Handle with Care
****Another author on here, BensonStablerSVU, wrote a fic called "Lakeside Chatter", which inspired me to write my own fic, still involving a lake and Remy in the water, near death. So I owe them a great deal of credit for writing their fic to inspire me to write mine.
--Thoughts are bold and surrounded by these things ****.
--Spoken words are in "quotes" and italics.
--Everything else is in Arial. Written like this.
Remy woke up to the rhythmic beeping of the monitors attached to her, lying in a bed in Princeton Plainsboro Hospital. She groaned when the fluorescent lights stung her eyes, but instantly felt alarmed when she looked who was lying in the bed next to hers. **Oh god. What happened? All I remember was walking on the ice on the lake. I know why I'm here. But why is Dr. Cameron here too? **
Cameron looked over, "Oh! You're awake! Good, you had me a little worried, Dr. Hadley." Remy sat up, still worried why her lovely Allison was hospitalized with her. "What happened? Why are you in the hospital?" she asked, searching Allison's face for any clues. "You…you were walking on the ice at the lake. You fell through, stepped on a weak spot I guess. I was standing on the shore. I screamed your name when you fell, and ran to come in after you and get you out." **She was trying to save me? But why? **"Oh. How did you know I was at the lake though?" She was curious now. The lake was a good three blocks from the hospital. Why would Dr. Cameron have any reason to go to the lake in December?
"I saw you leave. You looked upset. I go to the lake to just think when something's wrong. I figured maybe you did too." Allison smiled at the younger doctor. Remy smiled back, "Well, Dr. Allison Cameron, thank you, for pulling me out of that lake. But you didn't need to." She didn't mean it in a mean way. But she had to tell Allison the reason she was on that ice to begin with. Allison didn't get it. She moved over to sit at the foot of Remy's bed. Her confusion shown upon her face. Remy took that as her cue to explain her previous statement. "Dr. Cameron…I didn't accidently fall through a weak spot. I intentionally stepped on it. I wanted to be in that frigid water. I wanted to die." **I shouldn't have opened up like this. But I can't watch her get hurt too, trying to save me every time I tried to end my own poisoned life.** Allison's heart dropped when Remy mentioned suicide. She was such a beautiful person, misunderstood and mysterious as she may seem, Allison could look past façade and see Remy for who she was. "Thirteen. Remy….Can, um. Can I ask why you want to end your life?" she stuttered the question, tears welling up in her eyes. **Her eyes are filling with tears…she's crying? Over me? ** With a sigh, Remy simply stated "I took the blood tests. I'm positive for Huntington's disease. I'm going to die anyway. I wanted to die while I was still able to remember the few things that I enjoy, while I can still remember the few friends I have. I don't have much more than that."
Tears were spilling out of her eyes now, but also out of the wonderful emerald green eyes Cameron possessed. "Why are you crying, Dr. Cameron?" Remy said, placing her hand on top of the ER doctor's skilled hand. **It's bound to come out. It has to. I need to tell her now, before I lose my chance completely. ** "Because I care about you Remy. So much more than you know." Allison sniffed and grabbed a Kleenex to wipe her nose. Remy's head tilted to the side. **Is she saying what I'm hoping she is, or does she just mean as a good friend, not just a colleague?** "I don't think I quite understand, Allison. But thank you for the sentiment. I just don't see what there is that makes people care about me." Allison looked away for a moment, inhaled deeply as she gathered her courage to go through with this. She leaned forward slowly, until her lips lightly brushed across Remy's. "Does that help, Dr. Hadley?" **Did that just happen, or is my life really one big nightmare? **Remy thought, as she blinked, trying to figure out if that kiss was real. "Yep. Err...Yeah. Um. Yes." She mumbled as she replayed that moment over and over again in her heard. Allison smiled, and kissed Remy once more. "You have no clue how long I've wanted to do that." **So this isn't a spur-of-the-moment-kiss-the-dying-lesbian-doctor-just-to-see-how-it-feels type thing. She actually had real feelings for me. ** Remy couldn't help but smile as she said "I've only thought about it since we met, Dr. Cameron."
To Be Continued? Let me know what you think so far?