May 14, 2014

I should've seen it coming.

But everything was pure chaos leading up to this. We had angels everywhere, at war with each other. Metatron and Gadreel. Abaddon. *Sigh* Abaddon's the reason we're even in this mess.

For once, things seemed to be going our way. We ganked our angel problems: Metatron, Gadreel, Bartholomew, Malachi… We even got the other angels back up. (Bobby, Kevin, and everyone else up there; we're all sorry you have to deal with them again…) Hell, Cas got his true Grace back! Things were looking up…

…Then we went after Abaddon.

I knew something was wrong with him. In the car, he kept shaking his head and muttering "no", each time a bit more panicked. Come to think of it, he seemed to be spacing out a lot the past few days. even talking to himself when he thought I wasn't around. I asked if anything was wrong, but he kept insisting he was fine. Like he always does.

Like I always do.

When we finally tracked her down to an old warehouse, things took a bad turn.

"Can't you feel it?" She said to us with a smile. "Should be familiar to you. He's back…" She chuckled a bit.

My blood ran cold. She could only mean one person: Lucifer. How could HE be back? She had to be lying. But I wasn't going to let HIM ruin our lives again. I lunged at her, my brother right behind me.

It was a furious struggle. She threw us around; we fired Devil's Trap bullets at her. She beat the crap out of us…

…That is, until we miraculously got The First Blade through her gut.

As she fell over, dead at last, my brother ran over to me. He looked like hell. From the look in his eyes, I can only assume I did, too. He snarled all of a sudden and bolted away.

"No! I'm not letting you in!" He shouted to himself.

There was silence.

"You've been tormenting me all week! Using that little piece you have inside me to get in my head! But I still say "no"!"

Silence.

"Yeah, well, you should know I'm a stubborn little…"

He clutched his head and started screaming. He looked at me and shouted my name in horror. Tears were streaming down his face.

"N…no…" He said, weaker.

He paused and dropped to his knees. I called out his name. It finally hit me what was going on.

"Don't do it! You can't let him in!" I shouted. But it was too late.

In a broken voice, Dean said yes.

There was a brilliant light. He got up. I could tell he wasn't Dean anymore. Lucifer smiled at me. "Hello again, Sam? Miss me?" He said, holding his arms out. "What do you think?"

I didn't say a word. He frowned. "Now, is that any way to treat an old friend? One as close as I was?" He tutted. "Well, I gotta go. Unfinished business, you know…" And with that, Lucifer was gone. Along with my brother.

I prayed for Cas. He appeared not much later. "Sam, what's wrong?" he asked, healing me up. He looked around. "Where's Dean?"

I started shaking. Cas looked at me and I could tell he understood. He went catatonic, fury dancing in his eyes. I punched the concrete floor and yelled Dean's name out at the top of my lungs.

I swear, I'm going to get you back, Dean. I don't care what it takes. It's my turn to save you. It's my turn to set things right…

-Sam