AN: So, this is my first try at a Victorious fanfic :D And it's Rade :D Let's see where it goes, might be a one-shot, let me know if you guys want me to continue or not :D PS: I'll update my Stefan&Caroline fic in a couple of days :)

Don't let me go...

Jade West knew she was one of a kind. But that wasn't necessarily a good thing. She always felt like an outsider who couldn't fit in with anybody. It's not like she didn't want to fit in but somehow a little voice in her head was always saying "They are not like you, they won't accept you". She didn't know why but she listened to this voice. So she never got closer. To anybody. And since she was afraid to get closer she was also afraid to let people in. Whenever someone tried she got terrified and the dominant voice in her head said "Don't let that happen, they just gonna end up hurting you". So she built a wall. At one point she thought that wall was probably the same size as the great wall of China. Her rudeness to other people came with that wall. That was her way to defend herself. From what exactly she didn't really know.

She did discovered she had a talent. And that she loved that talent, the talent that made her like at least one part of her one of a kind style. She loved to perform. That was where she knew she could shine. On the stage. So when she got into Hollywood Arts it was trully the happiest moment of her life. She even cried of happiness.

She would never admit it but on that day she believed that a bigger force, that was beyond her understanding, was giving her a chance. A real chance at happiness. And she would grab onto that chance and she was gonna make it worth it. But that didn't mean she was ready to let her guard down.

As shocking as it was to her, she made friends in HA. Cat, a ditzy redhair who Jade thought that lived in another world because the girl would say the most random things and would change from sad to happy in a heartbeat. Andre, a laidback boy who always had a smile on his face. That annoyed Jade. But she had to admit that he was a gift musician. Not that she would admit to him anyway. Beck, a sweet boy, who was also laidback and had a "I don't give a fuck" attitude that quickly pulled Jade to him. She thought that was another chance at happiness that was being given to her. So she took it and they started hooking-up.

And last but not least, Robbie Shapiro. Jade didn't want to admit but he was the one that got her attention the most. He was shy, awkward, didn't know very much how to deal with people, was always afraid of rejection, but also had amazing talents. He was a very good guitar player and a very good ventriloquist (even thought she hated his damn puppet). And when Jade saw those things in him she saw... her. And that frightened her more than anything. But unlike her, he didn't had any walls up. He wore his heart on his sleeve. Jade didn't know if she should respect that fact or not.

But other than that, he was exactly like her. Jade became a pro when it came to dealing with people who were different than her, it basically became her second nature. But when she found a person that it was like her, she got scared. She was afraid to pull him close, afraid of the consequences. So she did the only thing she knew. She pushed him back. She started mocking him, say hurtful things to him. She tried so hard to get away from him as much as possible. God, she really tried. She wasn't very successful. So she kept him at a safe distance. A distance where she wouldn't lose him but a distance where she wouldn't put him at her side either.

Everytime at lunch, when he looked up and her eyes met his, she could see the hurt on them. The mere seconds that they spent looking at each other she always wanted to say "I understand" but her mouth were saying other things, mostly something funny about his hair or his glasses. But deep down, she knew that boy was broken just like she was.

Her "chance at happiness" was paying off, for the first time in her life she could say she was happy. At least partly happy. Partly because she still had to put her walls up, she just couldn't afford to put her heart out there to her friends only to be shattered. Not yet. And partly because she knew that her "equal" wasn't happy either. And she got that confirmed one day when he stormed out of their lunch table after some comment she made on his acting skills. Jade was ready to run after him but to keep her "character" she stayed as if nothing had happened. But Beck gave her the look she needed. The look that said that she was wrong and that she needed to apologize. She groaned and went after Robbie, silently thanking Beck for giving her that excuse even if he was oblivious of the fact.

She found him in the janitor's closet, sitting on the floor with his head on his hands, not crying but clearly frustrated and pissed-off. Jade tried to sound annoyed when she asked "Yo Shapiro, what the hell was that all about?"

Not looking about he replied in a low voice "Go way Jade". God knew how much she wanted to go but somehow her feet were planted on the floor, just by the door. Not yet apologising Jade asked again "Seriously, what is wrong with you? Can't you take a joke?"

If he only knew how much she was hurting for saying those things. Getting up, he took a step close to her and looking straight into her eyes he said in a higher voice "I wish I knew what is wrong with me! I wish I knew what I do that makes people get way from me! What makes them reject me, but I don't!"

Jade was frozen in her spot, not daring to look anywhere but his eyes. He continued it "I wish I knew what I do to make you treat me so badly. When you got here, I don't how or why, but I thought that I could read you. I thought that I saw myself in you. I thought that I finally was meeting someone that it was just like me, who could understand me. Guess I was wrong huh?"

Jade tried to say "Robbie, I-" but he cut her "Just forget it" and tried to make a run for the door. In a flash, Jade grabbed his arm and spun him around, placing herself where he was just seconds ago. Without further thought, the words were coming out of her mouth "You know what? When I got here I saw myself in you! I saw a boy who was just as broken as I was. And that scared me! I know how to deal with people who are different than me, I became a pro at it, and it hurts a lot less now. But I didn't know what to expect from a person who's like me! I could not risk get hurt even further! But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt! I tried to get away from you but somehow I just couldn't! Do you know what is like to look at you everyday and be scared of what could happen if I open myself up to you? Guess you don't huh? Moron!"

Once she stopped she realized that she was yelling. She didn't know when he got so close but the next time she blinked his lips came crashing down on hers with full force.

At that moment, all of her walls were down. And she didn't know if she could put them back up again.

AN: So, Do I continue? I want to, but I need to know what you guys think :)

Question: Can somebody explain to me what is the appeal of Beck? I seriously can not understand, to me he's the most normal character, nothing that stands out... And I seriously can not understand why there are some many fics on him lol. Review it if you can please :D