Forgiveness

Summary: A sequel to Too Late for Apologies. After Starfire's suicide, the Titans slowly fall apart. Robin gets addicted to anti depressants while trying to get over his guilt and depression. Beast Boy and Cyborg curse themselves for not doing more and no longer trust Robin or Raven. Raven becomes a self loathing wreck due to the part she played in Starfire's death and in desperation tries a spell to bring Starfire back to life. Something goes terribly wrong and Starfire comes back consumed by hatred and rage towards Robin and Raven. Now it's up to Beast Boy and Cyborg to help Starfire learn to forgive the two of them, but how can Beast Boy and Cyborg help Starfire forgive them when they themselves can't forgive the Raven and Robin.

Robin POV

I screwed up. I really screwed up. I had the most loyal, kindest, beautiful girl and I took her for granted. Now she's gone and it's my fault. I'd do anything to bring her back. Even worse, the whole team's falling apart. Beast Boy and Cyborg hate my guts and Raven has become more withdrawn than ever before.

Flashback, one month ago.

It was a long ride back to the tower. I was still in shock. Starfire couldn't be dead; I didn't want to, no, I couldn't accept that she was gone. That I was responsible for that. My friends also had a couple words for me.

"How could you?!" Beast Boy screamed, Cyborg being the only thing holding him back and keeping him from mauling me. Although at this point, I really deserved it. "How could you let her die?!"

"I-I didn't, I never wanted, I never intended for this to happen" I stuttered, even though I knew that excuse wouldn't fly.

Beast Boy calmed down enough for Cyborg to let him go but he wasn't finished with us.

"Starfire loved you! She gave you her loyalty and her heart only for you to stab her in the back!" Beast Boy yelled, tears of rage streaming down his face before turning his attention to Raven. "And you're no better! You were the closest to Star, the only girl she could confide in"

Raven said nothing as she opened her mouth to say something, anything to defend herself, but no words came out.

"She trusted both of you and you shattered that trust like it meant nothing to you!" Beast Boy spat. "Then when she found out, you two continued to do nothing about, flaunting your new relationship in front of her. To add further insult to injury, when she was understandably and rightfully heartbroken and her powers started to wane because of it, you ban her from fighting alongside us and make her think that something's wrong with her!"

"We didn't think she would-" Raven started to say.

"What?! You didn't think she would feel just a little hurt?" Beast Boy replied.

It was so out of character to see him so angry. Normally he was a carefree laid back guy; here he was raging like a hurricane destroying everything in its path.

"Do you two even know how heartbroken she was?" Beast Boy asked. "Did you notice how much thinner she was getting because she was so upset she refused to eat anything? Or did you hear how she'd softly cry herself to sleep at night? She even considered leaving Earth thinking that both of you would be happier without her!"

"How could she think that?" I asked, the horrible truth sinking in as I learned the extent of the pain I caused her.

For the first time since her death, Cyborg spoke. "Because you two continued to go on as if you were doing nothing wrong and that Star was the one with the problem".

Cyborg gave a look of utter disappointment and left.

"I used to look up to you. I used to think that you could never do anything so stupid or selfish without having a reason" Beast Boy said. "So did Star. Even at times when I couldn't fathom what you were doing such as the Red X incident, Starfire always believed in you. Now I see that you're nothing but a selfish, egotistical jackass."

Beast Boy finished his rant and walked out, leaving me to understand the consequences of my actions.

I don't know how much longer I can take it. The guilt, the nightmares, missing Starfire, the depression were all starting to take their toll on me. I know this is what I deserve, but I want Starfire back. The pills are the only way to help ease the guilt, but they only work for a few hours. At this point I need the pills to keep me from going mad.

Third Person POV

Raven tossed and turned as she slept. She didn't know why she thought sleep would provide a temporary escape from the guilt considering the nightmares she had been suffering the past few weeks.

Raven heard someone sobbing. She headed toward the source of the crying, fearing what she would come upon. Sure enough, she found Starfire sitting with her knees up to her chest, crying her eyes out.

"Starfire?" Raven asked causing Starfire to jump up and stagger backwards. Raven could see she had a huge gaping hole in her chest from after her suicide.

"Stay away from me" Starfire shouted, stepping backwards.

"I'm not going to hurt you" Raven told her.

"I do not believe you" Starfire replied. "You are just going to betray me again!"

"Starfire, please; I'm sorry" Raven pleaded.

"You are not sorry. You are a backstabber! You are worse than Terra!" Starfire accused her, continuing to step backwards towards a cliff that was just behind her.

Raven reeled back at the accusation. How could Starfire say that? Raven struggled to keep her anger under control.

"I am nothing like Terra!" Raven barked.

Starfire nodded before saying. "You are right, you aren't like Terra. At least Terra had a reason to betray us! You betrayed me for no reason other than lust and jealousy! You never liked me, you're probably rejoicing that I'm out of the way so you can have Robin all to yourself"

That really hurt Raven; Starfire was basically accusing her of never being her friend.

"Well you can have him! I'd rather be dead than ever see any of you again" Starfire said before stepping off the cliff.

"Starfire!" Raven yelled, flying over only to see Starfire's head split against the rocks below.

Raven awoke with a start and started breathing heavily. Another nightmare, what a surprise. Raven couldn't deal with the guilt anymore. There had to be some way of bringing Starfire back. Getting out of bed, she grabbed her book of spells and began flipping through it, trying to find the perfect spell. Finally she found what she was looking for.

Beast Boy and Cyborg couldn't sleep. Every time they did, they'd end up dreaming about Star. They knew she wouldn't want them to be like this and that she'd want them to move on, but they just couldn't help themselves. The two of them had tried everything to help her, to convince her she wasn't worthless, but in the end it appeared as if it just wasn't enough. They had lost more than a friend; they lost a sister.

"Why didn't I confront Robin and Raven about their relationship?" Cyborg asked himself. "If I had just talked to them, told them how Starfire felt, maybe she'd still be here."

Up until the funeral, neither of them could believe she was dead. When they saw her cold corpse, that forced them to face reality. They wanted to believe that this was all some terrible dream. That Raven and Robin hadn't broken Starfire's heart, that she was still alive, and that they still trusted the two of them.

Beast Boy was playing video games in his room when Cyborg knocked on the door.

"What?" He asked.

"Raven says to meet in the living room, apparently she's found a way to revive Starfire." Cyborg told him.

Beast Boy nearly ran over his friends as he rushed out of his room.

So I wrote this story after I got a request to write a sequel. I do not own Teen Titans. Thank you for reading.