A/N: Hey people of Earth, Jupiter, and Wisconsin! This is my second Spirited Away fanfic, and I hope you enjoy it! I might be making more chapters. Tell me if I should.
Disclaimer: If I owned Spirited Away, I probably wouldn't be writing this. :) And I don't own the song My Immortal or the iPod.
Chihiro woke up, her heart pounding, beads of sweat dripping down her forehead and clumps of her dark brown hair all over the pillow. She sat up slowly, trying to remember what happened…It was only a dream, she told herself. Calm down.
She rubbed the sleep from her eyes and looked at her alarm clock on her end table. 3:57 am. She sighed. It was the third time this week that she had been having these dreams, the dreams that haunted her once pleasant ones.
Whenever Chihiro had these dreams or moments, she would get out her iPod and listen to a certain song. She would play that song over and over and over again, and she never got tired of it. She opened a drawer and took out her sketchbook and iPod and put the headphones in her ears and pressed play. Instantly, a Van Halen song came on, and it was at the maximum volume. She quickly turned it down, and switched the song to My Immortal by Evanescence.
"Much better," she muttered to herself. She opened her sketchbook and looked through it carefully, studying each page. Chihiro was very good at drawing, but she never showed her drawings to anybody. They were just too personal. Most of them were either dragons or of a particular young man she had once met.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
"Why did I ever have to leave you?" Chihiro whispered to herself as she looked at a drawing of a silver and blue dragon flying in the night sky. "Why couldn't I have just stayed with you?" Because you were too busy worrying about your parents to notice that you had fallen in love with him, her mind answered. Chihiro closed her eyes, trying to stop the tears coming down.
These wounds won't seen to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held you hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Chihiro stopped at one picture in particular. It was of Haku, and she smiled as the looked at his face. She loved the way his emerald green eyes lit up and how his black hair had that dark green tint to it. Oh, how she wanted to see him! She missed him. She missed him more than anyone she had ever known. Compared to being separated from her parents, this would be ten times worse.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
You're face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seen to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just to much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
A single tear fell down the page of the drawing. She tried to wipe them away, but they just kept coming. After all these months all the dam that had been holding the tears back broke. She cried and cried, not caring if the tears ruined her drawing. If only tears could bring him back to her. How could she spend tomorrow without him here? He said he would come back one day, but when? Will he ever come?
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
It was like their separation from each other was a bad wound or a deep cut that never seemed to heal. The imprint was always there. It never went away. It was in fact, her who saved when he was close to death, wasn't it? It was her who broke the curse off of Yubaba's seal. It was her who stood up to No Face, the vicious man-eating monster.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held you hand through all of these years
But you still have
As she slowly drifted off to sleep, she whispered his name. it felt good to say it.
"Haku…"
All of me
A/N: Well, what do you think? Should I make more chapters? Please RNR