Prologue

3 years ago on the planet of Chandrila

"I'm leaving Ana."

At that moment, it only took 3 simple words to break my fragile heart. Ben's eyes wouldn't meet mine, but I could feel the anger that they held. His long, dark locks obscured most of his face from my view and kept his true feelings away from me.

Tears brimmed at my sunken eyes. I couldn't lose my closest friend like this. A stray droplet escaped down my cheek and fell to the marble floor below us. I tried my best to hide my expression when I gave him my frustrated reply.

"Then go."

Hurt flashed across his face at my harsh response. I wanted him to feel the way I felt; abandoned. All of his training had led up to this final moment, the one last step to him becoming a true jedi. It pained me to think that he knew that leaving me would always be required in order for him to become a powerful force user. I would only hold him back.

Now the moment had come and it would be time to say goodbye forever.

I wanted Ben to show me how he truly felt. Would he miss the friendship which I deeply cherished? Would all the adventures and time we shared together travelling the galaxy be a long forgotten memory? Would he miss me, or would it just be me who longed for him?

He eventually met my glare. His impassive expression only further fuelled my inner turmoil. I was no longer staring into the eyes of my best friend, but those of a manipulated young man. Whatever the jedi had trained him to be, turned him into the monster he is today. A tense silence had formed between us in the grand hall of his parents' house. Until his booming voice tore through my soul.

"I will go! I will leave you and your pathetic life behind! No-one can stop me from harnessing the potential of my powers; especially not a forceless orphan like you!"

There were no words at that point which would express the awful agony that his cruel words had given me. The intense volume mixed with his thoughtless speech caused me to go into shock. I was afraid. Afraid of what such an uncontrollable youth would grow into. Afraid of Luke Skywalker and his obliviousness to what his apprentice had turned into. Afraid that I would never see the Ben Solo I once loved again.

Despite it all, I didn't dare lose eye contact. I knew he would be able to sense my fear, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing it on my face. In one long movement I stepped forward to walk away from the source of my pain, before his hand aggressively grabbed my arm and pulled me back towards him.

The terror which I had hidden found a way of exposing itself as I was forced to stand face to face with Ben; our noses practically brushing against each other. Despite the close proximity, the gesture wasn't at all romantic, instead it was profoundly threatening and caused a shiver to roll down my spine.

I could feel him using the force to read through my mind. Regardless of my best efforts, I couldn't fight off the intrusive powers which he was using to uncover my thoughts. For a split second, his blue orbs betrayed him as a look of sympathy crossed them. However, they were soon replaced by the hard glower he had adopted.

The dark side's influence on Ben could now be seen more than ever. His mother, General Organa, had discretely expressed her concern a few months ago during a failed training mission which had caused her son to lash out. Back then I was in denial that I could possibly be losing someone I had such a high respect for.

I knew that Ben would be seeing all this as he continued to scan my brain. At this point I no longer cared about what he saw, at least then he would know how I truly felt.

You've changed Ben. Your punishing words mean nothing to me anymore. The dark side has consumed you and turned you into a demon. You are just an immature boy who is happy to destroy anything in their path to reach their goals. I would much rather be a lonely orphan than a self-centred, uncaring jedi like you will become.

My honest thoughts led to a look of pure rage spreading across his face. His hand reached out, and with a determined gaze he lifted my body into the air. The breath was taken out of my lungs and I began to choke from the force he was using against me. Desperation and terror filled me as I stared hopelessly at the furious teen below.

My hands reached around my neck in an attempt to relieve the intense pressure. I gasped, trying to supply my body with air, knowing that it was in vain. In my final seconds of consciousness, I thought back to how much I had truly loved the person who would now be ending my life.

I thought back to the time when we first met at kindergarten, when we were both mere younglings. All the times he made me feel whole again after the sudden death of my parents. Even the time when he promised us a life together one day on a tropical planet located somewhere in the outer rim, away from all the chaos in the universe.

Now it would all be gone. The black assassin that was closing in on my last hope of life had won its battle. My body dropped to the floor like a rag doll, and my mind went suddenly blank.

The darkness had won.

Hello everyone! This is my first Kylo Ren fanfiction on this website, which I am going to be updating every few days. Sadly, this chapter is quite short and sweet as it is only the prologue, but next chapter there will be a time skip forward where the writing will become much more lengthy.

Lauren