When
I awoke the world was black; the salty, wooden smell vaguely familiar.
My eyesight, however keen it may be, could only discern the white
crests of waves beating against a rocky shore. I tried to suppress the
familiarity tugging at the borders of my mind, but a gust of wind and
a burst
of lightning confirmed my fear—Bella.
Bolts
of electricity were tearing angrily through the sky, exposing her
outline in quick flashes. I couldn't make sense of any of it—the storm,
the beach, my sister stumbling across a cliff. Had
she taken up league with the occult? Was she summoning a mafia of
dark spirits
to 'take care' of my family?
Bella
made her way carefully to the edge of the precipice. She extended
her arms like a bird preparing to take flight, or someone about to…
the breath
caught in my throat as I realized Bella's intentions. She rolled
onto the
balls of her feet and—
"NO!
No, Bella, please! No!" I cried as I was pulled out of my
vision—Jasper's face inches from mine.
"Alice!
Alice, what did you see?" he demanded, concern etched in every
inch of his features.
"Bella…
she… Jasper, I have to go to Forks, I have to leave now."
"That's
out of the question." He replied, his curt tone leaving me stunned.
"But,
Jasper…"
"No,
Alice! No matter your affection for the girl, Edward is family. He
demanded we have no contact with her! This isn't easy for him,
either, you've seen the emptiness in his eyes, but we have to
respect his decision."
"You
don't understand! She…" The words stuck to the back of my throat,
refusing to be acknowledged as truth. "I saw her throw herself
from a cliff,
Jasper. I love Edward, but I will not allow Bella to die for his
foolishness."
"You
have no say in it, Alice! It is not our affair!"
"Would
you not expect Edward to do the same for you? Would you rather him
watch me drown?" I retorted, trying to hide the pain of his sharp
words.
"Alice,
there's no need for the dramatics. My love for you has no
relevance here," he said more softly, seeing past my façade.
"Give
Tanya my apologies for leaving on such short notice, and thank her
for her hospitality." I replied coldly as I walked from the room.
I found my
purse on the kitchen table and raced for the door, Jasper at my
heels.
"Alice!"
He called after me, knowing I would not turn back.
With
the flash of a high-status credit card and a few coy smiles I was granted
a plane ticket to Washington immediately. I found my seat by the
window and took it eagerly; memories of my vision and argument with Jasper
still burning beneath my eyelids. I tried convincing myself that I was,
as Jazz suggested, just being dramatic. Surely I would find Bella laughing
and happy with Mike or Tyler, all memories of Edward and my family
replaced or forgotten. Of course Bella hadn't spent the past six
months in the fetal position, hiding from the world like my brother.
Bella is strong and durable;
she did not buckle under the heartbreak. I didn't believe any of
it, but it was easier to breathe pretending I did.
This
was, after all, entirely my fault. I had insisted on a birthday
party, I had led Jasper to the Cullens. I hadn't been paying
enough attention; I hadn't seen his attack coming. Without me
Edward and Bella would be together. The guilt crushed into my chest,
shaking my very core. If I could just get to her in time, maybe I
could make up for all of my shortcomings. If I could get to her in
time maybe I would finally be able to chase away this demon.
"God,
if you're really out there…" I found myself whispering to the
dark clouds floating past my window. "If you're really out
there, and you can hear me, if you'll listen to me despite… well,
you know, please don't let anything happen to Bella. Please keep
her safe… if that truly means away from my family, so be it. Just
don't let her hurt anymore…"
"Would
you like a pillow, ma'am?" A young stewardess interrupted.
"No,
thank you." I looked back to the cotton figures dancing outside, feeling
rather foolish for my sudden spiritual outburst. Why would God grant
the requests of one he counted among the damned? I pulled my knees
into my chest, hoping with every fiber of my being that Carlisle was
right about the afterlife.
After
snaking my way past the few crowds gathered at the airport I ran for
what seemed like an eternity. Finally, the tall white structure
loomed in front
of me—home. Though I was aching for a shower and absolutely
famished I
wasted no time. Grabbing the first set of car keys I
found—Carlisle's Mercedes—I sped off to find Bella. Her
house was dark and the driveway empty.
"They're
probably at work." I explained to the empty passenger seat. I
took in a deep breath, braced myself for whatever I may find, and
opened
the car door. The street was quieter than usual, only the constant
patter of rain on the trees prevented complete silence. It was as if
the bricks and pavement themselves were in hushed reverence; the
atmosphere chilled me to
the bone. A crash of thunder in the distance made the horrible
guilt-monster roar to life.
"No.
This is not over." As if speaking the words aloud would silence my
inner torment.
The
interior of the Swan residence did nothing to placate my nightmare.
The stench of emptiness hung heavy, like a sheet covering old furniture.
Maybe… No. No, I would not entertain the thought. I felt as if I
were walking
through a dollhouse. People had obviously been here—there were dishes
in the sink and muddy footsteps by the door—but there was no life.
It wasn't until I saw Bella's room perfectly neat and showing no
signs of habitation that I let reality sink in. I was too late. I
knelt beside her bed, letting the last bit of her lingering scent
fill my senses.
The
sound of her ancient truck caught me completely off guard. Charlie
must have already learned of his daughter's death and retrieved her
truck from La Push; I'd forgotten how quickly word travels in such
a small town.
Charlie.
The guilt-monster returned, ripping at my chest and threatening
to devour me entirely. I ran to meet him, not bothering to think of
an excuse
for my presence. When I reached the bottom of the stairs I
encountered two very unexpected things: The soft, floral scent of
freesia that could only belong to my brother's dead girlfriend, and
the putrid, disgusting smell of a wet dog.
Suddenly,
I was trapped in a tight embrace; her luscious scent reminding
me why I hunted so often while in Forks.
"I'd
forgotten how exuberant you are." I said through clenched teeth.
She
let go, noticing my dark eyes.
My immense relief was overshadowed by even more confusion. She looked like a shadow of the friend I once knew; her eyes held no vivacity and her cheeks were sallow. But here she was, standing in front of me, breathing if not fully alive—which I suppose is all I could ask for. I took another, subtle whiff and tried to comprehend my conclusion.
Of course Bella had found the one thing in Forks more dangerous than throwing herself from a cliff during a storm—a werewolf.
