I've woken up and there's that happy feeling in my tummy as I look over at you, yesterday this was the last thing I expected to happen but here we are. It's taken the best part of 10 years but we've finally got here.
It was an accident getting here, I'd only meant to kiss your cheek but you kissed my lips and we haven't actually spoke since, instead we've been immersed in a world of passion.
I don't know what all of this means but I couldn't be happier that its happened as I've loved for you for long now and couldn't find the words to tell you but I'm hoping that now you've realised.
For all my faults and weaknesses you are my biggest and after last night I'm sure you feel the same.
Now though as you lay in my arms I can't help but watch you sleep, the way you cling to me making my heart melt and I hope to God that this isn't the only time you let me in. Having you and losing you would be the thing that kills me, not smoking as you so often comment.
If you rejected me now I know I wouldn't cope and I wouldn't be able to keep a lid on the love which for so long has stayed hidden. Something which wouldn't do either of us any good. I know if this came to anything it'd have to be a secret and surprisingly I'm okay with that.
I don't know what any of this means but all I know is that since yesterday is everything has changed.