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Eli

I cut deeper than usual today but the pain I was feeling inside was unbearable. Julia's death just got worse and worse as the days went on.

Julia I am sorry. So so sorry.

She wouldn't have wanted this for me. She would have wanted me to move on with my life and be happy but without her life just seemed pointless. Yet once in a while I will relieve myself of all the pain with my razor. When I cut open my flesh and run the blade across my arm it makes everything inside me stop. I enjoy these few blissful seconds of peace.

My door creaks open and I quickly pull my sleeve over my fresh wound and hide my razor under my pillow. "Eli, you will be late for your first day at your new school." My mother smiled weakly.

"Whatever. I'm coming."

My mom. There is so much she has done to make losing Julia worse. She took me away from where we lived so I could "have a fresh start". She hid all the pictures she had of me and Julia so I wouldn't think about her. But she also pretended that she never existed. Of course trying to hide it made it much more real.

I grabbed the keys to my hearse and started walking out the door. My mom grabbed my shoulder.

"Eli, are you okay?" her voice full of false concern.

I shook her off. "No." I replied harshly and ran down the stairs and out the door.

Clare

Alli and me were walking into Degrassi. Alli was talking but I wasn't listening. I was too busy thinking about my parents' fight last night. I couldn't even make out what they were saying because the yelling was too loud. It broke my heart to hear them like this because I know soon they won't be together anymore and my perfect life will be shattered. I will be a messed up child because my parents couldn't work out their differences. My life was seriously sucking at the moment.

My thoughts were interrupted. "Clare! Clare!" Alli was waving her hand in my face. "Were you listening to me?" She was annoyed.

"Of course." I lied.

"Then what was I just saying?" I looked down trying to think.

"Uhhh….CRAP!" I feel flat on my face. "Ow…." The guy I bumped into was trying to gather all of his papers off the ground. He was absolutely breath taking! His dark hair fell in front of his face. He was wearing a black button down shirt with a black blazer and black skinnies. He had ht emost beautiful eyes ever. They were a beautiful shade of green. I could just stare into them all day. He was definitely a sight for sore eyes. I couldn't help but to sit in the middle of the hallway and stare at this beautiful stranger. (Of course with Alli walking away, laughing at me.)

Eli

Wow Eli. Good way to start off at a new school. Falling down in front of everyone. I could feel people's eyes on me. Well what do I care? I grabbed all of the stuff that I dropped and stood up, ignoring the stares. I looked down at the girl I bumped into. She was sitting down awkwardly on the floor, looking up at me, smiling. She had the most beautiful eyes. It was like looking into the ocean. Her red curls flowed naturally around her face. Her smile was just right. Full of happiness and love.

"Oh I'm sorry." I got down on my knees and started to gather all of stuff. I thought she would start helping me pick up HER things, but she just watched me. I ignored her uncomfortable stare and continued to pick up her stuff. I stood up, holding her text books and notebooks in one hand, holding my other out for her to take. She took it and stood up. Her hand was so smooth and gentle. Gosh I sound soo creepy…..

"Here you go." I said handing her things.

"Thanks."

"Eli Goldsworthy."

"What?"

"That's my name. Do I get the pleasure of knowing yours?" I smirk at her.

"Uhhhh... Ummm… Clare Edwards."

"Well see you around, Clare Edwards." I smirked and walked away towards my first period class.

Clare

"Oh mi gosh, Clare! You like the emo guy!" Alli squealed in first period.

"He's not emo. And I barely know him." The teacher walked in and basically told us to shut up. But what Alli said was true. I did sort of like Eli. But I don't really know him and I'm never going to see him again anyway so I might as well try and forget about him. Trying was going to be hard.