The Indecision of Dougie Poynter

To be or not to be… Didn't some old guys say that. Well whatever. Anyway that's all I kept thinking of while sitting here watching this stupid movie with Tom. For some odd reason he loved it. And for some odd reason I loved him.

Back to the "to be or not to be", to be true to him and tell him or not to be true and keep up the act. See there's the problem. If I tell him and he get's pissed then I'm out of a job. You know he would kick me out of the band if he found out I was in love with him.

I'm pretty convinced he's hereto though. Wouldn't that be a shock for him. "Hey Tom, I just wanted to tell you that I'm gay and well I think I'm in love with you too." I can see it now. He would either him me or run away screaming.

So I'm pressed up against the arm of the couch as far away from him as possible. Trying to turn my attention to this movie.

"Do I smell bad Dougie?" Tom asked bring me out of thought.

"No, Why?" I answered quickly

"You sitting really far away" he said "I though I smelled bad or something"

No you smell amazing, "No I'm just more comfortable here"

"You making me nerves. Came sit next to me" He said causing my pulse to quicken

"I'm fine here." I said pretending to watch the movie

"Please" he said with that smile that made me melt inside.

There was no getting around it. I reluctlently got up and moved next to him, keeping a wide space in between us.

"Why don't you want to sit next to me?"

'Your paranoid Tom" I said, "Can we just watch the movie"

"Not until you tell me what's wrong,"

"For Christ sake Tom! Nothing"

Why was he so relentless. I wish he would jut drop it. But I know better. He moved closer to me. I scooted away. This is how he wanted to play it. He moved again. Bu stayed where I was. I turned my head quickly to face him. He was staring at me.

"Why are you being like this?" I asked.

He didn't say anything, he just looked at me. He started to bring his face closer to mine. His mouth getting closer and closer. Are you kidding me! His lips brushed mine for a brief second, but he pulled away just as fast.

"I'm sorry" he said looking panicked.

I just shook my head and closed the distance between us once more.