I was eleven years old during the year 1864, living in Mystic Falls, Virginia with my two older brothers a father who basically despised me for causing my mother's death and became quite hostile and rough with me, when the heartless Katherine Pierce entered our lives, manipulating my brother's to do what she wanted them to do even it meant severing their relationship in the process.
It certainly was no secret to anyone that I was anti- Katherine, as I had made my distaste for her known to anyone that was willing to listen to me, though there were only few that actually tolerated me on the plantation which had been my father's doing as everyone had loved my mother and knew if I had never been born, my mother would have never gotten sick, and because I am to blame, I didn't have the same respect of being a Salvatore as my brother's had got.
The only one that I could ever completely trust is my oldest brother, Damon, the one who has raised and cared for me since he was fourteen as father would not, and the only one that truly loved me in this dysfunctional family, always giving me his full attention whenever I needed him, until that selfish heartless bitch took my Dami away from me.
Although I have wanted to tell Damon how I really felt all these years about the whole Katherine situation, I could never admit to my brother just how hurt I really was from Katherine when my Dami had suddenly started ignoring me to spend all his time with that bitch, who was only using my Dami to make our seventeen year old brother, Stefan jealous which destroyed their close and trusting relationship.
The relationship that I have with my brother, Stefan is very strained, not at all having the same close relationship that I have with Dami, but I always saw Damon more as my parent than my brother, and I know it always bothered Damon that Stefan and I had never gotten along.
Our relationship only got worse as we got older, especially when Katherine had showed up while Damon had still been away in the Confederate Army, and I had missed Dami terribly when he had been away and was extremely nervous with Damon being off at war, frightened that he was not going to come back alive.
It wasn't like I didn't try to have some kind of relationship with Stefan because I really did try, especially after Damon left and I was missing him, and since I never really got the chance to bond with Stefan before, I wanted to start having more of a closer relationship with Stefan, but my older brother just pushed me away, not wanting a close relationship with me, and should not expect him to protect me from the cruelty of our father like Damon did, and have never forgiven my brother for that.
Though I always knew my father hated me for being naïve and innocent as I was back then, and had always believed that everybody was good in the world and that nothing bad could ever happen.
I learned what the true meaning of evil had been when my own father used me for profit as if I was a piece of property and not his eleven year old daughter, by forcing me to be violated like some plaything for his sick disturbed friends.
While it may have been my father that used me as some object and allowed me to be molested by his rich friends, I would never expect anything less from my father, though I didn't expect he would go as far as he did, but it was Stefan that had done the unforgivable and cannot help but feel betrayed by my brother for not protecting me from our father like I needed him to, but he just stood there and watched as I got molested, never once coming to my aide, which was far worse than what my father ever did to me.
I love my older brother, Damon more than anything else, having always been more like a father to me than my own ever had been to me and if I had to ever choose between Damon and my father, I would always choose Damon over my father any day, even though he was the one that disciplined me and never letting me get away with much, but I still love my brother and because I love Damon so much, I couldn't tell him what our father did to me while he was away in the Confederate Army, and that I partially blamed Dami for not being there when I needed the most and he was too busy obsessing over Katherine to even bother noticing that something terrible happened to me while he had been away.
I knew from the start that something just wasn't right with Katherine from the dark looks that she used to give me whenever my brother's had their backs turned, giving off a vibe that made me feel like she was very dangerous and I shouldn't trust her, especially with Damon and Stefan.
I tried to tell my brothers how uncomfortable Katherine would make me feel when they weren't around, and while Stefan didn't believe a word of what I said, calling me a liar and his only reaction was to push me to the ground and make me cry, Damon did believe me when I said I felt uncomfortable around Katherine, but thought it was me just being a child with an overactive imagination and that I just wanted some attention.
Damon may have told me that there was nothing to fear, but my instincts knew something just wasn't right with Katherine Pierce and though I will always trust Damon with my life as my protector my whole life, sometimes you just need to follow your instincts and my instincts were telling me Katherine was dangerous, but never expected to be right.
I may have been eleven when Katherine had first entered our lives and destroying them in the process, but I wasn't stupid either and knew that Katherine was hiding some dark secret, and I intended to find out what exactly that secret was.
I knew Damon would have never approved of me snooping like I had done just so I could get some information on Katherine, and if Damon ever found out I went behind his back, especially after he specifically told me to not go snooping around Katherine, Dami would be more than furious with me for deliberately disobeying him, and would probably earn me a good spanking over his knee for sure, even if I did discover Katherine's secret.
Katherine was more than just dangerous, she wasn't even human, Katherine was a vampire, and she had both of my brother's under her compulsion which was one of her vampire tricks that she has, and I would so love to shove some vervain, an herb that weakens vampires, down her throat for the way she had manipulated my brother's, especially Damon who was affected the most from the bitches influence, and even after all these years, Damon still believes that Katherine loves him, and my brother is going to be heartbroken when he learns the truth.
I was only eleven at the time, when Katherine showed up and became the center of everyone's attention which really set me off as I was always the center of my brother's attention and I got pushed off to the side, and that was so not okay with me because Damon was my brother before anything else which he seemed to have forgotten about completely when Katherine started coming around.
Being pushed aside and ignored for Katherine back in 1864, even though Damon had been under Katherine's compulsion at the time, has caused me to have some serious abandonment and separation anxiety issues, clinging to my oldest brother with everything I got, terrified that he might disappear and abandon me again, and I wouldn't even have these issues if Katherine Pierce hadn't disrupted our lives.
It only took me two months to discover Katherine's secret, though didn't know if my brother's knew of her deadly secret, but suspected that Damon at least knew as he had given me a necklace filled with vervain to protect me from vampire compulsion so obviously his love for Katherine can only extend so far when it comes between her being a vampire and my safety.
If I can manage to figure out in only just a couple of months that Katherine is a vampire, it would only be a matter of time before the council discovers the truth as well and they would stake her the first chance they got, especially my own cold- hearted father and he had shown more love to her than he would have ever considered showing to me.
Despite playing the poor innocent girl that tragically lost her family in a house fire and catching the eyes of both my brother's when my father took her in, Katherine was still a vampire that killed people with no remorse, to survive and she wasn't exactly discreet about it either, and I was actually surprised that the bitch wasn't caught sooner than she was, and my idiot brother's just had to go and try to save her, even when I had begged Damon not to leave me that night, that I needed him, but he left me so that he could save Katherine from being killed in a church fire which I am still trying to get over Damon leaving me that night for Katherine, and that was probably the biggest mistake of their lives.
My father had been the one that was leading the roundup of vampires to burn in the church and when my older brothers had raced to save Katherine, my father shot them in cold-blood for being a sympathizer of vampires, causing me to be completely devastated with the loss of my brothers which was the worst thing that my father could of done as both of my brothers had died with vampire blood in their system, and that is the main ingredient in becoming a vampire which I hadn't known at time, until Stefan showed up after having been shot dead and completed his vampire transition by drinking our father blood dry, not that I am actually upset about my father's death, but Stefan killed him right in front of me and used me as leverage to get Damon to complete his own transition by turning me against my will, knowing the Damon wouldn't leave me, forcing Dami to complete his transition.
I had barely been twelve years old, having just recently had my birthday a few weeks before, when Stefan had turned me into a vampire and forever condemning me as a twelve year old immortal child, and though a part of me was glad that I would remain a child so that I could always be with Damon, who wanted me to have a chance to be a child as I was never really allowed the chance before because of my father, even if it was as a vampire child.
It wasn't until after Damon had completed his transition that he learned the truth about Katherine and the tomb under the church, sealing all the vampires in for the last 145 years while he waited for the next comet to pass over, only ever trusting me with this secret and I will always remain loyal with my oldest brother.
While Damon had believed that Katherine was in the tomb, I had my doubts of her being in the tomb and I had shared my doubts with Damon, but he had just dismissed them, saying he saw her get dragged into the church, but if there is one thing Katherine wasn't was stupid and would be clever enough to not get caught, so it makes me wonder if she is actually in the tomb with the rest of the vampires, or she had managed to escape by playing one of her games and if my doubts are true, that means that Katherine has been playing Damon for 145 years and he is going to be heartbroken with having only me to comfort him.
Since Stefan became a vampire, his bloodlust changed him from the brother that I once knew, becoming a uncontrollable blood thirsty ripper who didn't seem to care about us getting exposed because my brother couldn't control his own bloodlust and had shut off his humanity out of guilt for killing our father to complete his transition, forcing Damon to make the choice to leave Mystic Falls and Stefan behind, taking me with him and leaving behind all our unresolved issues.
Though my brother Damon has seen Stefan since we left Mystic Falls in 1865, a year after we had been turned into vampires, wanting to torment Stefan since Damon and I fled Mystic Falls in 1865, I refused to see Stefan for what he did to me 145 years ago, even when Damon goes to visit Stefan to torment him and would throw one of my famous temper tantrums on my older brother whenever he tries to get me to go with him to attempt to make amends with Stefan, but it isn't like Stefan has even tried to make amends with me, and so I saw no reason to even make amends when he didn't care enough in 145 years to even ask Damon about me.
It wasn't like I didn't want to resolve my issues with Stefan, but I refuse to be the one to make the first move, after years of being rejected from him. Damon refused to get involved anymore, since the incident of 1862 that isn't worth repeating, though I know Damon wants these issues resolved, but Damon doesn't know how serious our issues are as I haven't told him everything.
If it wasn't for Katherine and her manipulating both my brothers like puppets and turning them both against each other with me stuck in the middle, Damon would have known that I haven't been completely honest with him and the seriousness of my issues with Stefan and the real reason why I cannot forgive him.
Damon has always been able to tell when I wasn't being truthful to him when no one else could see my lies and was the only one that could put a stop to one of my tantrums of soothe my meltdowns when my emotions were too much for me to handle on my own, and Damon knowing just how to calm me, but Damon hasn't been much of a parental figure to me since becoming a vampire.
Though Damon has always been there, despite his obsession of wanting to get Katherine out of the tomb that I doubt she is even in though Damon keeps insisting she is, he hasn't been much of a firm parental figure to me as I needed him to be, not since gaining our vampire status and never realized just how much his role as my parental figure meant to me, giving my brother and I a special parent- child relationship that has always made me feel safe, until it was gone as he is too busy obsessing over Katherine to really care what I do.
Although I may not be ready to face Stefan quite yet, I was being forced to go to Mystic Falls, where I grew up, with Damon while he attempts to open the tomb that Katherine is not in, without Stefan knowing as he would only try to keep Damon from reaching his goal, like he didn't deserve happiness and judging and acting all high and mighty just because he drinks animal blood, believing it makes him more humane than Damon who chooses to drinks human, like I do and we're the monsters when we don't even need to kill to survive, and I haven't killed since being a new vampire when I couldn't control my bloodlust yet and if it wasn't for Damon, I would have probably turned off my humanity because I had accidently killed someone while I had been feeding and lost control, but I mostly drink from blood bags these days.
Damon has always been the one thing that keeps me from ever having to consider turning off my humanity, like I am his humanity, the only one that could turn his humanity back on after he turned it off when Damon went missing for five years.
It took me a while to realize Damon was missing as I had been away at a special art school for six months and had almost contacted Stefan for help, but decided against it as he probably wouldn't have helped me anyway, so I went to Stefan's best friend, Lexi, hoping she would help me locate Damon, but she had turned me down, insisting that Damon wasn't missing and probably just used art school as an excuse to ditch me, no longer wanting me around and Damon probably never loved me anyway, and I should have known better than to believe she would help me as Lexi was Stefan's best friend, not mine and who knows what he told her about me.
I knew what Lexi said to me about Damon wasn't true because he would never have ditched me like that and I was his baby sister and he says he needs to always to look after me and didn't disappear on me on purpose, but I was Ally Salvatore, baby sister to the famous Salvatore brothers though not as well known, but loyal and lethal and I was finally coming home.