The characters in this story are mine I own nothing dammit!
This takes place during post eclipse just as Bella kisses Jacob before he goes off to fight newborns.
Chapter one Dreams
Bella Pov
I held him tight to me never wanting to let him go. His lips crushed mine and noticing that his lips moving only over the out skirts of my lips, his body heat seeping through my winter clothes. My eye closed and ready and willing to stay like but my high came to an end as my eye slowly opened and looked directly to a hurt Edward-My love, My life.
I suddenly pushed Jacob away (away from his warmth, away from the sun) and dove back into the darkness of my love, my eyes still locked on Edward, his face drooped low as if he was trying to focus on something other then what was happening. How could I do this to him Edward my everything I knew I didn't deserve me my mine then rushed me back to the dark days of my whole life, a life without Edward my breath was caught in my chest as the torturing memories seeped back into my head. Suddenly I felt big arms pull me into a hug I was ripped away from my mind and thrown into the sun warm and safe-Jacob- I knew automatically that it was him my eyes were still locked on Edwards still drooped head "Bella" I heard my name from a husky voice but my eyes still stayed put I couldn't look away now.
Could I? the question ran through my head again I wanted to slap myself right then how could I be questioning my love for Edward I was most defiantly and irrevocably in love with him but I was also in love with Jacob, I was a monster,
I thought as I held still in Jacobs warm embrace my body was with Jacob but my heart was with Edward "Bells" I finally came out of the fight I was having with myself in my own mind Gosh! "Bells" his voice becoming more concerned I forced myself to look at him.
"Bella" I turned to Edward "Yes my love" " I need to go hunt will you be ok for an hour" his voice was in a neutral tone as if hiding something from me "Edward I—Yes ill be fine" my voiced seemed eager for this alone moment with Jacob "Seth is just out in the forest patrolling the area around you if something goes wrong he can alert me an I'll Be right back" "ok" was all I could muster as if waiting for him to leave. He came to me kissing me lightly on the forehead a cold shiver ran down my spine at the drop on temperature. "I think she gets the pitcher blo-Edward" A wide grin creeping on Jacobs face. Edward turned to stare at him their eyes locking then nodding as if they had had a conversation without me ,Dam that mind reading, then he was gone