It was 10am in Alola when Cynthia arrived at her hotel having travelled all the way from Sinnoh. She, along with the other champions, had arrived for the annual pokemon week festival. The festival was a time to celebrate pokemon and the bond their trainers had with them.
Cynthia walked over to the balcony in her room and reflected on her peaceful surroundings. She had always loved beautiful Alola with its calming oceans. It was a place that encouraged her tendency to feel at peace. The cooling breeze was pleasant as the temperature was almost 100 degrees and the sun was beating down on her, having ankle length hair and favoring the gothic style she wasn't a huge fan of the sun.
She gazed from her beach view balcony at people playing on the beach. Kids, parents, couples and oh.. That, that was one of her fellow champions splashing her new boyfriend in the sea. Not just any champion, it was Diantha, probably the most angelic woman Cynthia had ever laid eyes on.
"My, she's so breathtaking." Cynthia mumbled to herself, jealous of the champions current relationship. How she wished she was down there with her, splashing around and being generally silly with the woman she had a huge crush on, or so she thought. In Cynthia's eyes this guy wasn't good enough for Kalos Champ, Diantha was a princess and he was pretty basic, nothing special but hey love is love right?
"Huh?" Cynthia turned around when she heard a knock at her door. She walked over and opened it.
"Oh, Hey there Steven, Long time no see." She greeted the Hoenn champion with a smile.
"Morning Cynthia, you look beautiful as ever," He replied, giving a sincere smile back at the Sinnoh Champion.
"Oh, Why thank you," She looked down at herself dressed in a low cut black vest top and a black tutu like skirt. "you're looking not to bad yourself." She replied, a blush spreading across her face. Cynthia was used to getting compliments, she knew how beautiful she was but it was unusual to get them from Steven. He was what most women would describe as 'dreamy.'
"Thanks," He laughed nervously, scratching the back of his head. "I was wondering if you wanted to join Diantha, Alder and I on the beach?" Steven had to be unaware of her huge crush on the Kalos champ right? How could he have known? She had always kept it to herself and kept a professional relationship with the angelic beauty.
"Uhh, I'm not sure, I was planning on staying up here and reading my book. It's fascinating, it's all about the history of Alola," Yes she was making excuses but she hardly wanted to spend her minimal time in Alola watching the woman she craved so badly fussing over her new boyfriend. "Plus the idea of Alder staring at me in a bikini is very off putting." This part was true.
"Classic Cynthia, always studying," He gave a light chuckle. "I understand, if you change your mind you know where to find us."
"Thanks Steven." She said with a smile, closing the door after he turned to leave. Cynthia leaned against the door and gave a soft sigh, wishing she could go down there and have fun but oh well, best to take her mind off it.
Cynthia sat on the balcony for over an hour reading her new book on Alola's history, She loved reading up on the history of the places she visited, it gave her good ideas to where she'd like to visit.
"Fascinating!" She said to herself, closing the book she had just finished.
"Hey Alder, go long!" She heard a voice shout in the distance, it was Steven. They champions where playing frisbee. Cynthia chuckled to herself.
"Big kids," As tempting as it was to join them she was instantly put off by the sight of Alder, the Unova champ, in a speedo. "jeez Alder it's a family beach," Cynthia cringed. "put it away!" Cynthia put her book away and decided to go for a walk, she grabbed her purse and headed out of the hotel.
Unfortunately for her on the way out she ran into the one person she didn't want to see.
"Cynthia!" She heard a female voice shout. Cynthia turned around to see Diantha walking towards her. "Hey!"
"Hey-" Oh damn, she looked stunning. Diantha was wearing a white bikini that barely covered her C cup breasts. Cynthia did her best to avoid staring at her.
"We missed you at the beach," Diantha was attempting to look her in the eye but Cynthia was avoiding it. "are you okay?"
"I'm fine, I'm real sorry I didn't come down but I caught a glimpse of Alder and felt too physically sick." She laughed nervously.
"Oh you saw that huh?"
"I think people from space saw it." Cynthia added which made Diantha giggle which sounded like music to the blonde's ears. She had such a sweet giggle, a sweet voice in all, the more Cynthia was around her the more perfect she became. She was forbidden fruit.
"So where are you off too?" Diantha asked, drying off her hair with a towel.
"Just a walk, I fancied some fresh air and some sightseeing." She replied.
"Sound fun, want some compan-"
"Diantha!" A dark haired man approached the two women. It was Diantha's boyfriend.
"Brian... I was just chatting with Cynthia. She's going shopping I was going to tag along." Diantha said in a soft voice.
"I thought we were gonna go back to our room," The dark haired man gave Cynthia an uncomfortable stare.
"Oh but-"
"It's okay Diantha I wanted to go alone anyway." Cynthia interrupted.
"See she wants to go alone now let's go back to our room and get you out of these." He eyed up Diantha's bikini and Cynthia's hands made fists.
"...Oh okay. Well have fun, Cynthia." Diantha gave an awkward smile then headed back to the hotel with her boyfriend. Cynthia felt what could only be described as a punch to her stomach when he touched her inappropriately in public.
"Scum bag," She hissed to herself. "She deserves so much better." Cynthia walked towards the town.
"I think she hates me." Diantha said to Brian when they got back to their room.
"Who cares." Brian pushed her down and kissed her neck.
"I do, I don't want her to hate me." Diantha pulled away.
"Can we talk about this later, right now I just want you!" He said in an attempted seductive voice. Diantha wasn't really in the mood but just went with it anyway.
"I'm sorry." She said quietly, not wanting to argue.
"It's okay babe." He smiled at her then continued to kiss her neck.
Cynthia wondered around the shops and explored a few museums. They places were beautiful, alola in general was a gorgeous region.
"Cynthia!" She heard a male voice call her.
"Huh?" She looked around. "Oh hello Lance." She gave the red haired man a smile.
"How are you?" He asked the blonde.
"I'm good, this place is beautiful." She replied.
"Yeah it really is, I've been doing some sightseeing myself, I was just about to head off too get some lunch, fancy coming with me?"
"Sure! I'm starving." Cynthia gleefully agreed and went along with him.
They headed to an Italian restaurant and ordered a pizza between them.
"This place is beautiful." Cynthia commented, there was peaceful Italian music playing."
"It is, I come here every time I visit Alola." Lance replied with a mouthful of pizza. Cynthia giggled.
"Didn't your mother ever tell you not to speak with your mouth full?"
"You're funny," He said sarcastically. "So I walked by the beach earlier, didn't see you there. Fallen out with someone or...?"
"Hmm? Uh, no I just didn't feel like swimming." She shrugged then took a bite of her pizza slice.
"That's not like you, the Cynthia I know loves to swim," Lance raised an eyebrow at the blonde. "Are you sure this has nothing to do with a certain gray haired woman you've been swooning over the past year?" Cynthia choked on her food.
"Wha- I don't know what you're talking about!" She replied defensively.
"Oh come on, you practically drool when you see her. I don't blame you she is sexy as hell, I'd love to f-"
"Stop!" Cynthia shouted at him, her face turning a bright red colour.
"Hah! I knew it!" Lance grinned. "Must be hard seeing her with that asshole huh?"
"You think he's an asshole?" She looked back up at him.
"Yeah! He treats her so badly. He's only with her because she's famous."
"But why? She's so sweet and lovable..." Cynthia covered her mouth and Lance rolled his eyes.
"Chill Cynthia, this is hardly news, everyone knows." Lance took another bite which he then spat out when she slammed her hand on the table.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN EVERYONE KNOWS!?" Lance jumped a little.
"Well um... Oh come on Cynthia is so obvious you're so shy around her, that's not who you are," Lance sighed and leaned in towards her. "Just tell her how you feel!"
"I can't! She's not even gay, Lance." Cynthia rubbed her eyes, embarrassed.
"Actually she's bi, she told me she once dated Malva." Lance said quietly not wanting anyone to hear, Diantha was pretty famous all over the world almost everyone knows who she is.
"Oh that proves nothing, she's Malva. She's a fucking goddess, every straight woman and gay man wants to date her, she's like the female Johnny Depp," Cynthia rubbed her temples. "Oh god this is so fucked up!"
"I think it's sweet, it's like a love story, in fact this would make a great movie!" Lance said with a wide grin.
"Lance I'm about 2 seconds away from smacking you!"
"Sorry," He submitted. "Look if you're so in love with her-"
"Woah! Who said anything about love? Do I think shes beautiful? Yeah! Do I think she's got an attractive body? I mean sure but I'm not in love with her..." Cynthia rambled but Lance believed none of it. "…do I have feelings for her? I mean yeah I guess so but I'm not in love with her!"
"Okay... I didn't listen to any of that because the sound was blocked out by looove." He smirked but just before Cynthia threw her water in his face and got up to leave.
"Hey jokes on you I was starting to get hot anyway."
"See you at the festival." Cynthia walked away.
"Yeah I'll see you there, drooling over the love of your life!" He shouted but got no reaction then turned around to realize she left him to pay for the meal. "You bitch!" A waitress turned around to look at him with a scowl. "Not you! Good food." He smiled.
A few hours later the festival was almost ready, Cynthia could see the people on the beach setting it up from her room. She curled her hair a little and put on some eyeliner and black lipstick. She dressed up in a low cut black Victorian lace dress that stopped a little over her knees and platform high heeled lace up ankle boots along with some spider web black lace gloves. She looked drop dead gorgeous to say the least. By the time she was dressed the festival was about to start, there was a knock at her door, this time it was Lance all dressed up in a white shirt and suit pants.
"Hey Cynthia, I just wanted to apologize for earlier I guess I was a little out of line." Lance said apologetically.
"Yeah you were, you're lucky I'm too nice to not forgive you." Cynthia replied, ending her sentence with a smile.
"Thanks, you look.. stunning by the way." Lance was a little lost for words.
"Thank you, the festival doesn't start for another half hour though, what are you doing here?"
"Well I hate seeing you lock yourself away, I wanted to see if you wanted to go get a quick drink before the festival?"
"Um, sure couldn't hurt." She went in and grabbed her purse then locked her door.
"Gee thanks." Lance muttered to himself.
The two went down the hotel bar and had a few glasses of wine, they sat outside where it was still quite hot but the sun was setting so the heat wasn't too bad. The festival was set up, there was a small stage where the band was setting up and lights had been hung all around the beach along with several stalls and food carts which they could smell from where they were. People had begun to gather there.
"So I heard Alder was running around the beach in a speedo, I'm glad I missed that." Lance laughed.
"Pft, me too. To be honest that's one of the reasons I didn't go down there, he clearly thinks I'm hot and having him stare at me in a swim suit isn't exactly appealing." She laughed too.
"Not very, no," Lance agreed. "so can I ask something?"
"Depends what you wanna ask, if it's about Diantha then no!" Cynthia said strictly.
"If what's about Diantha?" A voice came from behind her and Cynthia almost spat her drink.
"Shit," She whispered. Diantha was standing behind her dressed in a pink dress with a tight waist and a tutu like skirt attached and pink platform heals, dinatha was only 5'2" so she wore heels to compensate for that, hair hair was down and wavy with one half of her forhead covered with cute side bangs. 'Dammit she couldn't look cuter if she tried!' Cynthia thought to herself. "nothing dear, we're just chatting about the festival and stuff, be right back I have to go to the bathroom." Cynthia quickly got up and shot lance a look. 'Get rid of them!" She mouthed to him then left as quickly as she could.
"That's the second time today she's done that to me," Diantha sighed heavily. "why doesn't she like me? What did I do?" She asked Lance.
"I don't know I- … wait, what?" Lance shook his head. "She doesn't not like you."
"Are you sure because she refused to come down to the beach today and every time I talk to her she walks away from me. I feel like she hates me and I don't know why..." Diantha wiped her eyes with a tissue, she hated when people were mad at her, she was one of those people who wanted to be everyones friend.
"That's not it at all, Cynthia is just... well she's Cynthia. She's a little weird at first but when you get to know her you get used to it." He waved a hand at her. Lance noticed that her eyes and cheeks were red as if she had been crying. "Are you okay you look upset, your eyes are red?"
"I'm fine I just had to redo my makeup several times, it'll look fine in a while." Diantha said too quickly for that to be true.
"Huh... Okay well trust me Cynthia isn't mad at you, she likes you. More than you think..." That last part he said quietly to himself.
"Oh well good-" Diantha was once again cut off by her boyfriend.
"Who's this?" He asked, looking not very happy.
"This is Lance he's the champion of Johto!" Diantha introduced him with a smile.
"Right, well we better get going." Brian sort of shoved Diantha out onto the street.
"But I was talking-"
"You can talk later we wanna get there before it's too crammed with people, come on babe." He took her hand and basically dragged her onto the beach.
"Okay well bye Lance." She shouted at him.
"Yeah bye." Lance sighed. A few moments later Cynthia returned from the bathroom, he could see through her gloves that she had been scratching her arms which was something she did when she was angry with herself. Cynthia had long claw-like nails so it was easy for her to do so. "What did you do?" Lance said in a pissed off tone.
"Nothing." She sniffed a little.
"Not you too, what is it with women why can they never just say what they're feeling?"
"Are you being fucking serious right now?"
"Cynthia!" Lance scowled. "Diantha was really upset she thinks you hate her! She has clearly been crying too, that guy doesn't treat her right. The second he saw her talking with me he dragged her to the beach and now you're coming back with puffy eyes and scratched up arms which I know you do when your mad at yourself. I'm not dumb!"
"Wait... What do you mean she thinks I hate her?" Cynthia looked concerned but Lance's face dropped.
"THAT'S WHAT YOU GOT FROM THAT?" Lance snapped. "Didn't you just hear me? She's upset and he's clearly bossing her around!"
"Why does she think I hate her?"
"Well do you blame her? Every time she tries to talk to you, you run off or blow her off!"
"Oh god I'm such a moron!" She smacked her palm against her head.
"Yes, yes you are but the point is you have to stop avoiding her, you may have a chance here!" Lance tried to lighten the mood but only seemed to be making things worse.
"Oh what chance in hell do I have, if you haven't noticed she has a boyfriend and however shitly he treats her she still loves him!" Cynthia covered her face with her hands.
"See I don't think she does, she seems... I dunno, scared of him," Lance shrugged. "Maybe she's too afraid to break up with him?" Cynthia didn't respond she just dropped her hands to the table and shook her head.
"I don't even want to go to this festival anymore-"
"NO! Okay you are NOT pulling out of this festival because of this, if you don't go you're only gonna make Diantha feel worse! Don't lock yourself away, get out there and have fun. You don't HAVE to be near Diantha okay it's a HUGE beach you can hang with me or anyone else," Lance insisted. "Please Cynthia, for me?" He was begging at this point. After a long pause she finally agreed.
"Okay fine.." Cynthia dabbed her eyes with a napkin. After she had calmed down and touched up her makeup she headed out to the beach with Lance.
The music was so loud it was hard to hear themselves think, after a few more drinks Lance dicided to go and dance with some of the girls that were swooning over him. "Lance the dragon master." Always popular with the ladies, Cynthia chuckled to herself as she watched him dance like an idiot. She had a plastic cup with questionable punch in it that she kept staring down at wishing she had lances confidence but then again he always was a lightweight.
"Hey there beautiful." She heard a familiar voice say, it was Alder, who else would it have been.
"Hi Alder." Cynthia gave a polite smile.
"What's a gorgeous girl like you standing around alone for? That's not the Cynthia I know." He commented with an attempt at a charming smile.
"That Cynthia is dead and buried, dancing isn't really my thing anymore Alder, I just don't feel like it anymore." The blonde shrugged.
"Oh now I'm sure that's not true, come dance with me, just one dance please?" He insisted. The cringe was setting in but what the hell? What did she have to lose?
"Okay fine but you touch my ass once and I'll drown you!" Alder laughed nervously.
"Such a charmer as per usual, I promise I'll keep my hands to myself." Alder took her into the crowd, luckily it was a slow song so it didn't require too much effort or making a fool of herself. Over Alders shoulder she could see in the distance Diantha slow dancing her boyfriend. 'Lance was right she doesn't look her happy cheery self, oh god did I do that to her. This is all my fault, I'm such a bad person.' Cynthia thought to herself.
"… and that's what happened, weird eh?" Alder rambled.
'Oh go was he talking to me? Dammit I wasn't listening, just smile and nod.' Cynthia nodded her head and gave a small laugh to which Alder smiled back. 'Oh good he didn't notice I wasn't listening. Score!'
"I'm gonna go get a hotdog, you want one?" The red haired champion offered.
"No thanks, I'm gonna go for a wonder anyways." The blonde wondered off into the crowd, trying to get closer to Diantha. Not before someone grabbed her shoulder which made her jump out of her skin.
"DAMMIT STEVEN!" She panted.
"Sorry Cynthia didn't mean to scare you," He chuckled. "I wanted to make sure you were okay?"
"I'm fine why?" She replied dryly.
"Oh it's just because Diantha was really upset earlier she thinks you-"
"Hate her, yeah I know... and I don't! I like her! I've just been moody lately." Cynthia gazed over at where Diantha was but she was gone now. 'Dammit!'
"Oh right." He looked down then back up and Cynthia's eyes widened.
"Oh my god, no not that!" She waved her hands around. "I just haven't been feeling myself lately."
"Shees in looove." Lance's drunken voice came from behind her. 'Oh crap, fantastic!' She groaned to herself.
"In love? Who with?" Steven asked a little excited.
"Shh," Lance put a finger to his lips. "It's a secret." He laughed like a moron then walked away.
"Remind me to kick his ass tomorrow!" Cynthia growled.
"Okay.." Steven paused, "Um Cynthia, do you wanna talk about it? I'm not drunk I swear, I actually don't drink at all. I promise I won't say anything."
"Well according to Lance you all already know anyway so what fucking secret is it?" She looked over at Diantha who was in a makeout session with her new lover who couldn't have his tongue farther down her throat if he tried. "Ugh forget it, I'm going home." Cynthia said in a broken voice and ran off.
"Cynthia wait!" Steven chased after her but lost her in the crowd. After about 10 minutes of searching he found her hiding behind in an empty part of the beach, sitting alone in the sand with her head tucked in between her knees and chest. "Cynthia?" Steven went over and sat with her, she raised her head and her makeup was smeared.
"I can't do this Steven." She said in a quiet husky voice.
"Is this about Diantha?" He asked carefully. Cynthia Just nodded then there was a small pause before she burst into tears. Steven pulled her into his arms and held her tightly.
"Seeing her here with that... that... loser! I can't do it! Being around her is hard enough knowing I can't have her but seeing her with him or anyone else for that matter makes it ten times harder than it already is! I've never felt like this before! She's just so sweet and kind and beautiful and now she thinks I hate her when all I wanna do is hold her and kiss her and treat her like the fucking princess that she is!" Her voice towards the end of that sentence was hard to understand as her breathing was so shaky.
"It's okay, it's okay just breathe." Steven attempted to comfort the blonde and she didn't resist, she desperately needed this talk with someone and Steven was who she trusted more than any of the others. After a long pause she finally spoke-
"I think I'm in love with her Steven." Another long pause occurred in which time Steven rubbed her back and wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"I know you do, It's easy to tell and no one deserves her more than you do." Steven looked Cynthia in her watery grey eyes.
"It's never gonna happen is it?" Cynthia whispered to him.
"Well-" Steven stopped.
"What? Steven tell me!"
"I can't but think about it, why do you think she was so upset when she thought you hated her?" Steven hinted.
"Because she likes making friends with everyone and probably doesn't understand why I'm so dry with her? Ugh I'm such a horrible person."
"I respectfully disagree but okay," Steven swept Cynthia's hair out of her face. "Listen to me. You're a beautiful, strong and kind hearted person you just have to show her that!"
"Lance said the same thing, ugh."
"Well what's the worst that could happen? For all you know she might dump that loser for you."
"Her rejecting me is more likely, that's not a change I want to take especially since I have to see her so often."
"How do you know she's going to reject you?" Steven asked. "I told Lance this and I'll tell you too, she's not gay and before you tell me she's bi dating Malva doesn't count!"
"She actually dated Valerie for a while too."
"Valerie's gay?" Cynthia asked, surprised.
"Yeah, He chuckled. "point is she is actually bi I can 100% confirm that to you and um... let's just say you're not the only one who's poured their heart out to me."
"Diantha has too?"
"Yeah, I'm just that kind of guy I suppose." He shrugged and smiled. "She's definitely into girls too but she's never going to know you like her unless yout talk to her because at the moment she thinks you hate her. I guess she's so upset because she really needs a best friend right now, a female best friend." There was a long pause whilst Cynthia argued with the voices in her head convincing her not to do what she was about to do but she ignored them.
"I have to fix this!" Cynthia fixed her makeup. "Thanks Steven." She stood.
"What are you gonna do." Steven stood up too.
"Well right now I need to let her know I don't hate her and that I want to be her friend... I'll think of something." She gave the Hoenn Champ a grateful kiss on the cheek then went back into the crowd to find Diantha. She couldn't find the Kalos Champ anywhere but she did however find Alder.
"Hey Alder have you seen Diantha?" Alder didn't answer but he nodded his head in the direction of the hotel, when Cynthia turned her head she saw Diantha sitting alone outside the hotel with a glass of wine in her hand, from here it was hard to see her face. Alder touched Cynthia's shoulder then walked back over to where Lance was. 'What's happened?' She thought to herself. 'Why is everyone being so weird?' She walked out of the festival and approached Diantha slowly, the closer she got the more she understood why Alder was being so quiet with her. Diantha's face looked almost identical to Cynthia's just moments ago, her makeup was smeared down her cheeks.
"Diantha?" Cynthia asked quietly and carefully not wanting to upset her further in case this was her fault. The Kalos champ didn't answer so Cynthia was unsure whether or not to approach her further but she bit her lip and did it anyway, if Diantha snapped at her she deserved it for her shitty behavior towards her. "I'm so sorry."
"...What for?"
"For being a dick, I totally ignored you all day today and was rude as fuck earlier when I walked off mid conversation. I haven't been myself recently and I realize now how rude I've been acting," She took a seat next to the actress. "...Steven told me you thought I hated you and I just wanna say that's absolutely not true I really do like you so if I upset you in anyway I'm truly sorry and I don't blame you if you never wanna talk to me again.." She realized she had been rambling on and Diantha has been completely silent and still. Diantha took a deep breath then moved over and threw herself into the Blondes arms and cried quietly into her chest. Cynthia wrapped her arms around Diantha cautiously not wanting to overstep any boundaries.
"I don't deserve you Cynthia." Diantha sobbed.
"What-" Cynthia's eyes widened.
"I'm just the worst person ever-" Before Diantha could finish her sentence Cynthia interrupted.
"You are not! Don't say that!" Diantha pulled away gasping a little in shock, teary eyed. "Oh my, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to shout at you."
"I lost Brian, I went looking for him and when I found him he was in a dark part of the beach with another girl wrapped around him..."
"Oh! Oh god I'm sorry!" Cynthia's jaw dropped, did she hear that right? This overly possesive guy actually cheated on her? What the fuck was he playing at?
"Stop apologizing it's not your fault. I just keep going over in my head what I done wrong." She squeezed her eyes shut, holding back more tears. Cynthia's heart actually started to hurt, she felt so disgusted but at the same time just wanted to attack this gorgeous girl with kisses and tell her how she felt.
"What do you mean what YOU did wrong? He's the one who cheated on you, you're not the one at fault here, he is! He clearly doesn't love you, if he did he wouldn't have done such a horrible thing."
"That's the point why didn't he love me? I tried to hard and gave him everything he wanted I mean I turned down a movie part because it involved me being patrially nude and he didn't want other guys seeing my body for fuck sake what more could I have done? Am I really so unlovable?" 'Dammit woman!' Cynthia thought to herself. She truly had to fight back the urge to go rip this guys head off, her firsts were so tight her nails were breaking the skin on her palms, anger wasn't even enough to describe her mood right now. What kind of asshole does that to someone then goes and cheats on them in the middle of a public area?
"Don't be silly you're extremely lovable, you're the most lovable person I have ever met you just have met the right person yet, forget Brian he's scum!"
"But I-"
"NO BUTS!" Cynthia snapped. Diantha back off a little, tearing up again.
"Why are you yelling at me?" She said quietly, Cynthia didn't realise that Diantha was unaware of her strong feelings towards the actress or why she was so angry she was literally lost for words.
"I- I can't do this!" Cynthia kicked over the chair in front of her and stormed off to her room.
"Fuck, Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! What is wrong with you, you pathetic excuse for a human!" She chanted to herself whilst walking back and forth in her room, she pulled her gloved off and scratched her arms harder than before. "You had a chance and you blew it, you shouted at her and now she thinks you're a freak, good work dumb ass, ugh!" She threw herself on her bed and buried her face into her pillow. A few moments later there was a knock at her door which she ignored assuming it was Steven, Lance or Alder coming to give her shit for messing it up with Diantha, the door knocked again and this time she got up to open it but this time it was Diantha on the other side.
"What was that all about?" Diantha asked the blonde who was on the verge of tears and tearing her hair out.
"I don't know, I got mad I hate it when yo- I mean... people... put themselves down for asshole guys who don't deserve them." Cynthia said through her teeth.
"No," Diantha shut Cynthia's door behind her. "No there's more to it than that! I may be naive but I'm not a moron. What did you mean but 'I cant do this'?" Cynthia was silent, what was she suppose to do now? Confess? Lie? There was no way out of this unless she were to jump of her balcony which seemed appealing at this point, she dug herself into a deep hole now she had to get herself out of it. How? She hadn't quite figured that out yet.
"I already explained."
"No, theres no way youd freak the fuck out like that just because I was talking bad about myself, at most you'd get annoyed, there's more to this and I want to know what? Because, to me, it looked like it physically pained you to hear me shit talk myself!" Cynthia couldn't look at her, she turned her head away and squeezed her eyes shut. Her hands covered her face and without realizing she was pulling her own hair tightly. Diantha took a labored breath, she didn't expect this reaction at all Cynthia to her had always been such a well put together person but now she seemed the total opposite. "Cynthia?"
"I-" She begun but was stopped when she felt how fast her heart was racing, she felt a little dizzy and her chest began to hurt. "Oh god," She began panting heavily. Having never experienced a panic attack before she had no idea what was happening to her. Diantha panicked when she saw Cynthia clutch her chest and cry out in pain, mistaking this for a possible heart attack.
"Do you want me to call someone?" Diantha rushed to the blondes side and held her. She lost her sight by this point, the room was spinning. It probably didn't help that she had been drinking. "Do you have pain in your arm?"
"No, I don't think so but I feel nauseous, my chest hurts and I can't breathe." She replied with struggle. This hit Diantha right in the stomach, she caused this, she felt sick.
"I'm so sorry Cynthia, This is all my fault I should never have came here." Diantha jumped when she heard a knock at Cynthia's door. She went over to answer it, it was Steven.
"Oh Thank goodness you're here Steven I don't know what to do." He could see Diantha was on the verge of tears.
"What's going on?"
"I don't know I think she's having a heart attack or something." Diantha turned to see Cynthia bent over in pain, Steven rushed to her aid and observed her symptoms.
"Looks more like a panic attack to me, get a glass of water please." Diantha nodded and ran to the water cooler outside to get water.
"I'm scared Steven what's happening?" Cynthia cried out.
"You're gonna be fine, my mom used to have panic attacks all the time, now sit up straight." Steven wrapped his arms around the blonde's waist. Cynthia tried but backed down when she felt a stabbing feeling in her chest.
"It hurts." She panted heavily, almost looking like she was in labor.
"Do it slowly." He assisted her, straightening her body out. Once she was sat up he let her lean back on him. "I've got you now take long deep breaths and think nice calming thoughts, no matter how hard it is. She did as he asked, she trusted Steven with her life. Cynthia took long deep breaths despite the pain in her chest and thought of the calming sound of the oceans at night. After a while her breathing began to calm itself and the pain subsided. She held onto Steven's arm tightly, leaning her head on his shoulder. Diantha watched as she calmed down. "How do you feel now?" Steven asked her.
"A little better, my vision is still a little blurry though." Cynthia replied, sounding calmer.
"That's fine, it takes time," He took the water from Diantha and handed it to her. She drank almost all of it. "I think you should lie down for a while until you feel better." Cynthia nodded and moved up the bed, Steven held her waist for support as she still felt pretty weak. She collapsed down onto the pillow and relaxed. "Just stay there until you're feeling better." Steven reassured her.
"Don't leave, I don't wanna be alone!"
"Shh, don't worry I'm not going anywhere." He held her hand.
"Maybe I should go, I'm just making things worse by being here." Diantha said quietly and left. Cynthia sighed and buried her face in the pillow.
"I'll get her back once you're feeling better." Steven assured her.
"I dunno, she's better off without me really. All I've done tonight is cause mayhem and ruin everyone's night." Cynthia rubbed her eyes.
"I'll explain later why that's nonsense, for now I just want you to calm down." Cynthia gave in arguing, she just closed her eyes and thought of what she'd caused, eventually she fell asleep.