Disclamier: I will not nor have I ever owned Castle.

Sitting on the bathroom counter, she felt the start of a panic attack coming on, she was helpless to stop it. She starred down at the package, in her hands, almost like if she wasn't watching it close enough it would get up and walk away. There was only one way to get the answer, she needed to pee on the damn stick, but when she took that step her life would be changed forever- good or bad she hadn't decided yet.

She slowly worked up her courage enough to actually take the test. When she had finished she set the timer for six minutes, the box said five to seven but being Beckett she went for the middle time- not to long not to short.

She made her way back to the countertop and plopped up on it, looking down at the white stick, she was torn should she be upset? Or happy? The only emotion she felt with 100 percent certainty was being scared.

Scared about what her life would be like when she was holding a newborn, what it would be like when the baby became a toddler and tried to walk on those little bowed legs. What about when the toddler turned into a child who wanted nothing more than to start school and after that said child became a teenager who wanted nothing more than freedom. The timer dinged pulling her out of her thoughts.

Had it really only been six minutes that she'd been musing over how her life might change? She couldn't bring her eyes to look down at the stick, instead she found herself having a starring contest with the women in the mirror.

One look down and everything could be different. She couldn't look she had to wait until shad someone with her. Someone to hold her because she know that it didn't matter the results she needed the feeling of safety, the feeling of being loved.

She put the little white stick in the drawer, just in case someone came in the bathroom while she was gone, and grabbed her cell phone. Scroling through the familiar contacts she found his name and smiled- wow he really had that affect over her even when he wasn't around. She pressed the green call button and waited for Castle to pick up, finally hearing the line pick up she panicked what was she suppose to say now?

Trying to calm herself down before she had a full fledge panic attack, his voice pulled her out of her thoughts,

"Kate?" she could hear the smile even through the phone, when she didn't answer right away he tried again the humor in his voice noticeable.

"Mrs. Castle, did you just call to hear the sound of my voice?" She smilied, the title was new but man did she love hearing him call her is wife. Again she forgot to answer being to lost in her thoughts.

"Kate, Kate please anwe"- " I took the test today," she finally said before he could finish his sentance.

"The test? What test? Kate?" his voice was filled with concern.

"Castle, I took a pregnacy test today," she blurted out.

When she finally collected her composure she realized that she just told her husband, who was 3,000 miles away she took a pregnacy test, and she didn't even have an answer for the question she know was on its way.

"Well, are you?" His voice was barley a whisper.

First Fic sorry if it sucked or there was really bad spelling my autocorrect is broken. Please let me know what you think!