Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS or its characters, and somehow, I don't think I ever will.
Summary: Sometimes, you can't help what you feel. Oneshot drabble.
Author's Note: I think I've been reading too much ZivaAbby fic –it's invaded my head! But they would make such a cool couple…
Sometimes
Sometimes, there's something so big, so important that you just have to tell someone. And sometimes, there's something even bigger, more important – and those are the things that you just can't tell anyone. The things that have to stay inside- close to your heart, where you can both curse them and cherish them. Things that you know shouldn't be there, but that are anyway. Sometimes, you wish you could tell someone, and sometimes you wonder what would happen if you did.
And sometimes, you wonder if she feels the same way. Whether she loves you back, or if she loves you in a different way. Sometimes, you feel that she must – the way she acts with you must indicate something more than the friendship that has grown between co-workers who have faced evil together, who have seen each others' true faces. But sometimes it seems as if she sees you as a sister, not as a potential lover. And sometimes, that's all you want.
Sometimes, that just isn't enough. You have to wonder if she realises that she is the one you call when you are in trouble, the one you trust to get you the information you need. She is the one that everyone trusts to find the truth – forensics are her life, while yours is a world away. You are an assassin, trained to kill. She is a lover of death, but she has not seen it as you do. Sometimes, you wonder if this is what makes you love her.
Sometimes, you wonder what's going to happen when you tell her you love her.