This is one of the snapping ideas that I can't rein in my head so…I hope u like it! And review. Oh I won't be updating soon but just give me a week to finish my mid year exams and I'll be on fanfiction 24/7.

Chapter One:

Bella's POV:

I stepped on the gas paddle harder but eased my foot on it. My poor truck is taking a lot of pressure lately, going to school, La push, Newton's store and back home. So here I am, going over to my were-wolf friend to cliff dive with him.

I was only miles away from La push, but I stopped at the border and slung my bag over my shoulder. Even though, I wasn't one of the…of the…Cullens, I still feel that putting anything that has any memory for them in La push would break the treaty and I don't want them hurt. They didn't hurt me, he did.

I would enjoy jogging my way to Jake's house; I just had time to think. I needed the time to think, talking to Jake helped but not much. I still need time.

It's been long since I haven't heard his voice. No rush, no adrenaline, no hearing Him. His voice was like drug I'm addicted to, my own personal brand of heroin.

I laughed half-heartedly at the coincidence. He used to say that when he described my blood. I wrapped my arms around my chest to keep the wound from ripping open. My head dropped as my jog slowed to a walk.

But why am I hearing his voice? I mean, I though about it before but is it possible that there will be possibility C? If there is what is it? I've never thought of this, of possibility C…

An idea crossed my mind and it made my eyes tear up. Is it possible that he still loves me? That he left to protect me? That He left because he loved me?

I stopped dead on my tracks, only feet away from Jake's house. It all made sense! All of this fit!

Edward- I thought his name now without any pain- my modest, selfless, and most loving vampire could do anything to protect me, even if it made him lie.

How could I never think about this?! He must be torturing himself after lying like that! That deep emotion in his eyes I saw that moment, it was that depression that he's been into for hurting, for leaving me, leaving his heart and his soul with me and I only thought about myself.

This emotion, this sadness, this guilt and regret, were covered but not good. And I was too late to discover, just too late.

Sobs were about to rip their way through my chest but I swallowed them causing my self hiccups. Too late. Too late. Too late.

I kept chanting the words in my head. I am the one who put herself in this; Edward had done nothing, absolutely nothing to do with my hurting. It was me, always me, being too late.

I ran fast towards Jake's house, my eyes on my feet, until I bumped into a tree. No it's too warm for a tree, it's definitely someone.

I got up on my feet and was about to go around whoever I bumped into and complete the last steps of my mission but hands gripped my shoulder and spun me around.

I gasped and almost screamed but stifled it. Jake pulled me into his chest but I no longer felt comfortable there. I want the cold marble chest.

"Hey, hey. Calm down! It's just me!" Jake said as he patted my back. I tried squirm out of his arms but his arms tightened around me. Weird.

I hiccupped quietly into his chest until I calmed down. I pulled away and looked at my feet as my arms tightened around my torso. The wound is ripped now, there's no way to seal it. I've lived with the chances that Edward might come back, but it's me. If I hadn't discovered this late…

"Ah!" he said with realization. Jake was my only best friend in here beside Angela and Ben. He usually understood me, especially that we know each others secrets. I suppose that he thinks now are my moments of pain because Edward left me, but this is different. I'm in pain because I didn't get him back. I was able to do it but I didn't…because I was too late.

I looked around and haven't realized that we were Jake's garage until now. I saw sitting beside his rabbit looking at me with his gaze full of concern. I smiled at him and unwrapped my arms around myself. I would feel nothing; I am as numb as dead.

Dead. My plans are in action and they are going on very well.

"So" he said as he pulled the garage door down, "We're diving right?" he asked as he turned around to face me.

"That's what's on the Agenda." I said as I glanced at the sea glimmering under the sun rays.

"You want a wolf ride?" he asked, sounding a little smug. I turned around and stared at him in disbelief "You serious?" I asked.

"Of course! So yes or no?" he asked. I thought about it. It won't do anything. I nodded eagerly, adrenaline pulsing through my veins. Jake grinned at me and ran towards the trees.

"No Bella." Edward's voice spoke to me.

"Don't worry, this is safe. Jake would never ever hurt me. I've always wanted to try this and this is my last chance." I thought to him quietly, smiling.

"Last chance?"

"You'll see, just wait. Don't worry, I'll be safe."

"Promise?"

"I'll promise you with everything I own, Edward. My one and only." I thought to him and his voice faded away.

The trees moved. I narrowed my eyes at them. A great bear-sized russet wolf appeared through them. He turned his head towards me, his eyes full of hesitation.

Oh, he thinks I'll freak out. I chuckled then waved for him "Come on, we don't have all day!"

Jake approached in slow paces and I huffed. Suddenly I felt his nose nuzzling against my stomach, tickling me. Though I didn't want to laugh, I did, reluctantly.

He showed his teeth, his lips stretching across his face. A wolfy grin. I messed up the fur on his head. He lowered his body for me and helped me up with his head. I was now settled on his back.

He looked at my face from the corner of his eyes, then at my hands, then at his back. Yeah, that's 'hold on tight'. I gripped his fur in my fists gently. Then I nodded at him.

Everything was a blur. The only thing I could see was our destination, the cliffs. The feeling of the air blowing of my hair was nice but not as nice as it was with Edward. Thank god we were running so fast, because if we weren't, Jake would've noticed the tears in my eyes.

We slowed down to a stop, but I didn't dismount. I was too shocked and I totally forgot about my easy motion sickness.

I looked at Jake's eyes, which were concerned again and dismounted carefully. I swayed but I felt Jake's head slip under my right arm, supporting me.

He set me on the ground and gave me a stern, meaningful look. I nodded and he trotted towards the woods. I looked around. The sun was starting to cover by the gray clouds.

Jake came back, human, and sat beside me.

"You feeling okay?"

"Yeah, I forgot that I get motion sickness." I said as I smiled sheepishly at him. He smiled back.

Suddenly we heard a howl from deep in the forest, maybe to the east. Jacob shot upright.

"I'll be right back." He said before he ran towards the woods. I watched him go away with gratefulness and worry.

So I sat there waiting for any sign that Jake's okay. Where is he? Is it possible that they might've caught Victoria's scent?

I rocked myself back and forth, hugging my knees to my chest. It's been an hour until now.

I heard another howl, a familiar voice. It was Jake. I was sure of it. And if it wasn't, I wouldn't have anything tying me to this world.

I got up and stood at the edge of the cliff. I inhaled deeply as I felt the adrenaline rush furiously this time.

"Bella no!"

"It's my choice, I want this."

"Bella please."

"Edward, I should face it. If I hadn't discovered this late, we would've been together."

"Bella, I'm begging you. Please, for me don't do this."

"I'm sorry Edward, I have to. I love you Edward."

"No!"

I pushed myself of the cliff, falling into the water with an irregular dive. My body smacking to the water's surface, it felt like ice cold knives stabbing me everywhere.

I didn't fight, I just let go.

"Bella fight! Bella! Damn it!"

"I love you Edward."

My body was thrown in all directions, but I didn't care. My lungs were burning for air but I didn't care. All I cared about right now was death.

There was a crack that made my mind go incoherent. I couldn't think straight but I could here Edward's voice sharp clear.

A snap and I was numb. Nothing at all. I felt neither nothing beneath me nor above me just the lightness of the nothingness.

I could hear a depressed voice far away that I didn't recognize. Saying my name was the only clear thing. I tuned it out.

I opened my lids; above me were beautiful blue clear skies. I got up and looked around, It was our meadow. Beautiful like the first time I saw it.

Edward was standing across the meadow, smiling at me. I ran towards him and threw myself into his chest. I could feel his icy marble skin melt slightly against my skin.

I am dead.

I pulled away and looked into his golden eyes. Molten butterscotch now, his eyes burned into mine.

"Why?" he said, his velvety voice melting my insides.

"I could not live with the fact that I was the one to be blamed."

"You were never the one to be blamed, love, and I don't care who was, I'm just deeply sorry."

"Never say that." I said as I stretched on my toes. His hand gripped my waist and lifted me off the ground and my legs wrapped around his waist involuntarily

His face leaned forward slightly and his lips touched mine. Our lips molding together, making way for our passion to leak in. No limits.

We fell to the grass and increased the passion deepening the kiss, overwhelmed with feeling.

Oh, I am definitely dead!

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