Live without you
Sasuke had been fallowing her for a while now. Since this morning, until she'd woken up and in these instants as she walked about the village as from everywhere everyone worried about small details for the upcoming storm. It was interesting how she seemed to be the only one calmly marching, almost as if no one told her what was happening. He liked it.
She glanced back and his heart stopped. It was almost as if she had seen him from afar. Except she hadn't. She turned her head to her steps. He wished she'd seen him.
His stomach tied in knots just thinking about tonight. If she would talk to him tonight.
Oh, my stomach's tied in knots
I'm afraid of what I'll find if you want to talk tonight
Oooo Oooo
See the problem isn't you, it's me I know
I can tell, I've seen it time after time
And I'll push you away
I get so afraid, oh no
Everyone was gone. The skies darken to the color of tempest and the wind roared the form. He stood outside her window. She had pulled the covers around her shoulders. She was cold and he shivered.
He had left everyone behind today. Karin, Suigetsu and Juugo, he didn't feel like staring at their faces today. Rather, the feeling of being suffocated was no longer bearable and there was something hallowed that echoed with something. He didn't know what it was. He planned on answering it tonight. He just wished that Naruto didn't turn at her doorstep trying to take refuge in her house because he just didn't want to be alone in this downpour.
Sasuke didn't want to be alone.
She turned around and looked at her window. Luckily Sasuke moved in time. He breathed as his stomach contradicted with itself. She was the answer.
Oh, my stomach's tied in knots
I'm afraid of what I'll find if I can see you with him tonight
Oooo oooo
See problem isn't you, it's me I know
I do this every single time
I'll push you away, ohh
I get so afraid, oh no
The rain started shortly after and he thought it was ironic. She was ironic. And he gritted his teeth and kicked himself for letting it get to him. He knew that this was wrong, since he entered her room this morning. It was a mistake. He should have left. He should have left. He has to leave.
He entered her room before the rain caught him.
He still had time to go away before she noticed he was there. Before he himself knew he was there. He could make this right. This was wrong. He could make this right. This was wrong.
He could push away. He couldn't push closer. He couldn't bare the humiliation that this could bring. What if she saw him there? He couldn't bare the shame that this could bring.
What if she never saw him there? He couldn't bare the indignity that this could bring.
He pushed himself to sit beside her.
She kept pulling the covers tangled around her body as raindrops hit the window pane. She was cold and he shivered.
He picked the silk covers and brought it to her. For a second she seemed to relax. For a second one of his fingers touched her shoulder. It was more silky then the covers.
His stomach tied in knots. It wasn't the fact that the pain subsided and increased at some same level, it wasn't the desire to join her there, it wasn't the regret. Her eyes were open. This time she was looking at him.
Her eyes were piercing and he shivered.
"Sasuke?" he felt his heart sink with the bitterness she used to say it and with the hurt that she pronounced it.
"Sakura." He hated how his voice was anticipated and soft.
She stared not blinking at him, her eyes and ocean of green grass. Expect grass wasn't that color. And it wasn't as closely pretty.
It seemed to take her a few moments to realize what was happening as her eyes grew, fogging with the realization, scrambling away from the covers. She started to move to one corner, wrapping her arms around her legs as she hid her face with her hands. She began to rapidly take air as if she was gasping.
He left like he couldn't breathe.
Sasuke didn't know whether to stay there and let herself calm down. This was his time to back out. This was his time to run. Leave and never remember this day. He could push away.
He pushed his feet to where she was.
She started to shook. As if by instinct she let one finger drop and she saw him.
"Get out!" She screamed her voice sore at the end, he flinched.
"But-" he said though he was interrupted and though he didn't know what he started to protest for.
"Leave me alone!" She sounded like an animal. The ache constricted. The knots tangled even further. He crossed his hands trying to hide as he gripped his abdomen. "Leave! Leave! Leave!"
He sat down again trying to ease the pain. "Why?" he whispered.
She had stopped screaming but she rocked herself back and forth. She ran her hands rapidly against her hair. "Because I'll kill you. I promise I will, this time I will. Before you me."
She still hadn't. She most have known that too or she must have seen his face, he knows that he must have looked like a sentimental idiot. "Because leaving means no return. You can't be here." She paused, momentarily looking at her feet. When she looked back she seemed confuse. "Because I hate you."
That was it. He stood and walked to the only way out and the only way he should have gone from the start. When he stared beyond what seemed to be an endless abyss the knots tighten and couldn't help but glance at her one more time.
She beckoned her head to the outside and it was as though all her tantrum had gone and a cold exterior had appeared. He shivered.
"But- it's raining." It was a foolish excuse and he didn't know why he was doing this.
She looked troubled again. "Leave."
"And I'm afraid." As his words tumbled from his mouth and he knew that this was it. The truth.
Her face cracked. "I'm afraid." He repeated, the words becoming more real and more surreal. "I'm afraid because I left everyone to fallow you all day. For no reason. It's stupid because you always did that and I always thought it was stupid. And it's stupid. Stupid because I understand it now. Stupid because I understand that I can't live without you now."
At her look he started to stumble for words and he felt a pang of realization. All of this was ironic, in one point in his past she had done this and now with some twist of fate he was too. She was ironic.
"I… I can't even live with myself."
"Leave." Her words were like knife and he never tasted rejection like this. But her face was held higher than her words even if tears were streaming down her cheeks.
"I know," he kept on insisting even though it was over. "It's all my fault. I understand why you're trying to be against. I only have myself to blame but do you think we could-"
"Stop!" she shouted as she jumped out of her bed. She came to where he was and for a split second he was half expecting her to wrap her arms around him. Expect she opened the window. "Stop," she ordered weakly as she looked down at the floor, "just… leave."
The wind rattled with her hair as it tainted her with rain. When he didn't say anything she raised her watery eyes to him. He let the last words of his sentence slip "-start again…"
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don't want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again
I only have myself to blame
Let's start again
Let's start again
I can't live without you
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh-oh
I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
And I don't want nobody else
Oh-oh-oh
'Cause I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
I can't even live with myself
Oh-oh
And I can't live without you now
Oh-oh
'Cause I don't want nobody else
Nobody else
Nobody else
I can't live without you
Oh
The end
A/N: I do not own Naruto or their characters. This is horrible I know, I know. But I want your opinions. So you suspected correct this is a song fic though I didn't want to tell that from the beginning because then I will spoil it. The song is 'Stomach tied in knots' though I think you might get it from how I over used the expression. Oh, from the band Sleeping with sirens. XD Also this is inspired by ISSAC the current storm that lamely hit Puerto Rico if canceling two days of school and work for rain is lame! I'm stalling, aren't I?
Either way what do you guys think? Comment?