I'm Sorry
Looking back now,
On all the things that I have done wrong,
I'm sorry
Terribly and irrevocably sorry,
But what will those words do now?
I'm sorry…
So sorry…
All the pain I have caused.
Everything around me
I lie.
I lied.
I will lie.
I will continue to lie.
It pains me
Why don't I stop?
My heart…
Is it there?
Or am I a void?
A voice that screams on the inside,
Smiling façade on the outside.
Never to let the true feelings shine through.
How can I smile so easily?
When I look back on all the wrong I've done…
The mask of innocence
I stay hidden,
Cringing away from my past-
From you…
I smile so well
It's a reaction
A false reaction…
A reaction that I cannot keep up any more.
I fall to my knees, sobbing in the dark,
Not letting others know
What I know.
Who I really am
Who you are.
I cry rarely
But now…
It pains me to do anything.
The feelings wash away-
But not now.
My body is not numb, but dry
Breaking
Fragile
I'm screaming on the inside
Help
Please
Help
No one can hear me though,
My heart throbs
I shiver and sob, hard and long in the cold darkness
My memories are not of the kind sort.
I seem happy
Cheerful
And possibly gay.
That cover
Is coming undone.
Will you help me?
I may be quick minded,
But if I am not,
I dwell in my mind,
Letting the bad memories come back.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I left you.
My selfishness,
I'm so sorry.
Fai…
I have nearly crushed your name…
I don't deserve it
I want to die
Because at least then we would be together.
Why do they make me live?
Make me suffer?
I have suffered enough!
I just wanna die!
I'm nice,
Then I'm cold,
I'm sweet,
Then I turn to ice!
It's so conflicting!
No one gives me what I truly want!
Please?
No one listens.
No one cares.
Or, they care too much…
I've sucked them into my false reality…
I've sucked myself in too.
I'm drowning in my own mind
Please?
Help…
I'm sorry I want to die
I'm sorry I want to leave
I'm sorry… please forgive me…
I cannot forgive myself,
So give me the gratitude of death
Hard, cold, solemn death…
That's what I want.
But no.
So I hide within myself.
Its tearing me apart…
So, I smile.
That takes some pain away,
But for how long?
It will run out one day,
I will have to tell the truth, one day.
Please,
Kill me before then…
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I want to die,
I see that it pains them.
What I want is something I will never get.
I can see that,
But I still want it.
I will always want it.
To be together with you, my brother…
Death is irreversible,
So instead of trying to keep you alive, I want to die…
I'm sorry
For what I have become…
A monster,
Black void,
Danger,
A smiling moron on the outside,
I cry and scream on the inside.
They don't see that because i am good at hiding.
Please, they need to find me.
Tell me what I want to hear…
Kurogane tells me to stop running.
Alright.
I have stopped running,
Now look.
I have one eye,
I hurt,
Kurogane hurts,
They hurt,
My heart,
I cannot find.
So, I'm sorry, but I want to die!
to say that i am alive is ironic.
How can I live if I don't feel my heart beat?
I have turned into something horrid now,
I want blood?
What kind of monster wants that?
I don't want blood! I want death.
I'm sorry.
Kill me now!
I…
I've lived a long life.
Yuuko?
Can you grant my wish?
Probably not.
I'm sorry…
What I want…
Is bad.
Do they not think I know that?
Do they think I have no reason?
Well I do.
I'm done fighting.
I just want to be with you.