My name is Sadie Lynn Hawkins Marcelli. I am a country girl from Rock Hills Alabama, and I married a mob boss from New York. How did we get together? Well.. it's a long story. I met Gino, my near fifty year old husband, at a club in New York one night where I was singing. My eye caught his and during intermission, we talked, and then had the most amazing sex I have ever had in my life. I had always heard Italian men were good lovers, and Gino surely is. My parents did not like it when they learned I had met and married a man nearly twenty years older than me, and I was you might say, disowned. I have decided to share my story, and some of my personal journal entries. Some of you might find my life disturbing, kinky and just plain wrong. Others may find it exhilarating and erotic. Either way, I hope you enjoy the journey, and my life as a mob wife.

DECEMBER 1982

I am sitting at my dressing table, brushing my hair. I heard a gunshot, but I am really not sure if it came from downstairs or outside. I looked up when Gino, my new husband, walked in the room. He was wiping fingerprints. blood and GSR off his pistol. He opened the safe and put the gun back inside.

"You look beautiful." He kissed the top of my head, sliding his hands down, he pulled my breasts out of my robe and started to fondle them. "I want you pregnant Sadie"

"Gino.. I.. I thought I heard a gunshot"

Gino rolled my nipples between his fingers and kissed my neck. "I will be right back." He smiled, pulling me to my feet. "You get undressed" He caressed my cheek.

Gino stepped out of the room and I slipped out of my robe. Everytime I had sex with him, it was like the very first time. He would sometimes ask our housekeeper, Ella, and our butler, Carlos, to join us. Ella and Carlos were swingers, and loved having sex with other couples. I will never forget the first time I walked into our bedroom, Gino bent over Ella' sucking her pussy while Carlos fucked him from behind. Gino later told me that the first time he had ever been fucked by a man, he was 13 and his father sat in the corner of the room jacking off, while he sucked his mothers breasts. Gino said that his mother nursed his father, and had also breastfed him right up until she got sick with cancer. My mind was swimming, and I wondered what kind of kinky damn family I had married into. To Gino, this type of life was perfectly natural. I never questioned him, I just did as I was told. I knew Gino loved me, and he took care of me. That was all that mattered.

The door opened and Ella came in, followed by Gino and Carlos walked in. Gino lit a cigar and removed his clothes. He sat down in a chair by the window.

"Why don't you two get her ready." he smiled at me, "I love to watch you cum." he took a drag off his cigar, "work her up good, I want that pussy good and wet."

I gasped when Ella's warm tongue hit my clit. I had never had a woman eat me out before, but she damn sure knew what she was doing. She eased two fingers in and out of me and licked me nice and slow. While she licked me, Carlos sucked my tits like a newborn baby, first one and then the other. My tits are sensitive, VERY sensitive, and I was cumming before I knew it.

"Keep going." Gino walked over to the bed and eased his cock into my mouth. "Suck me baby." he groaned softly, "God that feels so good Sadie." he withdrew and told Ella to help Carlos suck and play with my tits while he fucked me. "I want you pregnant so bad Sadie." he slowly rocked his hips, easing his cock in and out of me. "you like being fucked don't you baby?"

"Yes."

"Do you like it when Carlos plays with your tits baby?" Gino smiled, "I love your big titties." he licked his thumb and started massaging my clit, "that is the one thing that attracted me to you, those enormous melons of yours." he started to thrust faster, "I want those tits full of milk Sadie." He tossed his head back, "I want your milk" he let out a yell and I felt his cock start to throb. Gino rubbed my clit faster and I had another orgasm.

"Get on your knees baby." he turned me over and Carlos got behind me. Gino was a blessed man, but Carlos was enormous. I gasped when his thick pole slid into my pussy. I grabbed a handful of the sheet and bit my lip. Ella pulled my nipples like she was milking a cow and oh my god that felt so fucking good.

"Cum Sadie." Gino was standing beside me jacking his cock. Then he got behind Carlos and shoved his cock into him. Carlos grunted and started fucking me harder.

"Now." Gino wiped his dick off after all three of us had climaxed. "Do you want more?" Gino smiled and I nodded. I couldn't get enough sex. Gino walked to the bathroom and returned with a mirror and a vial of cocaine. He handed me the mirror and I did a line, and then he offered the mirror to Carlos.

Gino sent Ella downstairs for some grass and drinks. She returned and Gino and I smoked a joint while Ella and Carlos sucked my tits. When you are high, the sensation is so much better. It feels awesome. A man will never understand just how good having your tits sucked and stimulated feels, anymore than I know how good it feels to have your cock sucked.

I laid my head back and loved the feel of their mouths pulling on my nipples. Gino got down on his knees and started eating my juices mixed with semen and I came again.

The merry go round of sex, drugs, booze and more sex had become sort of a lifestyle for me. I never questioned Gino when suddenly one of his associates suddenly went missing, nor when he walked downstairs late at night and buzzed for John, his personal assistant, to remove a body from the house. I was once asked by the wife of one of Gino's partners if I was ever afraid. I told her sometimes, yes, I was terrified, but I knew he would never let anything happen to me. Gino adored me, and in some odd, twisted way, saw me more as his child than his wife. He could talk me into doing anything. I had never even heard of cocaine until I met him. Some people may think that I am naieve, or crazy, but.. this is my life.

TWO DAYS LATER

"Sadie"

I peered around the closet door, "Yes."

"Time for you to get ready" Ella laid my dress on the bed, "I will be up to help you with your make up and hair in a bit."

Laying on the bed was the most gorgeous red dress I have ever seen. I looked at the price tag and gasped.

"Nine hundred and fifty dollars, good night."

"You like the dress my love"

I looked up and Gino was standing at the door.

"Its so expensive"

"You are worth every penny."

He sat on the bed and handed me a box.

"What is this?"

"Open it."

I cracked the black box open to reveal a three carat diamond necklace.

"Gino."

He kissed my cheek, "It will look great on you."

He stood up and walked toward the door, "Ella will be right in, and Sadie," he winked at me, "No bra."

I sat there, just staring at the necklace. It was the most ornate, beautiful thing I had ever seen.

"Mr Gino has good taste." Ella smiled and picked up my hairbrush. "Why don't we do your hair first."

Ella helped me slip into the dress and then placed the necklace around my neck. I turned and looked at myself in the mirror, and suddenly realized why Gino didn't want me to wear a bra. You could see right through the dress.

"Oh, I don't know about this." I looked at Ella, "Its so..."

"You look beautiful Mrs Marcelli, you always do." she walked to the door, "Now, lets go downstairs."

I walked down the winding staircase and into the ballroom. John, Gino's assistant, was standing at the bar with a beer in his hand. I gave him a nice up and down once over. This man was hot as hell. He was from Texas, so I felt as if we had a kinship in that regard. He had a killer, fuck me smile, and always wore snakeskin cowboy boots everywhere he went. He lifted his glass and smiled at me, his eyes fixed on my chest.

"AHHH.. there she is." Gino walked over to me and took my hand, "my sweet Sadie."

"Gino, this dress is..."

He kissed me, "Its perfect."

"But I feel so.. "

"Baby, you look gorgeous."

"Do I?"

"Yes, you do."

I walked over to the bar where John was standing with his mother, Francesca. I learned shortly after Gino and I were married, that he and Francesca were lovers, Francesca was also a lesbian, and joined Gino and I in bed one night. This woman had magic hands. I learned that her husband and Gino were business partners. He was an oil man, that suddenly disappeared. I had always wondered if Gino had him killed or if Gino in fact had killed him.

"You look beautiful Sadie." Francesca took my hand.

"Thank you."

"You really do." John smiled, his gaze fixed on my chest.

I silently scolded myself for the thoughts I was having about this sexy man standing before me. He gave me a lustful look and sipped his drink. I wanted him so bad I could taste it. You could tell that his cock was huge, just by the outline in his jeans. Gino caught him one night in the study giving me a shoulder massage and told him if he ever put his hands on me again, he would kill him. John just backed away. He had cleaned up enough of Gino's messes that he knew better than to argue.

"That is a beautiful necklace."

"Thank you." I put my hand up over the diamond. "It was a gift from Gino."

Francesca excused herself and walked over to a small cluster of women standing beside the Christmas tree.

"That's quite a dress."

"I really don't like it."

"Why?"

"Its too revealing."

"No its not, body like yours should be shown off."

"John," I gave him a sideways look, "Don't say things like that, if Gino were to hear you."

"You love him?"

I nodded, "He's good to me."

"Baby, that's not what I asked you."

"He's good to me.. he..."

"Sadie, a closet full of clothes, a wallet full of credit cards and a jewelry box full of diamonds don't mean shit, if you aren't treated right."

"He's not cruel to me like that."

John sighed, "Well, some of the shit he makes you do is.."

I knew John was right, but I didn't say anything. More than once, I would have sex with Gino's friends while he watched, telling them just how to touch me to turn me on. Sometimes, especially if I was high, I didn't mind it much, other times, he made me feel like a personal sex toy.

"Meet me tomorrow, at the Fountain Inn."

"I cant do that."

"Why not."

"You know Gino.. he will..."

"Gino is going out of town in the morning."

"He is?"

"Yes, I will have him at the airport at seven, his plane leaves at seven thirty. He wont be back until Friday."

"He didn't tell me.. "

John cleared his throat and stood up straight when he noticed Gino walking across the room.

"There is my beauty." he kissed my cheek, "I wondered where you were."

"I just.. wanted to... "

"Well, come with me, there is someone I want you to meet."

Gino led me across the room where a man was standing with two young boys.

"Marco, this is my wife, Sadie."

He looked at my breasts and licked his lips before extending his hand, "Nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too." I said quietly.

"Why don't we move into the study." Gino put his hand to my back and we walked into his study. Gino closed the door and motioned for the three men to sit.

Marco and Gino began speaking to each other in Italian. This always drove me insane, the fact that I had no idea what they were saying. Gino laughed and made a gesture with his hands to his front, so I knew they were talking about the fact that my breasts were so big.

"Step over to Marco Sadie." Gino walked up behind me and unzipped my dress. He jiggled my breasts with his hands and said something else to Marco in Italian. Then he told me to bend down, offering Marco my left tit. Marco sucked hungrily, and unzipped his pants, pulling out his near flaccid cock.

"Suck as long as you want to" Gino rubbed my ass. "She has gorgeous tits doesn't she?

"Yes." Marco sighed, "she tastes amazing."

"Ahhh.. you can taste her pussy later."

Marco was jacking himself off, and his body jerked, spraying cum all over the wall.

"That is just a small taste." Gino removed my tit from his mouth and zipped my dress back up. "Now, if the three of you will excuse me, I need to speak with Sadie."

Gino closed the door and took my face in his hands.

"Now, Marco's boys, Greg and Maxwell, well, they are still virgins. They need to be deflowered and.. "

"And you want me to have sex with them."

"Ah, but not just them, Marco too." Gino smiled, "Since Marietta died, Marco hasn't.. "

"Gino, are you serious?" I walked to the window, "You want me to..." I turned to him, "what if I refuse."

Gino walked over and rubbed my cheek. "Oh, you will not refuse." he gave me a look that terrified me. "you will fuck them, suck their cocks, do whatever I tell you to." he slid his arms around me, "Then, while they watch, you will fuck their father." Gino tapped his chin, "Or maybe you should screw Marco first, get the boys worked up good." he rubbed my back "I will decide that later."

"When will this happen?"

"Tonight my lover." He kissed my nose, "I do love you Sadie."

I nodded, "I know you do, and I love you.. I just.. "

"What baby, tell me?"

"Gino, you want to have a baby, and well, if the two of us.. "

He put his finger to my lips, "I said I wanted you pregnant, if the child isn't mine.. it doesn't matter." he rubbed my nipples with his thumbs, "have these tits full of milk, for my associates and I to suckle anytime we want to."

"So, you are going to turn me into a wet nurse?"

"Well, I suppose you could say that."

I laughed, "Why not just buy me a fuckin cow costume."

Gino grabbed my arm and jerked me toward him, "Don't give me any ideas Sadie." he snarled, "you know I will do that, and a lot more."

"Gino, you are hurting me."

"You just do as I say."

He walked toward the door, "The party will be ending soon, and Marco and his sons and I will be coming upstairs." he clicked the door, "I will expect you to be ready."

LATER THAT NIGHT

Gino closed the front door and informed Carlos and Ella he would buzz them if he needed them. He ushered Marco, his boys and I into the study and closed the door. He unlocked the safe in the corner, the one only he could open, and pulled out a vial of cocaine and a bag of grass. He sat at his desk rolling joints while making small talk with Marco. He tapped some coke on the mirror and did a line and handed the straw and mirror to Marco.

Gino lit a joint and took a drag, and told me to undress.. "Take your clothes off, slowly."

I watched Marco, who was sitting in front of me, give me an up and down look. I noticed the crotch of his pants getting tighter as I slipped out of my red satin and lace thong.

"Good god she is hot."

"Yes, she is indeed."

Gino handed the joint to Marco, "Lie back on the setee Sadie." Gino slipped out of his tuxedo, "Marco wants a taste of your sweet pussy."

I said back and eased my legs up. Marco got on the floor at my feet and sniffed, letting out a groan.

"Ahh.. and she tastes as good as she smells." Gino took another hit off the joint. "Give her a lick."

I closed my eyes, telling myself that this would soon be over. Either that or I would soon be so high I wouldn't care. Gino got at the head of the setee and started playing with my tits.

"Suck her clit, gently" Gino pulled my nipples. He knew exactly what I liked, and what I loved, "pull it between your lips."

I let out a moan and started to thrust my hips up. Marco rolled his tongue all over my pussy before plunging his cock into me.

"Yes.. that's it.. nice slow thrusts, make it last." Gino took my arms and pulled them over my head, "watch those titties bounce while you fuck her."

"Oh god." Marco groaned, "how do you stand it."

"Oh.. I love fucking my sweet Sadie." Gino pressed my breasts together, "and putting your cock between these." he grinned at Marco, "you can do that later.. it feels so fucking good when she titty fucks you."

"Oh... mmmm.. Yes.. oh god yes." Marco closed his eyes and pumped harder, finally cumming in me hard. I loved the feel of a cock, any cock, going off inside me. Gino started rolling my nipples and made me cum too.

"Now." Gino held his hand out, "Which one of you boys wants to fuck her first?" he motioned for Greg, "Why don't you go first."

Greg nervously stepped over to me. I took a hit of the joint Gino offered me and started to rub my clit. "You want a taste?" the joint was starting to work its magic.

"Can... can I suck your tits?"

"You may do whatever you want." Gino smiled. He and Marco sat on the sofa in the corner of the room and did lines of coke between shots of vodka.

"That feel ok?" Greg said softly.

"Yes, your mouth feels so good." I cradled his head in my hands. "lick around my nipple, just like that." I took his other hand, "roll this one between your fingers.. not too hard, oh that feels nice."

Greg sucked my tits until he made me cum. I asked him if he was ready.

"I.. I guess so." he gave his father a nervous look. He got at the foot of the setee and eased into me.

"OH GOD"

"Ok. just relax," I was amazed how big this kids cock was. "don't thrust too fast.. or too hard.. you will cum too quick."

Greg started to thrust slowly, but as most boys getting their first feel of a warm pussy, he was cumming before he knew it.

"Sorry" He gave me a sideways grin.

"We have all night" I looked over at Maxwell, who's cock was rock hard, "why don't we give your brother a turn, then I will give you a blow job."

"What's that?"

I ran my finger down his shaft, and he started to get hard again.

"You will see."

Maxwell fucked me nice and slow. This kid had control like I had never seen.

"I am.. my dick is throbbing."

"Its ok." I purred, "just relax."

"OH FUCK" he grabbed my knees and thrust hard. "damn that feels so fuckin good."

As promised, I got on my knees in front of Greg and sucked his cock nice and slow.

I found out that Marco had an obvious tit fetish. He got behind me pawing and playing with my tits. He eased his cock into me and fucked me while I sucked his son.

Marco watched as Gino coated my tits with massage oil. Gino took his time, slowly coating my nipples, driving me into a frenzy. I had smoked a joint or two and did a couple of lines of coke, so I was feeling pretty good.

"Straddle her," Gino rubbed his hands over my breasts, "put your cock here." Gino curled my tits around Marco's cock.

"SHIT" Marco hissed, "I don't know what feels better, her pussy or her tits."

Gino rubbed my nipples with his thumbs while Marco glided his cock between my tits. I lifted my head up and nursed on the crown of his cock. That drove him over the edge. He hissed and tossed his head back, letting himself go all over my tits.

"Get on your knees Sadie." Gino commanded and rubbed his shaft. He plunged his cock into me and fucked me nice and slow. He told Marco to rub my clit and commanded the two boys to suck my tits.

"Does that feel good baby?" Gino growled.

"Yes."

"Best sex you have had lately?"

"It feels good Gino.. it feels so good."

He flipped me onto my back and told me to raise my arms over my head. Marco and his boys jacked their cocks while they watched my tits bounce. Gino climaxed hard, his orgasm seeming to last forever.

Gino and I finally at almost four am told Marco and his boys goodnight and went upstairs for more sex and some much needed sleep.

"When is your next gyno appointment?"

"I just saw my doctor... I.. "

"I will call Antonio, see if he can come over here."

"Gino, I am fine.. I..."

"Sadie, I am craving breastmilk.. there has to be some way for you to produce.. its obvious that you cannot become pregnant" he sighed and slipped into bed.

"How do you know its me."

"It has to be you."

I slid into bed beside him. What if he was right, what if something was wrong with me? I turned onto my left side, and prepared myself for the nightly ritual. Gino latched onto my breast and suckled until he finally fell asleep.

I wondered why Gino had not told me that he was going out of town. What was the big secret, or did I even want to know.