The trees are a beautiful shade of orange and yellow the air is cold but enticing just like he was. I love the fall. I find myself walking down a road I haven't been down in years but I remember it all too well, I remember everything about him like it was yesterday the memories of our beautiful story that didn't have the ending we wanted

I remember riding down this road the autumn air was cold just like today the autumn leaves were falling all over. He looked over at me like I was the most mesmerizing thing he'd ever seen, he almost ran the red light I'll never forget that look in his green eyes the truth is his eyes are the most mesmerizing thing I've ever seen

I wonder where he is now.

After my graduation we tried to make long distance work for the second time I thought we could after everything we went through if I had known I'd lose him and it be the biggest regret of my life I would have moved in when he asked me prom night if I had maybe I'd still have him. I know he's long gone and the magic we had isn't here anymore. I might be okay but I'm not fine at all

I pass by his house and remember the nights we spent dancing around his kitchen in the middle of the night, I remember all the pictures and stories his mom told me he was so embarrassed and everything he told me about his past thinking his future was me.

The day we ended the last time he called me and broke me. casually cruel I hated you then but you were just being honest. It wasn't working we never saw each other we were fighting all the time and that's not how love was supposed to be but that didn't mean I didn't love him. I still love him

But I know he's gone and I forget about him long enough to forget why I needed to. it's like I'm paralyzed. we were rare I remember it, you remember it.

It's been three years since I've seen Eli Goldsworthy, Things have changed I'm a journalist like I always wanted to be but something's still missing it's him it'll always be him

I guess he's in new York right now he's made quite a name for himself he's the famous director he wanted to be and I'm so happy for him I heard a rumour he got engaged and if so I hope she gives him everything I couldn't, But that doesn't mean I don't want him.

lost in thought I found myself at our bench it's full of memories both beautiful and tragic our love was never simple we were like a hurricane you were so in love that you acted insane but that's the way I loved you.

I remember beautiful memories like the first time I made love to you, it's something I'll never forget or regret. I wonder if you still have my ring

I remember the tragic memories like losing our son, I always thought we would have a second chance together, I wonder if you think about him as often as I do.

"Clare? is that you?" that voice I know that voice like the back of my hand but it can't be I take a deep breath before turning to look

"Eli"