraid. Afraid that if I confessed to her, she would distance herself away from me, and that our friendship would be over.
I didn't want it to happen.
That's why I decided to keep the feelings bottled inside me, keeping it in the hopes that over time, it would fade away without a trace.
That didn't happen
As time passed, the feeling, rather than fading away, grew stronger. I felt a lot of guilt, but I couldn't do anything about it.
This is the worst thing that could've happened
"Hey, Ritsu?" asked a soft voice from behind me
I turned to see Mio, standing in front of me. In case you're wondering, classes ended a while ago so I was sitting on the couch in the clubroom, and she was standing in front of me. Simple explanation, no?
"Hm? What's up?" I asked, looking back down
"Do you have anything planned for tonight?" she continued
"Tonight?" I repeated, and then thought for a moment "You know, I'm always busy with things like meetings, photo-sessions, au-ow!"
"You deserved that" said Mio, moving her hand away from my, now cranially erupted head "Take it more seriously, would you?"
a"Such a tsundere" I complained, pouting
"Would you stop calling me that?" she replied, scowling and preparing her fist again
"Okay, okay, I'm sorry~" I apologized quickly, before her fist moved at me again "Tonight, I'm free as usual. And since I know you so well, you're going to ask me to sleepover at your place, isn't that right, Mio-ch~an?"
"Geez…" she muttered "Since when did you become a mind reader, Ritsu? Yeah, my parents are away, and they'll only be back three days from now"
"You'll be lonely, ri-ow!" I started, and as you could guess, she smacked me in the head
"Stop teasing me about everything" she said, closing her eyes
I swear, I could see the cross popping veins on her head. Or is that just my imagination from watching too much anime?
"Okay, okay" I muttered, rubbing my cranial eruption again "I guess it should be alright. I'll go talk to my mom, then go to your house afterwards"
-While both of them have this usual conversation, the others are just stared at them, a little bit laughs and chuckling-
"I see that Ricchan's blushing" whispered Mugi, giggling with Yui, while watching their bandmates talk
"Somehow, there's this weird atmosphere around them" muttered Azusa
"Aha! They look like a couple, don't they?" exclaimed Yui (Not loudly) "We saw them act like that a lot, but now they're acting that way more often nowadays. I can feel the love~"
"They're sleeping over tonight too, right?" asked Mugi, smiling
"Yeah~" nodded Yui "I'm sure tomorrow will be… unique"
Azusa sweat-dropped as she realized what Yui had just said.
"Senpais just thought of something perverted, didn't you?" asked Azusa (Here, Azusa is using the pronoun 'Senpai-tachi' which means something like you guys, but I thought that it would be weird since Azusa always says Senpai afterwards)
Both turned simultaneously, and threw their fist out, letting their thumb fly up as their hands reached a stop. Azusa sighed, then turned back to her guitar practice.
-It's already 4:50 P.M and it's time to go home-
"I'm leaving now, Yui-chan, Azusa-chan" said Mugi, taking her bag and walking towards the door
"Okay, I'm done already, Mugi Senpai" said Azusa, following Mugi, then turning back "C'mon, Yui senpai, or we'll get home too late"
"Hai, hai, Azunyan!" answered Yui, picking up Geeta (ギー太) and waving at us "Bye bye! Mio-chan, Ricchan!"
"We're leaving now, Mio-senpai, Ritsu-senpai" said Azusa, waving at us
"Hai~" I replied, picking up my bag "See you, Yui-chan, Azusa-chan, Mugi-chan"
"Take care and don't forget tomorrow's practice!" said Mio, picking up her bass, also known as Elizabeth (エリザベース Ｅｌｉｚａｂａｓｓ)
"See you tomorrow, Ricchan, Mio-chan! Don't forget to lock the door!" said Mugi as she left
-Now it's 5:00 P.M-
I sighed, leaning on the door. It's already been half an hour since the others left, and we were pretty much finished packing up. I smiled as Mio walked up to me, and we went downstairs together. It felt like I'd forgotten something, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't place it.
That was when Mio asked me.
"Hey, Ritsu, did you lock the door?" she asked
So that's what I forgot. Damn, I need to be more careful!
"I… forgot" I answered, sweatdropping "Wait here! I'll be right back!"
Without waiting for an answer, I dashed backwards up the stairs, locking the door as I got there. Then, as quickly as I could, I ran back down, skidding to a stop next to Mio. I was panting heavily as I stood there.
"It's… pretty tiring" I panted "Running up… and down… over… and over…"
Then I laughed at myself for being so careless. If Mio wasn't there then we'd have been in trouble. Of course, I was still panting very heavily.
"Geez, Ritsu… You're really careless!" said Mio, pulling a bottle of water out of her bag "Here"
"Thanks… Mio" I panted, taking the drink and gulping it down within seconds "Wohoo! I feel a lot more alive now!"
She gazed at me, smiling. The gaze was less critical, and I realized, it made me blush!
"Thanks, Mio" I said, looking downwards
I couldn't look at her straight in the eyes…
When I could see Mio's house, I knew she could get home by herself.
"Okay, you go home, and I'll go get my stuff" I said, running the other way
-At Ritsu's house-
When I reached my house, I laughed to myself as I picked out my favorite pair of pajamas, and a horror movie from my room. I personally love teasing her. Though there are times when I go too far, and I have to apologize. I just can't stand her being angry at me.
That's why I have to make sure. I can't let myself go, or letting the forbidden words leave my mouth. Somehow, sleeping over at her house makes me afraid.
It should be alright, right? I wouldn't accidentally confess to her just like that, would I? As long as I'm aware at all times, and don't stare into her beautiful gray – no! I'm already getting sidetracked!
-An Hour Later-
Sighing, I sat up on my bed. Why is this happening? I can't think of ways to avoid her gaze!
"Ｗｅ'ｌｌ Ｓｉｎｇ うたうよかんじるそのまま"
Eh? Is that my phone? I pulled it out, and flipped it open.
From: Mio | Ritsu! When are you gonna get here? It's almost 7 already you know! Did your mom say no or something?
Oh no! I totally forgot! What is wrong with me? I mean seriously, even though I'm still a teenager, my mind seems to work at the pace of an old person's mind!
I'm sorry, Mio-ch~an. I had to help my mom around the house, but I'm leaving my house now! See ya there!
With that, I dashed as quickly out of my house as I could, not forgetting to drag my bag with me as I ran towards her house. As I saw her house, I slowed down to catch my breath. I wouldn't want her worrying about me again like before, would I?
As I reached the door, I took a deep breath. I prepared myself to knock the door, and…
The door opened before I could knock it. Mio had opened the door, tapping the door impatiently.
"That took you long enough, huh, Ritsu?" she teased, smiling "It's unusual of you to take so long"
"I told you I was helping my mom, wasn't I?" I said, my hands on my hips
"Oh yeah…" She muttered, somehow seeming disappointed "I forgot"
"Can I come in?" I asked
"Come on in" she said, letting me in and locking the door behind us.
-In Mio's Room-
As usual, Mio was working on our homework, and I wasn't doing anything. I wasn't really bored, and on the contrary, I was staring at her silky black hair, her beautiful face, and her soft looking lips, wondering how they ta– Whoa! I almost lost my train of thought there. I should not be thinking of these things. I need to distract myself…
"Oi, Mio" I muttered, calling for her attention "Can we watch a movie now? Don't you feel tired?"
"We can watch a movie later, Ritsu" She said, looking up at me "I'm almost finished, so be patient, would you?"
"Fine…" I pouted, laying my head down on the table
"You haven't showered, right?" she asked "It should kill some time, don't you think?"
"You're right" I said, standing up "Mio, do you mind giving me a towel?"
"Alright" she said, standing up "Wait here"
Of course, I waited just as she told me to. When she came back, she was holding a large white towel with yellow stripes on it.
"Here" she said, handing the towel to me
"Thanks" I said, walking to the bathroom
I took off my headband and clothes, and stepped into the shower, then turned on the water. I shivered as the water hit me. It was freezing! I quickly turned on the heater, and before long, the water heated up. It felt heavenly, after such a cold bath. Who knew that a mistake could turn this good?
After ten minutes of heaven, I decided to get out of the shower. I wouldn't want to make her wait too long. I dried my body quickly, before pulling my pajamas from my bag and quickly putting them on. Then I used the towel to dry my hair a little. Of course, me being me, I like my hair a little wet. Letting the towel stay on my neck, I walked out of the bathroom, into Mio's bedroom.
"That was really refreshing!" I sighed in relief
"You didn't make the floor wet, did you, Ritsu?"asked Mio, not turning as she was still doing her homework "You have a bad habit of letting yourself stay wet after a bath"
"Hey, I fully dried my body! If you don't bel–" I cried in protest
"What about your hair?" she asked, noticing my deliberate left out information
"Well…" I muttered "It's a tiny bit wet"
"You didn't dry your hair?" she asked, starting to turn to me "Geez, Ritsu. Why–"
As her gaze landed on me, they stayed there. She stared at me, as if in shock, almost as if she was speechless, and that was NOT like usual.
"M-Mio?" I asked "You're not mad at me or something, are you?"
"N-no" she muttered, looking away "You looked quite different"
"Ah… It looks weird, doesn't it?" I asked, hoping to break the tension "I never tried it but it must look weird!"
Great job, Ritsu, now you just made yourself look even weirder.
"N-no!" she stuttered "It's not weird… It looks quite good on you"
"Eh? You think so? Thanks Mio-Ch~an" I said, grinning
Within seconds, the atmosphere got uncomfortable. Even if I did just come out of heaven, this is just too much.
"I'm starving, Mio-ch~an. Let's have dinner already! It's already half past eight!"
-At the dinning room-
"Thank god that mom left us some food" said Mio, laying the plates down on the table
"Do you need any help?" I asked, walking over to her
She seemed somehow unnerved by the food, and lost in her own trail of thought.
"No, thanks" she said, smiling at me as she walked towards me "It's just about fin-!"
She had tripped over something, and almost instinctively, I caught her using one arm as she fell, and caught the flying food in my other hand. Right now, I can't recall how I did that at all. It seemed an almost impossible task now that I think about it.
"Watch your step, would you?" I muttered, before accidentally gazing into her eyes
That was when I realized how weird of a position we were in. I had my arm around her waist, while my other hand was holding the food that I had caught. No! This is not good! Look away, Ritsu!
…on the other hand, her eyes are really beautiful, and her lips must be very soft… maybe I can tas-
No! I shook my head, throwing my weird thoughts out of the window. Would you break out of this awkward situation already?
"A-Are you okay, Mio?" I asked, letting her go and helping her stand up
"Y-yes… Thank you" she stuttered, blushing and looking away, and before long, shaking her head
"Good" I said, trying to get rid of this weird feeling "Well, let's eat! My stomach is screaming in pain!"
"Itadakimasu!" we said simultaneously, picking up our chopsticks and eating our food.
Of course, the dinner was good, since her parents left it for us. I didn't rush, since there was no point in watching a horror movie without Mio. It just wasn't fun.
"Gochisou-sama!" I said as I finished, laying back on the chair as I waited for her to finish
"Gochisou-sama…" said Mio, almost absentmindedly for some reason
"Mio, you alright?" I asked
"Hm?" she muttered, before snapping to reality "Oh, I'm alright, don't worry about me"
"If you say so" I said
Of course, I was thinking the complete opposite. I wanted to ask her what was wrong, and if I could help, but it would only cause more problems and arouse suspicion on my part.
"Let's go back to my room!" she said, smiling
"Yeah!" I said, leading the way, and as soon as I got into her room, I jumped on her bed, laying down flat on the bed "Man, I am full!"
As expected, my action was met with an elbow dig in the ribs.
"You just finished eating, Ritsu!" she said, scowling "Don't lie down yet!"
"Oww…" I muttered, rubbing my side "That seriously hurt… Hey, Mio, can we watch a movie? I'm bored"
"You just want to scare me again, don't you?" she asked, seeing through my plan instantly "I'm not gonna fall into that trap again"
"Come on, Mio-ch~an" I begged "Please?"
"Fine!" she said, giving in to my begging "Just give me the remote, so I can turn it off if it's really a horror movie"
Now, we were finally watching a movie. Of course, it's a horror movie, and I can only hope she doesn't notice that it's really horror. After half an hour, after a few parts which were vaguely scary, I found that she was getting closer to me, hugging my arm more tightly as the movie went on.
"R-Ritsu… Get rid of it… Please…!" she stuttered, tears falling down on my arm
Her arms were shaking, and couldn't hold the remote anymore. I knew, that I had to turn it off before the scariest part shows up, or she would faint, and making Mio faint, is generally not a good idea. I quickly took the remote and turned the TV off.
I know I already told myself not to go overboard, but this is just crossing the line twice.
"It's okay, Mio" I coaxed, feeling very guilty "Please stop crying… I'm really sorry for scaring you… I went too far"
I held her tightly, hoping that it would calm her down. It made her cling to my arm even more tightly. Then she said something that robbed me of my ability to resist.
"J-just don't leave me…" she said, her voice quivering with fear, burying her face on my neck "As payment for scaring me so much"
I couldn't say anything anymore, so I only held her more tightly.
Mio… do you realize that what you're saying makes me want you so badly? Do you realize, how much I care for you…? How much I love you?
- Special Thanks to Zaraenis BETA this story -