1I am writing my ideal way of handling the end of New Moon. I am not a Jacob Black fan, so if you like him with Bella, then I'm sorry, you are out of luck! I will try to give him a happy ending. :) I hope you enjoy!

My Wish is only to be with you!

BPOV

"Jake, what are you doing?" I asked! I tried to pull away. He wasn't going to let that happen. He exerted some force and his lips were on mine. I knew that this would end badly. I had led him on, I had come over here everyday. What must he have thought? I shoved against him, and I felt him pull away.

"Oh Bella, I'm sorry I thought that was what you wanted!" Jake replied. I could tell that he truly did believe this. How could I have done this to him!

"I'm so sorry Jake, I must have led this on! I can't...I have to go!"

"No Bella, I am so sorry, please stay. This was entirely my fault, I should have known that you wouldn't have been ready for this kind of commitment this soon, after he left!"

That really set me off. I could feel that hole in my chest ripping itself wide open. I could tell that Jacob could see the change in tension. I was looking down now and I could feel the tears falling over the brims of my eyes. I would not be able to hold it in. The only thing that I could do was get out of here. Get out of sight of those bikes that had brought Edward's voice into my head, and especially get away from Jacob. He had brought up the one thing that I had been trying to get away from for the past five, six months. He had brought about more pain, more pain than I could endure!

I was in my truck now, and I could see that Jacob was following. He was at the door knocking on the window.

"Please Bella, I am so sorry, can we talk?" Jacob asked

This was definitely the wrong thing to ask! This brought on the hysterics. I was glad that I had thought to lock the truck doors before Jacob could get here. He was pulling on the handle with all the force that he could, as though he would be able to pull the whole door off to comfort me. He wanted to talk! That may be the one thing that I didn't want to do! I knew that he would want to talk about Edward. I hated myself then for even thinking the name. That was not the way to be trying to move on!

I turned the key in the ignition, and the engine roared to life. I threw the truck in reverse and flew out of the driveway, and up the street as fast as my old truck would take me. I knew that it was unsafe for me to be driving when I was this distraught.

I pulled onto the side of road, and let my emotion overcome me.

"EDWARD CULLEN HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME! HOW COULD YOU DRIVE YOUR FAMILY AWAY AND LEAVE ME HERE TO ROT! I CAN'T GET OVER YOU" I screamed. I knew that it was no use, no one could hear me. I curled in a ball, laying across both of the seats. "I wish I could talk to Alice, she would know how to help me." I muttered under my breath.

I hated myself at that moment, I knew that I wasn't helping myself. I knew that I wasn't over this. I will never be. I wanted to leave this life. I wanted to be free of my pain and suffering. I knew that I wouldn't be able to do this. I couldn't think of the depression that this would put on Charlie, Renee, and now Jacob. My life was still the living hell it had been when Edward left. I knew that all I wanted to do was put out that fire.

I screamed again, I needed to let it out. I couldn't hold it in"EDWARD YOU STARTED THE FIRE! COME PUT IT OUT!"

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