Prologue

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Rhapsody. That ecstatic emotion I would want to feel forever. If I could live a thousand lives with a thousand rhapsodical moments, then those are the lives I would want to live. Spending all the days of my life with the feeling of euphoria flowing through me is like paradise.

But then I would ask myself, how can I describe the concept of happiness? How can I say whether I'm happy or not? How am I able to differentiate those two emotions that could either be a heavenly paradise or a burning hell for me? The answer is simple.

Because I've been sad.

I've been depressed.

I've been hurt.

The feeling of knowing that life is never easy and you'll always have those moments where you just want the whole battle happening in your heart and mind to stop. Those moments where you just want to feel peace and be on cloud nine. I hate feeling hurt, I want to be indestructible. I hate feeling pain, I want to be numb.

Why? That's easy.

Because my days are counted.

The feeling of knowing that your health is slowly deteriorating, knowing that your life is very slowly, but surely, fading away and that sooner, or later, you'll find yourself in a deep slumber for all eternity.

When life is full of hardships, suffering and despair—probably with hints of happiness in it, death ends all of that. Death is the counterpart of the difficulties in life.

Maybe that's why they say death is peaceful…

…but life is harder.