Hello Ladies and Gentlemen this is my first story so be nice I know it's not very good. This will start out very very slow and mostly about the one character for a couple of chapters so bear with me for a while and I'm sure you'll like the outcome.

Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Inuyasha or make any money off of it; I actually don't gain a thing from this. I do own however my character Keira. Heian Jidai

250 years before the death of InuTaisho

"My lord! My lord, milady has gone into labor!" I shouted.

My name is Keira, I am the daughter of the Lord of the West's head general of military affairs Raion Yamato. We are the Kuroi Inuyoukai family bred solely for the safety of the great Western Shiro Inu bloodline. My father was born and raised to protect the great past lord of the west, lord Inuyasha, father to our current lord, Lord Toga Inu no Taisho and I being his only heir am to protect Lord Toga's heir that is currently being birthed this minute. My mother died giving birth to me leaving myself as my father's only pup and heir so as his only pup I will be attending to this new heirs welfare, this is my test and if I pass this great test I will prove to my father and the great Lord Inu Taisho that I am worthy, no matter my gender.

But I can explain this all later right now my Lady Mai is giving birth to my future charge, who I will devote the rest of my life to protect no matter the costs, that is if I could find his silly father! Uh Lord Toga is such a mischievous lord he acts like a perverted teenager half the time, entirely to playful for his status…like I'm one to talk though. That is the sole reason I'm going looking for him in the geisha house we have in the town just below the Western Shiro.

And I am correct his scent leads right into the medium sized Shiro in front of me. I run through the front doors meeting no resistance, not that I would of course, wearing the Western family guardian insignia, the past lord Inuyasha in his true beastial form howling reign to the crescent moon upon the breast of my kimono no simpering geisha whore would dare cross me.

And here I found him in one of the finest rooms with the Lord of the Northern Planes, Lord Tsubasa, the old senile phoenix that loved women; in the past (when he still maintained his heartbreaking good looks) he was always with a woman. It wasn't hard for the man I must admit, I'd seen a painting of him in his youth and nearly stole it to keep in my room to admire for the rest of my days. He had wild forest green eyes and crimson hair that looked to be moving flames in the sunlight, a beautiful body that would make a sculpture weep and smoky gray wings that sit folded to his back. Out of all the rumors I've heard of his wings there is only one I believe because I had seen it myself once. In the midst of battle those beautiful ash wings set themselves afire. It is most unfortunate that after the death of his mate he had become almost senile saying he could feel her presence and even see her when he looked in to the flames of his fireplace in their chambers.

"InuTaisho-sama! Lady Mai has gone into labor, you must hurry at once the midwife says that Tenseiga is needed." I quickly explained hoping he would pounce into action, but alas he stared at me with glazed eyes, that meant only one thing.

The fool was drunk

"Really? Or are you just saying that! Pulling this old man's tail" he joked then burst out into laughter with the phoenix lord.

"No it's the truth now get your lazy drunken ass up and save your mate and your pup you fool!" I knew what I had said to him would get me into trouble for daring speak to my lord like so, but for him it means I'm serious, only ever seeing me curse in dire situations he shot up like I had hoped for to begin with and left for the Western Shiro. With the quick command to assist Lord Tsubasa to his chambers.

As I helped the old lord to his feet I felt my rear being grabbed and kneaded then smoothed over just to be grabbed again. The old bastard is groping my precious derrière! So, I quickly knocked him unconscious with the hilt of my katana. I knew hitting a lord was a great offence, especially a visiting one, but I figure,

He won't remember anyway.

Some hours after I had to gather the drunken lords the new heir of the west had been born. I myself being one of the firsts to meet him. His name is Sesshomaru, such a horrid name for such a sweetheart of an infant. He of course inherited both his mother and father's fine silver hair, and has his mother's Persian blue crescent moon upon his forehead between his two adorable honey gold eyes with two magenta marking on his cheeks, wrists, ankles, and hips. He will truly grow to be a handsome man. The only casualty of his birth is his mother, the Great Lady Mai, will never birth another pup again in her lifetime. The newly born Sesshomaru has inherited his Grandfather's poison and unfortunately has burned most of her pup bearing organs. My beautiful Lady has been unintentionally mutilated by her own infant. My lord was terribly heartbroken to hear of such news, he had always wanted to be surrounded by pups, having been an only child he knew of the loneliness that my charge will most likely go through further ahead.

That is why I have taken it upon myself to be his caretaker and guardian, firing his nanny that was previously hired for his care. It is sad really that Lady Mai refuses to care for her own pup. Such a selfish one as her does not deserve such a sweet pup, though not many were surprised by her refusal. So it is now my duty to take full time care of this pup.

My young master Sesshomaru is now 18 months old

And on this day he has called me 'mama'. His first words were him calling me, mama. I can't explain this overwhelming joy that I feel. And that is the problem, I should not, no can NOT feel joy over these words. I am not his mother, not matter how much I wish this sweet child was.

I cried, I simply cried, I have killed thousands in my life and never shed a tear, not even after the first life I had taken. And one word from this beautiful pups mouth and I have been reduced to a blubbering mess.

"Mama" he cried in alarm sensing my distress, making me cry harder.

This was the day that the daughter of the Great General Raion cried for the first time.

It has been a fortnight since the young master gave me the title of his 'mama'

I still cannot fathom how I stopped crying. Now every time he says it I try to correct it. I've tried ignoring him when he calls me mama; I've tried telling him 'no I'm ki-chan' an easy nickname to pronounce for him but no he insists upon 'mama'. I can feel my heartbreaking. It's killing me, I know the solution but I can't bear to go through with it. I love him, like my own. I find myself calling him "my pup" in my thoughts or " my little Sesshomaru".

I cannot allow this to continue

This will only break me later, I cannot allow this anymore. I must alert my master, Lord Toga of this development and no doubt after I have told him he will break me.

I know I will be forbidden to see 'My Sesshomaru'

So as result I will not say a word, for my greed will not permit me to. I will continue to raise this Prince of the West, son of Lady Mai and Lord Toga.

THEIR pup, not MINE. That will be my mantra for the rest of my days.

I will find another solution to this problem. So far, I have been blessed with enough luck that he will not call me 'mama' in public or near his parents. So as he ages hopefully I will be able to correct this mistake (as much as I wish to say correction instead 'mistake')

When he fully understands when he gains logic with age he will cease to call me 'mama' and instead I will be addressed as 'Keira".

I am positive the day he stops calling me 'mama' will be the day my heart shatters.

I stared into the vanity mirror in front of me. I think I'm attractive, I'm not sure I have never been complemented as such before, that is until today.

Today the 10 year old pup Sesshomaru complimented me. His exact words were 'you are so beautiful mother'

Am I truly? I ask myself while looking at myself in the mirror. I have a nice heart shaped face in my opinion. With my midnight colored locks in a topknot to keep away from my face and my bangs tilting sideways to cover my left eye and reach to the bottom of my chin. My shining silver eyes catch the moon rays cast through my bedroom window acting as my light to cast my reflection. I have a nicely shaped body (I think) with the right feminine curves, and pale almost transparent ivory skin. I know I don't have much of a chest you see, my breed is not known for having one, we are built for agility and espionage. I know I would be completely of kilter with huge breasts and have not nearly the amount of balance I have now. Though it wouldn't hurt to have a better size, I'm sure I could make a wall jealous. Damn.

I have never been this moved by a compliment before to regard myself through a mirror to judge myself. I have heard many words from the palace guards saying that I would be a 'good lay' as they put it. But, why do I care? I am not supposed to ever find a mate in this life; my life does not belong to myself.

My life belongs to Sesshomaru.

I was born for the protection of the future, at the time, Lord InuTaisho heir. My life was given to him before his father was even at mating age, it was predicted, just like when Sesshomaru has his first heir my child's life will belong to it, it is a cycle that will never be broken.

That compliment was given to me by Sesshomaru while I was combing his silver tresses that now reach the bottom of his shoulders. He now stands at the bottom of my waist when at full height. I know he will be tall, possibly taller than his father.

He was looking into his reflection of the mirror positioned beside his raised futon. He saw himself between my legs, sitting cross-legged on the floor and myself sitting on the futon with my hair down and a clip to keep my hair separate from the hair covering my left eye in a soft blue kimono with the Western Guard Insignia on my right breast and small roses decorated the kimono. And he was wearing royal blue hakama, with royal blue haori that had gold vines weaving around the front and back. He looked cute in my opinion. But he says he is not cute, but handsome and insists that he is a man. Silly little boy.

I watched him gaze at our reflection from the corner of my eye with an empty expression. And then he said those words that nearly caused me to drop the comb.

"You are so beautiful Mother" he almost whispered and after those words he gave me a nearly blinding smile. I couldn't help but return it.

Even with his age and understanding her refused to cease calling me mother. So we made an agreement. He would never call me such around anyone except in private. He told me many a times he loathed calling Lady Mai 'mother', he says that she is undeserving of such a title.

I couldn't agree more

We have continued our lives as normal as it could get I suppose. I took care of him, waking him in the mornings, escorting him to breakfast with his parents, and then he would go train with his father. An activity that started not to long ago. They trained until after a few hours past noon, then he is to meet his tutors until dinner and for a few hours after dinner. Then I am to put him to bed. And the cycle continued.

I never got to spend much time with him anymore. The only time we did was when his father was away on trips to the other cardinal lands or patrolling the western borders for intruders. And even then I only have until after the mid day meal.

This cycle will continue until he takes over the thrown.

Today was the second time that the daughter of the Great General Raion has cried.

My father was killed today. And it is all because of my stupidity. And because of my stupidity I have lost the last of my family.

The southern lord's army attacked us today. The cowardly dragon, Lord Ryuukotsusei attacked us during the night. Midnight to be exact, we didn't even see it coming. Our border guards were all killed so they did not report the southern army during the midnight shifts the dead guards were discovered which started the attack. I was simply told to get Sesshomaru and Lady Mai to safety; instead I disobeyed his orders when I caught the scent of my father's blood. So I brought them to the secret cellar beneath my futon that was installed for Sesshomaru's safety for this very reason and did what I was trained almost all my life never to do.

I left my charge.

I followed after the scent of my father's blood, mindlessly running through hallway, after hallway. And then I was attacked from behind by one of the southern soldiers who had gotten inside the Shiro. He clumsily swung to take my head but I easily dodged and drew my katana. And stabbed him through the chest and continued to run down the scream filled hallways.

I called it Fukusho Neko. It's special ability's fit the name perfectly. My blade is able to copy the youki-based attack of any sword and store it to use for my own use. The windscar for example, Lord Toga's Tetsusaiga's main attack during my early years of training he had me copy the attacks of all his blades to insure the safety of his first born pup. I am able to use the Kaze no Kizu, Bakuryuuha, the red Tetsusaiga,Kongousouha, and the Meidou-Zangetsuha. But that old dog has been trying his damnest for my Fukusho Neko to absorb the dragon twister. I am glad it refused it. And I could not inherit the healing powers of Tenseiga either unfortunately.

As I continued down the halls his scent gradually got stronger. I was so concentrated on his scent I didn't even sense another soldier behind me. That's when I felt myself being pushed away. My father had moved me and taken the blow in my place, he was stabbed through his chest, I could see the tip of the blade poking through his back and ripping his haori.

I don't remember what happened after that, the last thing I remember seeing was a red haze taking over my vision.

That was the moment my beast took over my body.

Yes I know some of you are thinking " why is this all about Keira?" well it's not, just 2 chapters maybe even 3 doubtful though. But you can see why I am starting it out like this yes? And I'm trying to fill in some things like why Sesshomaru never has another sibling, and why he isn't that close with his mother. You can see though right? I can't really explain it all that well, but you can see how I'm trying to start this out and stuff.

Anyway here is a bit of a dictionary for some of the words I've used.

Kuroi- black

Inu- dog

Youkai- demon

Shiro-white

Shiro- traditional Japanese castle (you see it in the inuyasha manga chapters 457-471)

Kimono- traditional female outfit

Haori- traditional shirt

Hakama- traditional pants (Inuyasha and Sesshomaru's poofy pants)

Fukusho-copy

Neko-cat

Kaze no Kizu- Windscar

Bakuryuuha- Backlash wave

Kongousouha – Adament berage (I know InuTaisho couldn't use this, Inuyasha had to get from Housenki)

Meidou-Zangetsuha- Path of Darkness (Sesshomaru calls it the Meidou and so does his mom but here's the full name)