This is what happened after a failed attempt to write an English essay. All mistakes are my own.

When we first met both of us were married. To different people of course. And you had this wonderful little girl whom I would later love as my own. The day you asked me to open up a business with you I didn't hesitate to say yes. My husband had his reservations but said nothing. Your wife was against it and couldn't be clearer about it. Our respective marriages started deteriorating.

The day or days after your divorce you looked like crap and every time I saw you a piece of my heart broke. Not even a few years later my marriage ended. I felt relieved because at that moment I was more in love with you than I ever was with my own ex-husband.

At that moment many of the people we both knew believed it would be just a matter of time before we got together. I don't think they knew how wrong they would be.

Five times! Five fucking times I almost lost you. Deep down in my heart I knew that one of these days you won't be so lucky. After the fifth time you, or we, finally got our shit together. We didn't even date for three months before we decided to get married.

I remember I just got to the office and you were having a meeting with a politician somewhere, something you hated very much. As soon as I got to my office my phone rang. I immediately knew something was wrong.

"H..hello?"

"Mrs. Lightman?"

"Speaking."

"My name is Jennifer, I'm a nurse at Washington Hospital Centre. Your husband has been in an accident."

"…"

"Ma'am?"

"Everything's fine. He'll be fine. He'll be fine right?"

"If you could come down here as soon as possible we can talk."

When I got to the hospital I despised the fact that I could read faces for the very first time. I saw something was wrong. I saw it on her face. I saw it on all of their faces. They told me there was nothing they could do. That I should say my goodbyes because you weren't going to make it through the night.

You looked so peaceful. The way you looked like when I woke up in the middle of the night after we made love.

"You know, I fell in love with you the very first day we met. I don't know why I never told you that. But if you could wake up now that would be fine. I wouldn't even be mad at you for getting in an accident. Cal I love you. Just wake up…I'm pregnant…you can't leave me now. I need you…we need you!"

It is as if you were waiting for me to say goodbye. I don't even know what happened next. I just remember the doctors coming in and covering you. And then I was in my bed crying myself to sleep. Something I did for weeks. Until one morning when Emily found me on the bathroom floor, crying. That's when I realized I still have Emily and this wonderful little human being inside of me that needed to be taken care of.

Aidan is celebrating his first birthday today. And I can't help but to choke up everytime I look at him. He looks so much like you. And believe me, he as just as stubborn and mischievous as you. One day, when he's older and asks me about you, about his father I'll tell him about the English gentleman who was and still is the love of my life.

The ending sucks, but oh well.