Hello, it's me again… the one who hasn't finished her fic yet. Sorry I really am but I have too many other ideas. Its 6 in the morning and I just woke up… I don't feel like taking crap from any one…
So, you don't have to read this is you don't want to. No one is forcing you T.T
I hated them, I always have. I hated them for things that where only human, showing compassion, feeling concerned. But then again, I hated them for hating me too. When I think about it I suppose I hated them, not because of their only human emotions… but because they where only human. It made more sense I suppose. I don't know why I hate them; perhaps because it's their fault I'm here, that I'm alive. Because of them that all of us are alive… because they are stupid. That's what I hated most about them, about him. That person who might have been my father, no matter what though I will never forgive him for what he did.
I've read many books; people often tend to think I'm stupid… just because I'm not human they think I can't think like a human. I've read the dictionary, it has my name in it and I suppose that makes sense, seeing as how my name is an emotion, more so a sin.
Envy: 1. A feeling of discontent and resentment aroused by and in conjunction with desire for the possessions or qualities of another.
2. Obsolete Malevolence.
As far as I know malevolence is malicious behavior… why must everything I do be so correlated with my name? It makes it feel more like a label than a name… well maybe it is? I've read other books, the kind that tell stories and always have a happy ending. I can see why people read those, they want to think, or go on thinking that there is a happy ending or a light at the end of the tunnel… they want to escape the fact that there's not. There's no such thing as a happy ending.
If I had the chance to be human the first thing I'd do is kill myself. Life is no fun after some 400 years… Life is never fun. At all. I find it hard to believe that anyone could find happiness in this world. And if anyone could it sure as hell wouldn't be me. I'd not allow myself to do something so… human. Happiness is a worthless human emotion that causes people to make stupid decisions. For example the Elric brothers and their whole "Lets bring back mom" escapade, oh they only wanted to see their precious mother's smiling face again. Talk about selfish! It disgusts me how they can just go on living knowing what they did and brushing it off as a mistake. Your mother didn't think it was just a mistake!
And I suppose I consider myself a mistake… yeah, I guess everything I say is contradictory to things I've said before. I'm just like that I guess… whatever I do I always end up angry at the world. And I'm sure as hell its angry at me too.
Whatever the case… I hope you understand that I know that everything I do is wrong, evil, perhaps stupid even, but every thing you do is just plain stupid. I don't care what you humans do as long as you don't involve me. Just leave me alone and I'll consider not killing you. I can't make any promises.
The End (Nya)
Yeah… I have no idea what to name this thing, but that's all there is to it… I feel that when I wake up a bit more I'll think this is stupid and delete it… unless you people actually like it. Then I cant or else I'll feel like a bad person… please just tell me what you think. -.-
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