This story happens in a different alternative reality (it takes place in an "atmosphere" that was formed during the midst of the 24 episode), however, Kaworu did not try to descend to the Terminal Dogma, at least, not for a while.

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And Kaworu pointed the Lance of Longinus towards Shinji, while saying: "Those who do not want to live should be treated as they want!"

(…)

-Lately, angels are not appearing, why is that?

-I don't know Misato, but I guess that finally we can enjoy being in peace for some days. Who knows if they simply stopped spawning. However, the probability of that happening is 2%, it might be that the answer or maybe not. Perhaps we are missing something, anyways, I am too tired now. I am going to rest a little bit. See you later, Misato.

-Ok, I will remain here with Maya and the others doing some research work on this subject. See you later, Ritsuko.

Meanwhile in NERV's cafeteria, Shinji and Kaworu were having lunch.

-Singing brings joy and revitalizes the human soul. I think that music is the highest achievement of the Lillim culture, isn't that wonderful, Shinji-kun?

-Yes, it is.

-While there's air in humans' lungs they will definitely expel that air to sing the most beautiful melodies that come to their minds, right, Shinji-kun?

-Right.

-So… in what are you thinking? Is there anything that is bothering you? I can see it in your eyes.

-No, Kaworu, I am fine. Don't worry, ok?

-If your heart is suffering any kind of agony, I am pretty sure that I can mitigate that suffering. You are a very important person to everyone and even more to me. You know Shinji…

-Kaworu, we're in the cafeteria, don't you dare to say those words again! I am pretty embarrassed.

-But it is the truth. Shinji, I love you.

-No, I don't even know you well enough and you are telling me such things already, stop it. I don't like it!

-Sorry, I did not mean to hurt you or whatever you feel when I say that…- and Kaworu paused, looked Shinji in the eyes and said – I love you.

-Stop it!- Shinji was starting to blush, but it was not that he did not like him, it was the way how Kaworu said those words, as if he know him from the beginning. Shinji, sometimes, did not understand what Kaworu was telling and this was one of those things that Shinji did not understand. However, the two boys were good friends. And maybe the only true friend that Shinji had, since Asuka was in a catatonic state and, actually, she did not help him when he asked her. So she was not a good friend. In fact, she hated everyone, how could he be her friend.

-So what are you two talking about, Shinji's face is as red as a tomato – said Misato mocking them.

Kaworu remained silent, while Shinji started getting even more blushed and, eventually, he said: Nothing is going on, it was just that the food had too much pepper on it…

-Shinji-kun, you are so clumsy, why do you behave like that, friend? Also you don't have to invent all those stories in order to hide the truth, well, I am leaving. See you later.

The sweet voice of Kaworu remained in the air.

-Shinji, I was told by your father that you should realize some tests with Eva-01 so that we can be able to upgrade the armor of your Eva, you never know when angels are going to be too strong. I do not want another Zeruel incident, ok? Here are some papers with all the information you need to know.

-Thank you, I will be there.

Some hours later…

-I don't know if I want to continue this way, I don't really know. Is piloting an Eva everything I wish for? Why do I pilot an Eva? No! I must stop asking, I must focus myself in trying to do my best. But, what if my best is not enough… I let Rei die. Therefore, I am not doing my best. I am stupid, a coward, "baka" as Asuka would say. I do not want to pilot an Eva, the last time I did so, Rei died. Why? Why? What is my purpose? Do I need to pilot an Eva? Is it that my only purpose in this life is to pilot an Eva, if so, now that there are no angels or, at least, they do not appear, why am I needed? My life is not worth living.

-Hey, Shinji (a pure smell invaded the room, followed by a docile voice), I need you, in fact, we need you. Why are you with such a sad face? I knew it! Something is bothering you. Why won't you tell me? Hurry up, we must go to the training session with our Evas.

-It's that…well, I have all these bad memories that are affecting me, they are hurting me.

And Shinji and Kaworu leaved the room heading to point that was established in the papers Misato gave them.

-Well, you know, maybe those memories won't vanish because you haven't created new ones, they won't disappear if you do not continue your life, instead of staying there on the couch doing nothing and thinking in an exaggerated way. So new memories do not appear, because there is a memory which in poisoning you, a memory that you don't know it exists because that same memory is already too much accommodated in your life.

So what do you think about it. I would like to read your opinions about it, should I continue?