I'm All Alone, Uruha/Aoi fic ^_^

random fic I did just now, be warned!

basic fic on life..

poor Uruha. :'(

Summary: Why is he doing this to me? /Uruha's POV

Warnings: based on something that happened to me, angst, sadness, hurt, pain, etc etc etc :o

Pairings: Uruha/Aoi, Aoi/Reita, Ruki/Kai (later on)

Disclaimer: I don't own the GazettE in any wa- KAI! THAT IS NOT FOOD! :(

I walk in the cold empty street.

A few thoughts crossing over my mind.. But nothing much.

There are those times where.. You don't think anyone understands you.

How everything seems to just rush by you, and you're the only one left feeling confused.

I get that feeling a lot.

Everyone's becoming so distant lately.

I haven't heard from Kai in a while.. He's been to busy hanging out with his other friends to care about me, probably.

Even my Aoi seems to not care about me.. He's been hanging out with that damned Reita.. I want to tell Aoi that how he ignores me sometimes and keeps going off with Reita makes me feel so sad, but I don't want to ruin things for him. I know Aoi and Reita have been best friends since high-school or whatever, but.. could they ever spare a thought about me?

I make people feel sad.

I have a too dramatic life.

Everyone knows I had an eating disorder, which Aoi got so angry about, but they don't know I still don't eat.

I cut myself.

I hurt myself a lot, because I deserve it. I'm a stupid person, at least that's what everyone thinks.

It's raining.

I left my umbrella at me and Aoi's house.. by the front door.

For some reason I.. Don't want to go to Aoi's house.

Reita keeps coming over.. They leave me out, tell me they want to be left.. Do they not know I have feelings too?

Aoi and I were on the computer looking at funny videos like we do every Saturday.. But this time he didn't hold my hand or lock my leg with his, or even lean on me like he always does, to make me feel safe, he just.. leant back and folded his arms, and basically ignored my presence.

The rain's getting heavier by the second.

I break it to a fast walk as I travel along the pavement.

I wonder if Aoi's texted me?

I scramble around in my coat pocket, taking out my phone.

Oh.

He didn't text me at all.

A text asking where I was would have been nice.

I wonder if I should send him a text, but I always do.. It might annoy him.

I keep getting the feeling that I annoy him.

The house is in sight.

I walk closer to the house, shivering from the sudden gusts of wind.

It's so cold...

I reach the door, and taking a nervous breath, I ring the doorbell.

Once.

Twice.

Three times.

There's no answer.

I knock on the door.

Aoi can't have left.. I told him this morning I hadn't got my key!

Maybe he.. forgot..

Maybe he's starting to forget about me.

Maybe..

I decide to get out my phone.

I hover for a while before deciding what to write.

The rain is still pouring.

"Aoi, I told you this morning I didn't have my key... I'm locked outside &its raining! Love you.. 3 3"

I check the text to see if it looks okay, then send it.

No reply.

Maybe I wrote something bad?

Maybe he's ignoring me.

What if he's with Reita?

I sigh softly.

My phone vibrates in my already shaking hands.

He replied.

"Uruha, it's in the plantpot, didn't u hear me this morning? ."

That was all he said.

He sounded a little pissed off.

I told him I loved him.. Does he not love me back?

This feeling hurts.

A sinking feeling in my heart.

I look around with my aching heart and spot something shiny buried in the soil of the plantpot.

I take it out.

The key!

I unlock the door and walk inside.

Shutting the door I look around.

Silence.

Oops.

I should reply to Aoi's text.

"Okay! Thank you! I'm inside now! Where are you, by the way?3"

I guess that's an.. alright-ish text..

He doesn't reply to that anyway.

I sigh and throw my phone onto the couch, where it lands with a soft "floop" sound.

I like that sound.

I walk to the couch and pick up my phone, and drop it back down again.

"Floop".

It's fun.

I stop as soon as I realise how stupid I look, and sigh.

I really want to know where Aoi is.

I walk into the kitchen and pour a glass of water.

The clock says 10pm.

Aoi's still not back!

I'm so worried.

I think he is sleeping around Reita's.

Damn bastard.

Reita's stupid.

Stupid, Stupid, Stuuppiddd.

For taking away MY Aoi.

He's MINE.

But Aoi's more happier around Reita.

Everything's so confusing.. It almost gives me a headache.

I would do anything to be a 12 year old teenager again.

No worries.

No love.

No troubles.

Nothing.

Sometimes I want to hurt Aoi like he hurts me, so he can realise that I am hurt.

Sometimes when I'm alone, I hate Aoi.

But whenever I see his face, he's forgiven.

That's what love does to you, I guess.

It's practise tomorrow.

I wonder if I'll see him then.

I wonder.

I go upstairs and tuck myself into bed.. alone.

All alone.

I'm alone.

Aoi knows that I hate being alone.

I always need someone near me.

He's not here though.

He used to ask someone else to sleep at our house whenever he was away.

I liked that.

But what about now?

Is he really starting to forget about me?

I sniff under the cover in the empty, cold house, feeling the shadows creep up on me.

I've never been left alone.

Not in 6 years.

This feeling.. So lonely.. So Sad.. So scary..

I feel something grab at my leg.

I scream and thrash about wildy.

I calm down after a bit, my heart racing wildly, and rest under the covers, weeping quietly.

Why is no one here?

Why can't I be strong?

Why do I get the feeling Aoi is going to leave me?

Why am I crying?

Why am I all alone?

So many questions.. They give me a headache.

I'm so retarted.

I hate everything about myself.

Why was I born.

I finally get to sleep at about 3am, after being kept up by the scary noises and the feeling I have.

I WARNED YOU! Mehehehe.

this story is actually based on something that exactly happened to me...

Well, I hope you enjoyed!:3

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