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The Course of Life

EPOV

Preface:

And both desire and pain ghostly drifted out from my body leaving me absolutely nothing to cling on to this time. Hollow. Leaving me the numb feeling I had once felt long ago. Mindlessly, I granted her wishes.

EPOV

Chapter 1- Blurred Gaze

I was expecting the drive to our new home to be a complete disaster. I expected the sun to peek impatiently behind the clouds; meaning many of the people of Forks would be outside to peer at our removal van and wonder what kind of family is moving in. But the window, painted with rain, offered the site of the weather- it was obviously on my side. I rested my head on the window. Now my muscles eased a bit, content that our van would be the last thing on people's minds.

My grandmother, June, forgot to mention the most important detail of this move; that Forks weather was most of the time grey and wet, the type of weather that allows me to stay inside my shelter without feeling guilty that other kids are sharing their time with their loved ones.

Of course Alice despised these weather conditions and perhaps that is why June decided to mention it until we were only streets away from our home. But of course neither Alice nor June cared for what they wanted, this move was for me. This place was for me apparently, they believed it might make me happier so they wouldn't dare deny me of this move.

"Well sure...I can adapt to this weather, I'm sure it'll be great huh Edward?" Alice looked at me through the rear view mirror forcing a smile as she spoke. Her attempt to try was nice however- even though she's my sister- most people would have faltered on me. "Yep" I mumbled back still glancing outside, hoping that silence would find its place within the van again.

June pointed up ahead, "it's this left coming up Alice" As Alice turned I lifted my head up to see the road we would now belong to. I tried tousling my hair in place, feeling the icy temperature of the window against my hand. The cold was a nice contrast to my warm clammy hand.

The road didn't fit my expectation. I imagined the houses built close to each other as if we lived in a prison where we had no room to ourselves. Yet my eyes focused away from my expectation and I saw that the houses were separated apart enough that I would feel plenty of privacy. Hm, I was surprised by how much was going my way, the weather now the road on my side- 2 for Edward, 0 for Forks. Yep, I was beginning to like the idea of living here. My eyes were jumping quickly from one house to another as Alice sped down the road, making the brown and white colours which wrapped around the houses morph together in a blur.

Our pale white coated house stood on the right side of the road. Alice began pulling into the drive way, but for a moment my eyes ignored the house and were preoccupied with what laid across the house. My head turned swiftly in curiosity and my eyes widened at the beauty- a dark misty green forest stared straight back at me. The dusky brown and green which gleamed from the forest twisted together in a glistening dance as the wind brushed slightly through it. The trees stretched behind the houses on the left side, stretched far off to the distant, far off into an unseen destination. A smile crept silently on my face as I stared at this inviting place; I could go into its mouth, alone, let out my feelings and it would blow my whispers down deeper through the forest, deeper to where it ends, in a place my eyes could not reach.

Our road was long, with normal houses, nothing original, just a normal place that really had no impact on me. Not even the exotic flowers- which grew pageantry on many lawns- could make me see positive. I sighed and slid out of the car finally my attention on our home whom I greeted with closed arms.

Since I was the only man now in the family I carried our luggage into the house.

From behind a voice startled me "Here Edward, let me help you with this".

"Alice I've got it! Do you really think I am that incapable of doing things?" I turned, my dark eyes glared at her; however I felt softness bubble deep down underneath my harsh glare. She shrugged her shoulders and coolly walked back into the house. I knew she simply wanted to be helpful in any sort of way to me, but the bubbling still ceased as I turned away from her. She understood why I was this person.

A few minutes after I was done a removalist helped me with the larger furniture while Alice and June were busy unpacking. Judging from the charcoal shade in the sky moving in took the whole day.

I walked slowly down the short hall way and up ahead my room existed, the furthest away from the living. My room was very wide and long, the largest. "Do you like!" a high pitched voice said surprising me from behind. I flinched. The element of surprise was Alice's specialty, especially as she had the advantage to be petit, so silence came naturally to her.

"Yeah it's...big, I mean wow I-I think I feel a great big bubble of happiness overwhelm me because of you're big heart sis" I spat out sarcastically, patting her black short hair that stabbed at my hand. She grunted and tried stomping away, but no noise came from her steps and then her bedroom door slammed.

As I began unloading some of my belonging a soft fist knocked on the door. "Come in" I replied to the knock. June slowly opened the door, her fragile hand clutched onto the golden door knob. I couldn't help by stare at her translucent weak skin where plum coloured lines- her veins- stood out, probably pulsing slower and slower each day, until soon...- I shook the thought away instantly before it grew any larger.

"Edward love, dinner is ready downstairs; will you be eating with us tonight?" She spoke softly, her eye brows frowned in a sympathetic expression.

"Sure, I'll be down there" I replied back monotonously, which was not deliberate but a tone which became natural to me now. I saw a smile try hike its way up her soft skin, which in some creases overlapped. A swift pain poked at me for being nice, silly huh? Hurting because of kindness.

The smell of my grandma's home made spaghetti lured me down the stairs. I sat down around the small varnished round table, which probably had room only for one small person. Alice served me but her eyes did not reach my face, I know she'll forgive me soon, that's the type of person she is. The warm food felt nice in my mouth from the long day. I began eating faster because I could not harness my hunger but also because a conversation was bound to begin from this stretching silence.

"So are you both excited for school tomorrow?" Yep, June didn't like the silence. I knew that question was more aimed towards Alice, as she knew that I'm not the sort of person to be excited anymore. Besides, I had a mouthful of spaghetti in my mouth so Alice had to answer.

"I heard the school is pretty good and I suppose making new friends will be sort of fun" Alice chirped. Then she got a bit serious "It's mine and Edward's last year of school, we should make the most of it" I swear she shot a nasty glance towards my direction. I began jittering in my seat, I don't think I'm going to like where this conversation will end up.

It felt like a whole long minute before finally June's fragile voice spoke; "Aww you two are growing up so fast. We should hold an end of year celebration, which I think you can take perfectly care of Alice".

"A graduation party, yeah that would be great! I should start thinking about ideas on the design of the house and..." Alice's voice started to fade in my ears. I tried blocking out all the noise and when I looked up at the young and old their mouths moved soundlessly. A silent movie I was witnessing.

To let the food settle I laid stiffly on my bed and listened to the noises around me. Cars screeched outside, their tyres fighting against the wet road. The wind's soprano voice echoed around the trees, around our house and tapped impatiently on my bedroom window. The shower was being used; the water pipes rattling in ache. But here inside my bedroom was silence. Mm, already I began feeling at ease with this place. I began thinking about the forest, so I got up from my bed, sat down at the desk in front of the window and took out my drawing pad and pencils. The forest seemed to stare back at me from across my window. A burning of desire began to glow inside of me. It formed in my stomach and then it rose to my fingers and then the pencil touched the page.

I observed the way the trees leaned in together, as if each branch from every tree supported each other. How each leaf appeared connected to every other leaf which grew in this surreal forest. The pencil continuously patted the paper with light marks of lead as I tried to capture the top of the trees-detailing each shadow of the night that rested in the creases of the leaves. The pencil haltered. I leaned my head back to observe my half drawn picture, and was quite pleased at how well I imitated what I saw. I slipped the unfinished work into a plastic sleeve folder accompanying my other drawings. I plummeted into bed once the lights were off- to prepare myself for the mental struggle that awaited me tomorrow- my first day at Forks high school.

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Kath:)