You
by Chiharu (girl@chiharu.nu)
Disclaimer: ;_;
Author's Notes: If you find this a bit confusing, I apologize for that. Confusing describes my mood while I was writing this, so I wouldn't be surprised. But to me... this makes perfect sense. Either way, if you're a S+S fan, you'll probably figure it out yourself. (Right now, I'm rambling... having no clue what I'm talking about. x.x;)
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Sakura,
I would first off like to thank you. For everything. I truly did not live until I met you. When we first met, I know that I was a real jerk to you. I insulted you, teased you, judged you way too quickly. I thought you were unworthy of being a card captor. But, after a while, things began to change. And soon, I realized that I was the unworthy one. Unworthy of you.
You see, I came to Japan with only one (selfish) goal- and that was to capture all the cards. But as time went on, you, more likely than I, guided me... through everything. And for that, I thank you again. You have taught me so much- friendship, kindness, hope, but mostly, love. You taught me that love meant a great deal of... something.
Before I met you, I was just a lonely, quiet boy, ready to give up on my feelings and just go through life as an empty person. And to think that I was so young, so naive to think about that. That is why, a while back, when you told me you felt empty, I was... scared. But I realized what you meant, and I was just jumping to all sorts of conclusions. I was worried. Worried because I care for you. More than anything. And everything.
Simply put, I exist only for you. As I said, I truly did not live until I met you. My duty is to protect you. To care for you. Help you, be strong, and always be there when you need me. In the beginning, I was your rival, but soon, I took on the duty of protecting you instead. And I ended up giving everything up for you. The cards... my life. But I have no regrets. I will do anything in my power for you, though I fear that may not be strong enough. But I *will* be strong. For you.
During the past 6 years, you have not only captured the cards, but my heart as well, and from now on, even if I'm not physically there with you, it is eternally yours. From this point on, no matter what happens. You are my special someone, I know it. I appreciate all the support that you have given me, the care and kindness you have shown and taught me. You have been there for me when I've needed you the most, always saying the right things and making me happy.
And I could never say it enough... to you or anyone else...
...that I love you.
You, Sakura Kinomoto.
The only thing I regret is that I never actually got to say that to you face to face. I know I'm a coward. But I just want you to know, that I will always be with you, even if it seems like I'm not. I am. There is absolutely nothing that can stop me from it.
The past 6 years were the best years of my life. I am really glad that I've met you. But of course, I had to. What else would be the point of my existence? I lived solely for you. And I still do.
To sum this all up, always know that there will always be someone who loves you. Regardless of ANYTHING, *know* that *I* love you. I gave you my heart and my love. It is now eternally yours to keep no matter what. Here, you have written proof of that.
I'm sorry for all the torture that I've put you through in the past. That won't be necessary anymore.
Live life up to the fullest- I know you will. You've affected my life so much, I'm sure you will with a lot of others. Someday, I swear, you will be blinding the world with your beautiful smile. All I ask of you is to keep it up, and not cry over me.
After reading this, remember that I'm with you. I'm probably looking over your shoulder right now. Just think... nothing has changed.
Because I love you. Always have.
Yours truly,
Syaoran Li
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