Disclaimer: These character and locations are not my own. They belong to the beautiful J K Rowling and this beautiful song is called "Bittersweet" and its by "Within Temptation." I love this song and its so sad and it has a beautiful beginning, its slow but so beautiful.
Bittersweet
If I
tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here
forever?
Never go away?
Draco Malfoy had never been one to openly share his emotions, not even with his wife of seven years. Her name was Hermione Jane Malfoy.
But now
she was gone and Draco knew it was his own fault. There were so many
things he could have told her. So many things he could have done to
make her realize that she didn't have say goodbye so sadly.
Never
thought things would change
Hold me tight
Please don't say
again
That you have to go
He remembered her coming to him every day to try and talk to him. He would always push her away, tell her he was to busy to be with her. He knew that she was only seeking a companion in him. How he wished he could turn back time and tell her everything, tell her how beautiful she was, how much she meant to him and how sorry he was. But he couldn't turn back the clock; he was stuck with the mess he made.
A
bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold
your silence
It's so violent
Since you're gone
He was the one to see her first. As he opened his eyes on a dismal winter's day, Hermione would always get up early except for Saturdays. They were the day she slept in. He liked to watch her sleep on these days, as he turned to look at her his eyes went wide. He put a hand to her forehead to cheek her temperature. Her skin still had warmth to it but it wasn't her usual warmth. This was sickly sweet warmth. Her lifeless eyes stared back at him and he could smell the blood that stained the pristine sheets from her wrists. To brutal for his Hermione.
All my
thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back
together
I will be waiting for you
He
remembered her funeral. He didn't cry. Malfoys never cry, not even
alone at home with no one watching. There were so many people he knew
his wife had never spoken to in years. How he wished she was standing
next to him right now. She had always kept him standing strong and
tall. But he had never told her, she never knew. If I had
told you
You would have listened
You had stayed
You would
be here forever
Never went away
It would never have been the
same
All our time
Would have been in vain
Cause you had
to go
Draco knew he was the reason she killed herself. She thought it was her fault but it wasn't. She was a perfect angel. If only he had of talked to her, maybe if he told her how pretty she was at least once instead of being silent throughout it all. Maybe she would still be here with him, always at his side. The only thing it seemed he wanted now was to see her again.
The
sweetest thought
I had it all
Cause I did let you go
All
our moments
Keep me warm
When you're gone
He tried so hard to continue living his life like he had before but it was useless. He couldn't stand being in the manor because he would always smell her favorite perfume. He left the country for a while but all the time he thought he saw his beautiful wife. He couldn't go anywhere without being assaulted by her bittersweet memories.
All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll
be back together
I will be waiting for you
The razor blade was smooth and unyielding. It was sharp too, as he had already cut himself on the thumb with it. He had lain down on the bed and brought the same blade his wife used to his own ethereal skin. He had savored the pain while it lasted, knowing it was worth it, it had to be. His Hermione was almost with him, he had to find her. He had to see her. He had to tell her he loved her. He had to tell her he was sorry.