Title: Tears and Rain

Author: SVUAddict

Disclaimer: I did not create nor do I own the characters of Law and Order: SVU. I only own the story line. And 'Tears and Rain' by James Blunt are not mine but James Blunt.

Summery: A year has passed and Olivia is still with Elliot. But what happens when Alex wakes up from her coma? Sequel to 'My New Daddy' and 'We Meet Again' which you should read first if you haven't already.

A/N: Sorry it took so long but I fractured my wrist and had lots of school work. And I thought my senior year would be easy.

As always, Enjoy!

Prologue

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

Olivia sat in a chair beside Alex's hospital. She held her limp hand within her own as she rambled on about useful information on the squad, Elliot, Cragen, and the new ADA. It was all meaningless since Olivia wasn't even sure if Alex could really hear her. Olivia had started coming to talk to Alex since a week after she had been told Alex was in a coma. It was also the day after she had moved in with Elliot. She had told Elliot that she thought they should live together but the real reason was she couldn't stand seeing Alex's limp and bloodied body around every corner of the apartment. She didn't know why she came to the hospital if she didn't believe Alex could hear a word she said. Deep down she knew the truth but even after a year she wasn't ready to admit it.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

It's more than just words: It's just tears and rain

Olivia found it comical how much of her life was a lie. She was so used to hiding all her emotions from everyone and she didn't know how not to. She knew that Elliot was getting fed up with her. He had no problem spilling his guts out to her and he had no idea why she couldn't let down her wall for him. But Olivia had never been able to trust anyone since she left her home with Cragen after graduation. Sometimes, like now, she regretted leaving to find the truth. Ignorance was bliss.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

Olivia wished she could travel through the crevices of her mind so she could discover a time when she had truly been happy. A time when she could trust at least one person. She could remember the only two people that had made her feel safe and happy. The first person who had been able to achieve that was Alex when she was six and than Cragen when she was eight. Both of them had been like her Saviors in times when she had needed someone. Olivia wished she knew how she felt.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

She really needed to know how she felt. She knew Elliot had fallen in love with her no matter how frustrated he seemed to get at times. She told him that she felt the same way all the time. But did she actually mean it? She knew she felt something for Elliot but she wasn't sure if it was love. All she knew was that she loved actually feeling something.

A/N: So that was that was the prologue. What did you think? Please Review and feed my review habit.

SVUAddict