A/N: Here we are with a little series of drabbles on Alucard and Seras, and maybe other characters, just ask if you want someone, but you're warned: there will be no such a thing as joy or fluff here. Hope you'll enjoy.

Manga set, spoiler vol. 4. -I don't own Hellsing and you know it-

".." flashback

"…" normal speech

Don't you cry

"So it's my loss….." I lie on the ground, with a picket sticked into my heart. I'm empty.

"That's right it's your loss. This isn't some bad dreams from which you won't awaken". He hits me, fully enjoying my pain, and the blood pouring from the wounds he caused me.

"Your castle and territory are gone. All your loyals are dead. She will never be yours. Even her lineage is gone". He punches me, even harder than before. I'm alone…

" You poor No Life King, you're alone! You've nothing left, Count!" Nothing…nothing…NOTHING!

What the hell…? It was…..a dream? Ridiculous.

"Sirrr we're almost in England! We're gonna prepare for landing in ten minutes, so get ready!" Bernadotte's voice interrupt my musings. Stupid French mercenary.

"M-master?"

Police Girl; I thought she was sleeping in her coffin. But I don't want to show her my face stained with bloody tears, I can't show my weakness….what Master would I be?

"Master what are you doing, is everything all right?"

Yes, Seras. Everything is just fine. I get up and I'm about to leave, hiding my face from her, but something grabs my wrist. She's touching me..

"Police Girl. Let go". I sound harsher than I intended to, but it's for her own good .

"No Master. Tell me what's wrong. I now you're not alright".

"Police Girl, my wellness is none of your business . Now prepare for lending and let me go".

"No Master, don't go away!" She tighten her grip on my arm, and do something that makes me frozen: she hugs me from behind. Briefly, but she really does.

"Let me see your face, Master". I can't stop her and so she's now in front of me staring at me with those eyes, that I was right, red suits them perfectly.

"Well? Are you satisfied, Police Girl?"

"Master…..Alucard…..you were…..crying?"

"No Police Girl, why would you say that? Is there anything that makes you think so?"

"Master….sniff…" It's absurd. She's crying…..for me?

"Police Girl why are you crying?"

"B-because..if you cry, then I cry…..if you're in pain…..then I'm in pain too….please Master……don't cry!" She tip toe and takes my face in her petite hands, wiping away my crimson tears with her little fingers.

"Maybe…I can't help you, Master…but if you need me, I'm here".

She's so pure and naïve, everything I'm not. She knows I'm not the kind and nice type, that my nature is harshness. But it's no time to be ungrateful.

"Seras".

"Yes, Master?" She looks into my eyes, slight hopeful.

"Don't waste your tears for me".

Here's the first one. Review, and flame if you like, but please justify your reasons!