AkuRoku day entry and Theme 2 of 100 theme challenge
Theme: Love
Fandom: Kingdom Hearts
Pairings: AkuRoku
Characters: Axel & Roxas
The darkness was the same when I lied awake. It was always the same in this castle. It never changed. Nor did our routine
Axel.
Number eight.
The Furry of the Dancing Flames.
He had his arms wrapped tightly around my petite waist. Those long tan arms. It warmth irradiating off of him was like flames licking my chest.
I wanted to feel something. Something. I didn't want this. Feeling like an endless void. Nothing. My heart was full of nothing. Did Axel feel anything at all? Was our relationship full of lust? My heart wrenched at that thought. That was impossible I knew. Yet, I still wished that this relationship had some amount of affection.
I felt his hot breath on the nape of my neck. My hairs started to prickle at the sensation. Was this all our relationship was? Our bodies seeking out pleasure? Was this all we wanted? Mutual sex? Nothing more than that? My blonde brows frowned at my realization; could I still be here after realizing this?
Slowly, I moved out of his arms. I couldn't be in the same room as him. I couldn't be in the same organization as him. My non-existent heart could only take so much despair. I needed something more than this. More emotional. Something I desired. Something that was out of my reach.
"What are you doing, Rox?" He didn't sound too happy.
Happiness. Another false emotion. Another piece of humanity I craved.
"Away." So cold. So empty.
Just like Xenmas had told me. We were emotionless beings. Why did we even have to act like we did have emotions?What was the point of it all? It would only put me further down the path of destruction.
"Away? From this room or . . ." The red-head trailed off.
We both knew the answer. I needed to find these emotions. I wouldn't find them here. With you. I needed to feel them. I needed to feel. I needed them for you. Axel. I needed to find that love . For you.
"You're stupid. All you wanted was pleasure?" The anger was radiating off of him in waves.
I could feel the heat of the flames flickering at his fingertips.
"You want to lose this? Us?"I graced Axel with the only smile I ever gave.
"Axel, you can never lose what you never had." I left him.
I left the organization. I felt relieved. Yet, the guilt I felt was eating away. I wasn't sure if it was the rain pounding into me, or if it was my eyes. For the first time I felt water slowly slide down my face. For the first time; I felt something. It was strong and sad. It was . . .indescribable.
PK: I DON'T EVEN KNOW. This sounds too emo for me. SEE WHAT YOU DO TOO ME SH OSTS? SEEEEEE! Anyway...HAPPY AKUROKU DAY. !