Its Only Forever

Chapter 1

It was Friday night. 10 p.m. For Pete's sake and I was stuck working. This is my life, I feel like I never leave the hospital. I was an RN. My dad said to "Focus, Focus, Focus on work and the babies," but it could for sure get overwhelming. I got a scholarship to Harvard, and became a RN, and then applied for a position in New York, at the hospital and got it right away.

Mike and I moved out to New York from the small town called Forks, the only home we ever knew. Mike was very excepting, loving and caring. We were engaged, and I got pregnant after working for a year at the hospital. We were shocked, scared and didn't know what to expect. Mike was by my side the whole pregnancy. I gave birth to triplet girls. They were in the hospital for 2 weeks before I finally brought them home to Mike as a surprise. What I found was jaw dropping. Mikes body was hanging from the shower. Besides him laid a note which read:

Isabella, I couldn't handle being a father, all the duties that came along with it. I tried to act happy but I hated myself for impregnating you and I will never, EVER forgive myself. Tell Abbey, Alison, and Serena I love them. Please promise me Isabella that you will find them a dad to take care of them, and to love, and protect you. You deserve to be happy, don't let me ruin your happiness. I love you so much. Please don't miss me.

Love you lots,

Mike

He didn't understand. I needed him. I needed him to be my rock. I wanted him there to see the babies take their first crawl, to see them say there first word, to see them take their first steps. My mother Renee, who never liked Mike, and certainly wasn't happy when I got pregnant said "Bella honey, he'll be watching the kids grow up, just from a different place." I was disgusted with my mother for even saying that to me. How could she.

I worked and lived in New York City. It was gorgeous, I loved all the lights, glam, and fashion. Harvard is where I met Rosalie, my best friend. We were roommates, and we just connected. She went to school to be a neonatal nurse. We graduated together, and later split and went our own ways. I got my job, and 3 months later she got her job, at the same hospital. Rose was even the godmother of my baby girls, promising me if anything ever happened to me, she'd be there every step of the way. I honestly couldn't thank her enough.

"How's work today Rose?"

"It's great," she replied while eating her turkey cheese sandwich.

"I can't wait to get home to the girls. I miss them terribly."

"How are they doing?"

"Ok, I just wish Mike was here to experience everything with me."

"It'll be ok Bella."

"Thanks," I picked up my trash and left to meet Edward Cullen. The doctor, and my secret fling. He was by far the hottest doctor. He was the doctor who gave me depression medication, when Mike killed himself. He was my rock then. He always listened to all my complaints about my mother, to me rambling on about my sleepless nights. We became good friends. I went over to house one night. We talked, he had a drink, and I had coffee. He told me romantic things. Told me how pretty I was, even though my hair was astray, and I had bags under my eyes, and then he kissed me. I kissed back. That's how the start of the secret fling happened. We met at 10 p.m. every week day. It was just sort of our thing.

I met him in the janitor's closet. He was already in there, when I walked in.

"Hi Bella," he said while kissing up and down my neck.

"I've missed you so much."

"Bella we can't keep hiding like this, it's wrong."

"If it's so wrong, why do you come back and meet me every day?"

"Because, I'm in love with you Bella. I want to marry you. I want you to be mine."

"Edward, you know it's too soon. What would we do, move in to my studio apartment? Are you really ready to take on 3 baby girls? That means sleepless nights, spit-up, poopy diapers, and having no social life?"

"Bella baby, we can work all of that out. You can move in with me, and live in my house. I promise to take care of you, and your kids. I'll even adopt them, and I'll be there dad. Bella, we've been together for what 3 months, secretly. I know what I want in life, and it's you."

I couldn't stop the tears from falling down my cheeks.

"I want that, with you. Just give me some time. To figure things out."

"Anything for my Bella." He kissed me long and passionately. I loved him, I really did. I just really didn't know what I was getting into. "I love you. I got to go home."

"I can come over tonight and help you with Ali, Serena, and Abbey. Only if you want, I don't want to invite myself over."

"Sure that would be great!"

We left the closet, and went to go clock out. Gosh, was I whipped. I was in need for a hot shower.

"Follow my car Edward."

"Ok."

I lead him to my apartment complex, which to say wasn't in the best side of town. The complex was a little rough. I had this one weird neighbor. His name was Jefferson. Whenever I left my house he said "Hey baby, going to go save lives?"

"No Jefferson, for the last time I'm an RN nurse, not an ER nurse."

"Well, well, well, Bella I think I might have a heart attack because you're so sexy, then you'll have to save me. Give me mouth-to-mouth."

"Jefferson, I don't save lives."

"Whatever."

That's how all my conversations with him went. "Edward, my apartment just over there. Don't talk to anybody."

"Ok."

Thank god none of my neighbors were out. I unlocked the door and walked in. Angela had been watching the girls. "Thanks Ang. I'll see you Monday?"

"Yes, Bye."

Angela gave me a smirk, noticing I had brought a boy home. I gave her a smirk back meaning it's not what you think. I would probably get a whole talk about bringing men home on Monday.

Angela was Mike's twin sister. She had been there when no one else had, even more than Rosalie.